How can I love myself
When I keep breaking my own heart
How can I move on
When I fall right back down

Running to hide away
No strength left to stay
I've got a long way ahead
But want to give up instead

How can I love myself
When there's nothing to like
How can I move on
When it's all I've ever known

Arriving in an empty space
Tears running down my face
Walked away to end up here
It all confirmed my fear

How can I love myself
After all this pain
How can I move on
When I've got nothing to gain

Tears rolling down my face
Walking through a dreadful place
Held on for far too long
But used to be so strong

At night out of everyones sight
Waiting for when the time's right
The demons would make me feel
like the wounds could never heal

Convince myself with smiling
even my insides are dying
As I keep on burning
I feel the tables turning

You might see hope
Don't see with what I cope
Told you there's no other way
Wouldn't listen to what I say

Told myself this lie all years
While confronting all my fears
Never saw a day get brighter
But made me more of a fighter

I've been hiding it all perfectly well
in me there is this burning hell
Though tears might fall and you'll hear me weep
You'll never know what going on in the deep

I might laugh and sing along
pretend I'm fine when I'm not
Fighting everyday to be strong
Tried to give everything that I've got

As I'm barely holding on they
tell me to keep up the brave fights
though they never seem to notice
How I'm dreading the lonely nights

And no one seems to care
As I slowly fall apart
While darkness consumes me
I let it break my heart

Day after day drifting away
Slowly killing all good I knew
I give in, let it have my soul too

I’m barely holding it together
Feelings change like the weather
This darkness consumes my mind
Like I‘m living my life blind

Desperately trying to breathe air
But I‘m lost in despair
Wished someone was there
But do they really care

All these years I‘ve been trying
To build a life when I felt like dying
Found a way to numb the pain
Where only scars will remain

With all the demons I dealt
Can they understand how I felt
I don‘t know if I can win
With monsters living in my skin

**** it up, play it cool
You believed it, such a fool
Told me to be strong
When you don‘t know what‘s wrong