None can ever say
that I did not try
to find my way--
I traveled all the way here
to start a new life
to escape the fear
of living with a monster
that never stayed under the bed--
instead he lashed out daily
and bashed in my head
and when I ran with all my might
to escape the abuse, the fear
he somehow found his way
and discovered me here--
so I had to resort to legalities
begging the law
to just take him away--Please.

He's in jail now
for quite a long time--
you see he finally committed
a heinous crime
of killing someone
with his bought and paid for gun
and I hope he does many years
so I will no longer have to run--

none can ever say
that I didn't try
to find my way
to make a real life
right here...
so that I won't have to hide
and live in fear
of monsters that don't stay under the bed
and of wondering  when it will be me
who they find lying dead...

**** it.
Last night, I didn't get any sleep.
I am awake for the last 24 hours thinking
How I never even got an inkling
That things are going south between us
And as such, you left without any promises of coming back.
But I didn't believe you.
So I waited for the next 12 hours telling myself,
"She will come back."
"She'll realize she's wrong."
"She will definitely come back."
"I can never be wrong."
But I was.
And it was the worst mistake that I've ever made.
How I just let you slip between my fingers.
How I never even bothered to read between your words.
How I let you look at him without even asking what was between the two of you.
How you speak about him all the time, but I never cared.
Now, all that I can think of is you and how you managed to find the reasons to leave me
But never even bothered to find one reason to stay.
And **** you for that.
I can never sleep again.
Because my dreams are filled with the sound of your laughs
And the feel of your touches.
And I will never sleep again.
Because rest will only give me more time to think of you
And I don't want to think of you anymore.
I swear, I will never think of you anymore.

It's adequate to discern what you feel
Have been proven thus by ages
Let it all flow through your pen
Without restraint, they must flow
When You're done letting out
The last of the fear, sorrow n guilt
You will know that it was well worth
You no longer brood on the same
As it has become a thing of the past
And you have new emotions
Waiting to be expressed
With intuition running deeper
Making you proud
Of growing more conscious of self
May all your feelings find a word or two
To wrap around
While resting in time capsule
Leaving you poised
With clarity of thought
One stride at a time

You said you needed someone,
So I was there again,
To try and pick up the pieces,
To try and rekindle our flame,
Of a love that was once broken,
Can be reborn again,
Because I loved you I let you go,
But know its time to hold you in my arms again,
As my love for you never went,
And now I hope you feel the same.