i’m lonely with you
but
i’ll be lonely without you

devastation
doesn’t quite say how deep
this shattering
of my life
is

i know
we will be ok
but
right now
i’m not ok

I'm so sorry I said those words
I'm so sorry I did those things
If I leave you'll be hurt
but only for a little while
you'll be okay
I want to just tear out my heart
Stop the feelings
Stop the hurt
Make it so we feel alright
and go back to the way things were

So much to say,
So few people to truly listen.

now that
we both know

it suddenly
seems
more sad
more lonely

too real

I could be okay by now
If I asked you to help me
Out of the grave
That I’ve been placed in
But I was taught differently

If only you let me hold your hand
And cry on your shoulder at least every once in a while
Because now when people yell at me
To grab onto something on the way down
And all I see is your hand
I can’t  grab it
Because you always told me not to

If only you let me hold your hand, mom