Don't tell me I'm like them
When you don't know what that means
Don't say I'm disappointing you
When you don't know the you disappoint me
Don't argue that I need to shape up
When you don't know how I'd want to shape up
Don't hit me with your words
If you don't know how they will land

I’m slowing down again
In the time of blooming flowers
Or dying leaves
Thoughts are slowing down again
Only a few get in
And of those many few
Most of them are dead

I'm ready to say goodbye
They want me to forgive you
Or forget you
Maybe just to stop holding on
But I can't
Because even when it wasn't returned
     And it almost never was
I loved you
Over and over and over again
You hurt me
And I couldn't forgive you
     No point in wasting time
And I couldn't forget you
     You were my everything, how could I forget that?
And I couldn't stop holding on
     Because I wanted to believe you'd get better
I couldn't let go
And you never get better
So I'm ready to say goodbye
I'll remember you
I'll love you
I'll hope for you
But I'm never getting close again

She keeps songs
locked away in boxes
like secrets.
She will take them out
like postcards
to help her remember
the feeling of
a different time,
a different person
by her side.
She likes the one
that makes her
eyes close
to see the lights.
She smiles at
the one that  
makes her stand
up on tiptoes,
the one that
helps her forget
she doesn’t know
what to do
with her hands.

The tune
will carry her.

Like it did
the times when
voices broke
like a heart.
When instruments’ strings
would snap
and hurt.

i need to stop
setting myself on fire
to keep you warm.

I was there
all the concerts
all the plays
all the performances
all of it
I even went so far as to follow your footsteps
Because I enjoyed what you did up on the stage
You don't bother to come
I quit
And now you decide that you have the time, the money, the means
To come to the things I always wanted you to see me do

I guess that when it comes to showing your support
You can only show up for people you don't even know
And break your baby sister's heart