looking at this old photograph
a picture of smiles for you and me
i think about how you made me laugh
now, there's no smiles to see

images in my mind are different
almost like a clearer view
this photo is lacking pigment
since there is no me and you

no one cares
no one supports me
they say I can't do anything
never will I be succesful
my ideas my words my wishes and dreams
crushed by enemys
no friends that support me
no family that cares
this is why I pursue
why I am still here
to prove them wrong to show
I will be someone
putting smiles on faces is a way to get credit
gaining there trust is different
a weird guy without a life is all they see
but worthless
is not me
a champion will reign
if I only had help

The flame that fuels me
Also turns me to ash

new year
same me
because god didn't make me to change annually

Endless months fell
like sand between my fingertips
as I tried to smooth out the creases
that covered my bedsheets
before I realised
that you were not a crease in my bedsheets,
you were the gust of wind that put them there.