Why is it that evrytime I am trying
To study for my exams, to prevent me from failing
I often find my self just staring
To the ceiling that once was nothing but plain boring
But after studying, the ceiling becomes more interesting
Tell me what is it with studying, that makes everything
Interesting
Well everything, except for studying...

slaying playing
member of the ******* clan 4life
hashtag no life
wannabe motar so i can potar
******* trying to motar boat
punch em in thoat
picken them little kids with thee
HEY I GOT SOME CANDY
work everytime and i always say evrytime
*** baker4life

When we grow old
Would you still kiss my forehead
And wake me up
****** glances at me
When i step out of the bath

When we grow old
Would you still eat
The burnt toast for breakfast
Evrytime i tried to make it good
And screwd it up

When we grow old
Would you still brew me coffee
When i have a ****** up head
Or on weekends
So that i can stay a little longer in bed

When we grow old
Would you still call me beautiful
And kiss me passionately
Would you still hold me in silence
And say how your heart beats only for me

When we grow old
Would you still surprise me with gifts
And leave behind chits

When we grow old
Would you still rest my head on your shoulder
And sing me a song
Would you still promise to love me
When i'm gone

And when i'm gone
Would you promise to carry me
In your arms to the grave
Like you carried me so lovingly
On our wedding day

I lived hand to mouth
searching the occult mysteries for clues
hoping in Gods I never really believed in
evrytime I got close
i kept being turned away
the veneer truth seem so real
especially when I could see my own reflection.
Praying for deliverance
to Gods I thought I should believe in
the truth came under the shadow of darkness
and the shiny slick oiling of a false hope
desperation was each meal
each thought
each action
every breath
clinging to life
and the shadows closing in
supressed
muzzled and subdued
I called for help
i didn’t know from who
I didn’t know from where
and one shadow reached
I flinched waiting for more of the same
only I was held
lifted up
raised from the death I was living
and I was taken
and weary,
suspicious I waited for pain
but I was fed instead
warmed,
clothed
and housed
educated and never did I think
the glimmer on his charm
hung from his neck
was the hope of all hopes
glory was mine and I hadn’t earned a thing
and so I walk the life dragging my own cross
walking lighter than my sorrows
prouder than my strain
and just like that
all I was made good again
I pay it forward daily
but you don’t know our love for you
look out,
here we come
our backs
holding broken sticks
and taking up all your stones
to save you
and let you know
that you are more than just mere flesh and bone
you are our everything
and we will come for you.
lay down your sticks and stones
and thickened skin
its time to Shine
and thrive.

im sorry i saw venus in your galaxy eyes
when it was nothing but

dim

im sorry it felt electric whenever our skins grazed against each other
when you were just


cold

im sorry it felt nervous
looking into your devil smile
when you were just


ecstatic

im sorry it felt like home evrytime you said my name
when you were just

lonely

im sorry it took so long to forget your face
when you never even bothered to remember my name

but most of all,

im sorry i put all these metaphors
to your ordinary features
when all you gave me was 3 years of agony and a lifetime's worth of absence

Everytime i look at her face
Its a grim reminder
Times when i put my mind into her
The time we falter
When there is no shoulder
To cry on Or a roof to cover
The rain it is so insane
It is a shame that
Evrytime i think of her
Its a grim reminder

Everything I close my eyes
I see you looking at me

The spark your eyes had
The small smile you were trying to hide
The warmth you gave off

Evrytime I close my eyes
I see you holding me
Laughing and remarking to yourself
Making me giggle as I felt safe

Everytime I close my eyes
I see you
And me
In the dim light night

Everytime I open my eyes
I want to cry
Because you made me feel something
I forgot was not a imaginary thought of a child
You made me feel comfortable and safe
And not scarred of my past

So I escape to my dreams
Where I can see you again