Some say it's only love if it never goes away,
Some say love changes by the hour, by the day.
Some say love's only real if it's shared,
Some say unrequited love is everywhere.

You all don't know what's fake and what's real.
You all don't know how Romeo and Juliet feel.
It is time for the self righteous bullcrap to be over.
Let's put love back in the hands of the lover.

mother.-
"why can you spend so much time
writing all this sappy bullcrap
but cannot study hard
to get good
grades?"

math teacher, senior high school.-
"why do you write such good poetry
but **** so bad
at math?"

acquantainces/maybe friends, anygradeinanyschool.-
"hey
your poetry sounds pretty good
i just
don't understand
what you are trying
to say."

writing instructor, free elective course, college.-
"your poetry is really good
for someone whose first language is
not english."

lover.-
"you are good at writing poetry,
but besides that,
you just seem clueless
almost
dumb
most of the time
you cannot hear
what i say
nor can you understand
much of it.
it seems like
you are lost
in your own world,
have conversation with me
in your head."

i want to blame all these people
for making me think
i must be really good
at poetry
for i hardly am
in anything else
that actually
matters.

fans of apathy-monsters-winter heart-bound-trail of broken tears-i remember


There's no "go team" for fans of apathy
that stadium lacks capacity
casual acts of random vanity
man has relaxed, average atrophy

sadness lasts longer than catastrophe
forced to face the facts of tragedy
who cares what is and what has to be
our lacking will lead to our agony

monsters

The monster is never fed
something is missing in our heads
i sit upon the dust
and i walk through the cobwebs

there's an error in my dreams
nothing is ever how it seems
I realize that I'm awake
and no one hears my screams

there's a world that doesn't care
as long as it's happening over there
I sit upon the glass
and walk up broken stairs

the monster is never bled
feasting on the blood it sheds
I sit upon the rust
and walk on river beds

trail of broken tears

Whispering water of tumbling creek
braving blue ridge mountain steeps
wet feet walking on a Cherokee trail
Tom Tom, drum beat, tribal wail

forlorn flashbacks under foot
hopeless harrow, horse and hoof
savage sorrow of suffering souls
war swept wasteland, walking coals

I remember

I remember when we smoked together
rolling in a haze of pleasure
endless dreams, without measure
I wish it were like that forever

it was such a care-free feeling
knowing that you were always willing
so high, we were on the ceiling
the magic of a plant so healing

we weren't young, but we played the part
taking adventures in the dark
girl, you really left your mark
you'll live forever in my heart

bound

I found the key that opens the door
to what is to be and what is being for
bound to see a hopeless open sore
I'll never be free from seeing more

I saw the light that shines so dim
onto the monster that lives within
bound by visions of who, what, and when
I'll never be free to be happy again

I found the path that leads the way
to where tomorrow meets with yesterday
bound to see the black through the grey
I'll never be free from thoughts gone astray

winter heart

Goodbye to the summer sun
light has played the biggest part
its ok, what's done is done
I am ready for an autumn start

hello to an autumn chill
discolored leaves fall apart
its ok, what was is still
as cold as my winter heart

Fiddlesticks,
I want her lips!!!

Emptied out the suitcase of my thoughts
I'm kinda tired of lugging them around
Searching for a place to just feel sore
Without some ******* telling me
To flip my smile around

If I could? Don't you think I would?
If I could just blank out the bullcrap of today
If I could? You bet I would.
Funnily ******* enough, things don't quite work that way.

Wiping away the scratchmarks of the day
With the antiseptic wipe of yet another pill

you're sitting so far away
telling me this and that
and I don't know what's true
and what's not
new or old ?
is there really someone new
did you really do this to go and do that
because darling if what I hear
is really true
then home has its doors closed for you

you tell me not to fck with you
and believe what I already know
that in the end its always me & you
but I really don't know anything anymore
and you aren't helping with your
mixed vibes
I've always known for a fact
that its you & me when all this is over
because I know what it feels like
to have found your soulmate
but is all this "new" talk really true
or is it more of your poetic bullcrap

and trust me I'm into neither
but I'd rather have a bitter pill
of truth and death
than one of life and fantasy

all I'm saying is
I'm no 3rd and 5th choice
no half-assed promise
no sugar coated lie
and you know me
and you know what I'm saying
even when I'm not saying it
because I don't got a this or a that
for me
its either this or its that
so stop with your mixed vibes
and tell me what is it
new or old?
and is it really true

I just found out from a good friend that miss jc Stole and reposted mine own poem dwindling on her page making people think its her poem.. . to you Mrs Jc... And other people who come on this site to make us miserable, I don't hate you.. Actually I feel sorry for you and believe more than ever you need God in your life and for someone to care for you.. sad thing is.. Good people left like me don't hate you nor am I mad at you... I know you have some good down in that soul... So please on mine behalf and others stop copying poems from me and from others and stop acting like a nitwit on a page for people to express their souls and hearts.. People already have bad enough days..  Like alot on here just as you have bad enough day.. How about everyone on here copies your work and posts it as theirs???? Huh jc? What than?
Or what if we constantly cut you down daily when noone did before and now from your childish bullcrap you've brought this on you... Like the others who have done that here.... Soo I'm not mad at you again nor do I hate you.... I forgive all and love all beings.. I pray you find your inner peace and God and true love and stop messing with others true love and poems and their own selves..... . your broken.. Angry at yourself God and the world... And you decide to take your anger and pain out in others.   Well guess what? Not me JC!!!!! Not me.. I'm forgiving.. But unlike alot I will draw you out...not from rage or anger but to show you people are trying to helpppppppppp youuuuuuuuu!!!! Why? You ask because they have good souls??? Now where is that good soul I know you have in you Mrs Jc? Huh where is it.... Stop covering yourself with a mask and for once except others help... Though you don't feel love... From a being to another being who cares for your well-being.. Because you are soo unhappy it will lead you down to more major damage to your self. Others and more God...... Can't you see people in HP love you.??? And you wanna lose the privilege of people trying to help you? What then when people stop trying to help? You'll lose yourself... Which I can see you are losing self now.... Again not mad don't hate you.  But except our love and trying to help you instead of you harming us .   thank you

Brandon cory NAGLEY!!!!

Snapped out this morning from this languorous phase of time,
The grande-sized aftershock of loving too much.
When I cannot seem to make words perfectly rhymed,
My knuckles crackled as reminiscion went back to your touch.

Regret and remorse are on the same page today
As I lament the loss of the would and should be
Dear, would the script at the end be always sorry?
Or I just made cowardice and insecurity a part of me?

I talk bullcrap again and again with no gain.
Using words that makes you boggle in vain again.
I’d make haste and tell you my story
Just listen a while for I wont and I don’t want to tarry.

Well, I met this gal on a drab gloomy room on a tuesday.
I was taken aback for she came in vamoose-like doomsday.
You ever experienced this, when your sight crops to 4 by 3?
Background blurs and she’s completely all you see.

I could’ve went to her straight and say hey lady, I could’ve.
But I was held in my seat for bravery did I not inherit.
Numbers flew by and still I’m far from ready,
That until this day, I still don’t know what to say.

The days I’m with her, I’m only half alive.
Every word I say to her are either true or guarded.
How can I compliment as a friend and appreciate as a lover behind a wall that's 12-inched?
How can I hold her hand as a friend while my insides are turning-twisted?

I’ve wronged her seven shades of Sunday,
And I’ve been pained 32 shades of **** day.
Is the universe unfair to me for being ****** to not love her throughout?
Or not fair to her for this love of mine she has missed out?

Bullcrap

statues standing attracting, what of pose?  what of character?  what of beauty?  


why of symmetry?  that is the most perplexing, to fathom symmetry, to be able to understand it, draw it, how come?   Why doe things seem to work out so perfect?  I wish I understood it better

Darwin says this this this this this
so did jesus that that that that

bullcrap

signed

muskrat

I've been thinking about this situation and I really want to properly type this. sorta. I am beyond grateful for your existence and you being here on earth. it means so much and it made a whole lot of difference in my life which makes my heart jump. I've been thinking about my recovery and how you've stayed and supported my health. It's not serious, I know. It may not be the best time, and it mustn't have been easy for you to handle silly situations and to tolerate this bullcrap. It absolutely wasn't the smoothest relationships we had and it was wrecking everything at that time. im so thankful for you and how much you've made me feel me and see the God that loves me again. surrounding myself with people like you guys make me feel lighter despite the downs in between. your existence encourages me to express myself in many forms and it gets better every time; just not on my own. I don't remember if I was expressive or not as a person but I feel like you need to know how you've helped. thank you.

Sometimes when I wake,
why does life feel so fake...

Why is the girl I love,
as mean as a snake....

Where are those words of kindness...
Which have been replaced with hate..

Why has making love,
been replaced with a kick to the head...

Why has laying in bed together laughing,
to her she procrastinate

Go ask Jake the snake
For Pete sake

For a keepsake
Steal from Peter and Paul and Jake

Jake the snake fish rate
Tate on tape and faith

Now men ******* over me *******
Even club tax and DJ

I am a single princess at stake
Seeing through ******* slate

Now we in a bullcrap state
The toll bridge is golden gate

A silence in the dark, liquid sparks, water works for eyes
Real men do cry, like heroes named nothing, Vietnam trash truck spinal tap
A real rap, no bullcrap, veterans on anti-psychotic full stacks
Rearrange that, do a dime flat then tell me about it, kid
Foam lunch dragon chaser, make your life an eraser and get rid of it
Knee deep in ****, they're screaming in the dark, dead larks
Arcs of soulless blue pills, the way life inevitably kills
Concrete fills your shoes, see you in the deep end, son
No fun, no sun, only darkness, heartless, ruthless con artist
If you don't want none don't start it, I'll eat your heart kid
Smell like a ****, kid, go catch a dart, lid, split, wig, hit
Being caught in the **** rain again, about to go insane again
Another manic pink panic, the train ****** ran in, to me
Help me, someone, anyone, my eyes pour pitchers for my comrades nightly

Life once asked the death
“Why do people hate you but love me?”
She asked him curiously
“It’s simple.”
He answered.
“That’s because i’m the painful truth.
And you are the sweetest lie.”

Life was still curious
“What if there are someone who thinks that i’m the painful lie?”
She asked.
“Than, they would think that i’m the sweetest truth.”
He smiled.

I’ve been taught by my mother
That it’s much better to tell bitterest truth
Than sweetest lie.
It’s much better to be honest.

I’ve grown up and learned something
That sweet lies are things that most people seek.
They learned, they fell, they woke up and they walked
By the things that we knew as sweet lies
Life taught me so.

I’ve grown up and learned something
That most of people were frightened by the bitter truth
They know that things existed
They know that, that bitter truth would come
And they would run away, even though they couldn’t.
Death told me so.

But when life hits me hard once.
I know that beautiful lie aren’t beautiful after all.
So is life.
And that teaches me something that i believe until now.
That death is our best friend.
‘Cause he’ll come to us.
It’s just a matter of time.

I’ve been taught that it’s better to be honest.
But we live in things that contained with lie
And i’ve learned from death.
That he'll never tells the truth even though he is the truth itself.

So if you don’t understand what life is
And what death is.
You won’t be able to understand me.
Neither the words that i'll tell you.

That this might be the last lie
From all the bullcrap that spilled out from my mouth
I don’t love you anymore
And i never do.