living life free,
hating everything,
no more color black and white is all I see,
loving you is like a drug and I'm a fean,
Without You is something ill never be,
**** everybody does that make me mean?
stole my heart and now you own the key,
Ill love you forever you will be my queen,
its you and me,
our love is rare and so clean,
we flow as one like a sea,
held so strong no one is in between,
I love you so much can no one agree?

Smoke some ****
It grows like a plant
The life that I feed
Inhale too much smoke now i can't.....


I cant Feel my body

Life,
Feeling really dull,
Can't cut through it like a butter knife,
Every second I sink into this hole,
See all people but Im a low life,
Pain to strong as it takes a tole,
Cut so deep,
Can't get away from this pull,
To scared to get up and take a leap......

Falling into sorrow,
Might call it quits tomorrow,
there is a light that I follow,
insomnia like an owl,
**** up the pain like a towel,
Every turn in life is like a foul.....
Life,
Life,
Time to face facts,
Like a video game I need hacks,
Got all my boys backs,
But they all seem to slack,
Weight heavy like Shaq,
Life,
Life,
Seeing the upside,
Anger so tame,
No reason to hide,
Everyone in such shame,
Wishing they were on my side,
Sitting with all the fame,
At the top now and never really tried,
Wish you all could have came,
But all of you lied,
Now I know it was all a game.

Life

Pain,
Pain,
Pain,
Oh how bad my hand is in pain.
I wonder if he asked the lord to go in vain,
All this pain is really the same,
But all these people put me too blame,  
The pain is mental and physical,
My mental well being is already a stray,
Everyone hates me is that okay?
The physical pain is not real,
It honestly feels like I'm in a game,
This happiness I no longer feel,
What I feel is anger that you can't tame,
Ima leave it at this
When you love and loose your heart gets a seal,
An unbreakable seal,
Ima love this world with my life,
And kiss the world like its my wife.
But I might end this pain with a slice from a knife.
Not self harm because I'm still living my life.

love,
love,
Your heart fits mine like a glove,
I'm going to put you on top,
Way way above,
My love for you will never stop,
We will fly away like one dove,
I wanna fly away,
But at the same time I need to stay,
Love me forever,
Or hate me for now,
Your heart is my pleasure,
Time for us to connect when I say this vow,
My love for you is like wow.

Zeal for appreciation,
A push for perfection,
The touch of an Angel
Cries to heaven.

Desire for recognition,
Brainwashed into hollowness.
A voice from heaven
Pleas for safety.

Ravenous for love,
Coaxed to mutilate.
Constant reassurance,
A prayer for embrace.

Parallel lines
Connected by blood.
Forearms like ladders,
Perception clear as mud.

The itch for normality
dulls the blade.
Bloodlust dissolves
When attention is paid.

A devil's on the left,
An Angel on the right.
We make our own decisions.
Choose to fall, or choose to take flight.

"how does it feel?"
I asked him...
but there was no answer,
nor would there ever be