Always in flux:
Nothing is fixed in my heart of hearts
It is instead a perpetuating cycle
Of falling in and out of touch
And rediscovering
Everything I once felt
everytime.

But you can't hide everything forever.

Don't be like me
Filtering words
till the only stream
flowing from my lips
is a flat vibration
resonating a fear
you call incompetence.

Don't roll your eyes
when I lecture you.
You've had three decades to **** up,
and two to **** me over,
so you don't have to keep waiting longer.

Tell me the truth
when your tongue tenses up
Spit it out
Make me sick
I don't care
if you've seen it all before
I don't care
how many times you've had to lie
to make those sleepless nights disappear.

Don't you see it's pointless now?
I already know you're dying
to lose yourself.

I know you're tired ma,
but I'm hungry.