for the longest time
i believed love
was nothing but
a hope filled fantasy

i met you
and everything changed.

i search for you
little bits of your soul
like broken fragments
of sunlight shattered by a glass window

mismatched pieces
a little bit everywhere
you mean too much to me
and for what

i see you everywhere
in the words i write
in the sky at 12:03 pm
in the heat of a winter snowstorm

i feel so deeply for you
and all i ever see anymore
is you

i got sad
at a young age
its like getting sick
but there's not one medicine to fix it

i'm scared
because i wasn't sure who i was
when i was younger
so when i get happy
if i get happy

i don't know who i'll be
what to expect
or what to go back to

this feeling
i feel for you

i shouldn't care this much
but i do

this feeling
do you feel it too?

when i was young
i imagined a first kiss
as something life changing
a bit of magic

it happened
and nothing changed

when i was young
i always was fascinated by eyes
i felt i could see
everything a person has seen

but i know now that is not true
for my eyes have seen some things
a moment simply fleeting
never to be replicated the exact same
ever again

its all different
some beautiful
some horrifying
i can't find the words
to describe yours

the pit in my stomach
the small emptiness
that inhabits inside of me

returns once again
like a rock
pulling me

down
down
down

into the arms
of my old friend
my sadness rose again