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undefined Mar 2013
?
have you ever not wanted to remember
[wanted to forget]
keep memories hidden
[pushed/stored away, call it "repressed"]
so you wouldn't have to feel
(so you don't have 'regret').

but locked not so tight enough in your head,
    thoughts, feelings and dreams
         all flood in 'till your brain is bled. ..
                            'till your brain is lead ..
down a dark road of hurt and deceit
of abuse and lies,    explosions that leave..
                                 people who are ready for death alive,
                                and boys too young in life just,  
                                                                ­                         .... die


well then my friend, there's your answer in its simplest form
                                                            ­           ("what's P.T.S.D?")
sleepless night tonight.

just writing
undefined Jan 2014
i hide behind shades of shame
& **** on the names / under the gun now
and praying for rain.
undefined Oct 17
Ocean swells and cracks
Pushing foamy white lines
Higher and higher
Onto sand

Moon, so full
And unbelievably bright
Glows steady and far
This clear blue night
Sleeping on the beach tonight  😉
undefined Apr 2014
******* of light on a peaceful moonlit night
waves softly brush the melting shore
as heat from the fire began to roar
on
and on ...
'till day did break
reflecting a crisp morning chill across the water
and the wanderlust fades
from tingling senses of tangled bodies that lay
in the gentle grass 'neath a tree  for safe keeeping
....
afternoon boils on, warming skin exposed.
Rapturous winds roll
on
.. and on into the time
when the yellow milky sky sets low
[and all feelings of awe begin to slow]
and once again , at it's  end ,
our journey to chance
has found anew  
to begin
..at first light
Alone
just trying to paint a picture here of something ... and not sure how its coming across i think :)
any/all comments welcomed of course
undefined Nov 2013
i bled it and let it out of myself
wrote it and said it to be put on a shelf
now it's blazin' hot, these words are warming

why does it light my heart ablaze
like the fire in this pit.?
wish i had the answers, but i haven't thought of 'em yet.
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there's just too much to say
and not enough time in the day
night falls long, in her shadow i'll stay

it's just another four-letter word
that i can't get off of my tongue.
it's just another hopeless condition,
a bell to be un-rung.
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heart felt lines from a paperless book
notes were made over feelings shook
ripped and burned, but never really understood...

how can a word make such a phrase
express the feelings i'm missin'..?
i'm still here holding my pen, guess i haven't learned my lessons.
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there's just too much to say
and not enough time in the day
night falls long, in her shadow i'll pray

it's just another four-letter word
that i can't get off of my tongue.
just another four-letter word ,
like "**** - **** - **** - or ****"
really don't have much of a problem with swearing normally lol
i seem to have a million variations that come to mind for the chorus that i keep changing ,
but as for now ,inwriting, i think i'll just stick to this
undefined Apr 2016
There's a man outside the window
in faded blue jeans,
He's spun a web of lies and
deceit I aint never seen.

>Finger nail clippings and old emails
    Watching the world go 'round
>Angels like fireflies
   Watching the world go down

There's a woman outside the window
in a faded flannel gown,
She's not much to look at
when you're lookin' down.

>Angels like fireflies
  Can you tell sky, from ground?
>Carnival rides for cash pay-out
  And I'm watching the room spin 'round
...
"gas station guy" is gone now
bars hold the only light.
and if I'm lucky (through singin' here,
we can just call it a night.

>Angels like fireflies
  Can you tell sky, from ground?
>Dusty strings on this old guitar
  & It's time to turn around

7 minutes to midnight
in this old town.
When I'm done playing here,
probably never see me around
working on song
undefined Sep 2015
It's a beautiful day , is all I want to say
Every time you look my way it's such a beautiful thing .

It's a beautiful day , that's all I wanted to say
and it's a beautiful way you brighten up my day .

You know it's true ,
when I'm feelin' blue , I lock eyes with you
and get carried away . . .

It's a beautiful day , such a beautiful day
It's amazing the way your smile changes everything .

The weather don't have to be
"Ideal," for me to see , when you're near me all I want to say
is , It's a Beautiful Day .

. . .
...just felt like writing a little happy song today :)
undefined Dec 2023
Some people are hard not to love,
Like Ernie
Ernie and I just got a fire going good in his backyard.
Then he went inside, and left me alone with it.
Saying, "just enjoy the fire. When you want to come inside, come inside. But just enjoy the fire."
Friends like this are few and far between, I know, I have a lot of friends.

My life is a mess. My nails are a mess. My relationship is a mess...
And i,
just needed this fire tonight.

Someone said to me recently,
I have a way of writing things poetically.
And maybe it's not poetry, exactly.
But as the fire burns,
and the embers in me turn...
I know I feel much more at peace.
undefined Dec 2012
step out to have a smoke
and stir my head a bit

stabbing pain shoots through me
as red cherry burns flesh

this is my last week in
this desolate wasteland

here life is wearing thin
its time to start again

i'll turn myself in to
settle debts wit' the state

when all's done, i'll return
home... first time in decades
a little bit tipsy right now :)
i'll look back tomorrow, ta see how it sounds
:)
undefined Jun 2013
if i had met you more than a few years ago
i'd say things like "do you like me ? check 'yes' or 'no"

if we'd come across one another a few years down the road
i'd admire your freedom and kind hearted soul

but i've met you in the middle of life
so i say "it" in ways that you know

when i text you "goodnight"
and ask if you're alright
when i hate to hear you sad
and listen to you talk about the day you had
when i curl up to sleep with your photo beside me
how i try to make you laugh, be as silly as i can be
i do all these things, and dream of the day you'll hear me...

saying "i love you" endlessly .
no "form" here
:) just writing ..
undefined Feb 2019
Close your eyes and I'll sing to you
though I haven't many words.
Fingers moving to this tune
making melody a verse.
Creating contorted content
like dancers with shapes and lines.
Carefully crafting concepts
into story and art that rhyme.

Moments make memories
that turn into dreams.
Wishing washes a way when
showers of stars stream.
My mind is like a madhouse,
running away from me.
But time stands still with wonder
when I'm fast asleep.

-by, Patrick Hamilton
09Feb2019
played gently in GADA on strings

I guess I just felt like writing something a bit silly and fun today
undefined Dec 2012
One smoke
One sip
One **** at a time

Taken back to the day
We shared paper and lines
I was straight-edge then
Not a drop to drink
I meditated on the balcony
You left dishes in the sink
Ross would bang *****
and smoke hella ****
Now he’s off spreading
theory and anarchy
I hear you’re doing well
A world of “special effects make-up”
I’m drowning in the desert
From a nightmare I can’t wake up
In another ten years we’ll look back and see

Who is broken
And who’s dying
As we all struggle to be free

of...
is that considered explicit?

just jotting down whats on my mind
about my old roomies from back home in Denton
undefined Mar 2013
lively music breaks out
from the stage
a friend of mine (Daniel)
his band is playing


the night is hot
to spite the frigid weather


from start of the next set
the crowd's a wreck
many rode hard
now wet with sweat

a female vocalist lit up the scene
with a sonic scream
bodies were flailing around
she kept wailing out


the war rages on
until early morn
everyone screaming and jumping
all passengers caught up in storm


having been transported now
[to a land far away]
for most of the night

i'm feeling ragged
[worn out]
but still pretty high
pretty much self expaintory i think...
just hangin' out this last weekend.
undefined Mar 2013
The signs

She misses calling when she says she can’t
She calls almost every day since we first met
She’s dropped by more than once, “just to say hi”
She has invited me to spend Easter in south Texas with her family
We walked all over town together and she said that she “enjoyed the company”
Only the day after we met, at the drop of a hat, she went to a poetry meeting with me
….

I think she really likes me :)
undefined Apr 2014
ive made a few stops but never get "stuck"
seen the world from the back of a pick-up truck
dont know where im goin but sein where ive already been
hop out, turn around and start walkin again

im in no hurry ..can take it slow
gonna find out how far that old highway will go
makin good time i'll always rome
just another stretch of mile that i call home

a tune in my head

guitar on my back

put on some blue jeans

and follow the tracks

[CH]
head full of ideas / places far away/ i'll blow outa here with the wind
find out where im goin/ just as soon as theres/ somewhere ive already been
and thats just about as "country " as i think i can get
hhahhahahah
undefined Oct 2018
I fell for you like I was walking through
the living room in the dark.

Like when I used to do *******
Baby, you go straight to my heart.

Like a calendar
I see you almost every day.

And like this cigarette
you know, you take my breath away.

I still message you at noon, just to say
"Hey (smiley face)"

Romantic nights are when I brush my teeth before bed,
and you wash your face

We "Netflix & Chill" and worry 'bout the bills
that still need to be paid

I go out on weekends to play
you work all week long, and wish I could stay

When I get home I know
you'll still love me anyway
LOL... Just being silly
undefined Jul 2015
singing for the tree lines, not far in from shore
along dusty roads with pack on back, and guitar

cool downtown, city-weekend nights, with street-lamp, store window light
wandering nomadic gypsy soul with adopted name
entertaining for angels and saints

warm country summer days, sidewalk strumming
streaming sweat, marking time, keeping time
forgetting time, and making it
watching it , seizing or taking it

breathing , discovering , smiling , shrugging
and sharing with friends whatever's left
(signed)      - All The Best,
a postcard to jon
undefined Jan 2013
I typically rhyme
in sixes and sevens,
Count syllables in lines
If you think I’m bull-shittin’
lol . . .  just for funny
i don't know what...
undefined Jan 23
I don't really think of you anymore unless I'm dreaming,
or when my eyes are open and the Sun is beaming,
unless rain falls or birds start singing,
or if I see a plant or flower and wonder of their name,
and for every tree I pass, it's the same.

I don't really think of you except to wonder if you ever think of me,
or when I'm trying to focus at work
on anything.
I only think of you ,
probably when I shouldn't be,
or when I've nothing to do
and I'm just bored, ya see.

Ahh, but when the sun sets
and I know I'll soon find sleep,
in the face of the moon
and the stars above me,
it never seems to fail
memories of you return to me.

Because
I don't really think of you anymore, unless I'm dreaming.
Just a sweet little poem I wrote this morning
undefined Nov 2014
I caught a Union Pacific headed westbound
howling at the moon
A blanket of stars and my guitar
that's when I wrote this tune

That "Midnight Express" will get you there
if ya haven't a worry, or reason to care
Headin' down the line, steady as she goes
it's like heavy metal rock and roll
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Rode it up an' down to Sacramento
when a railway man said, " Ya gotta go."
I heated up iron 'til the trail went cold
riding heavy metal rock and roll

Heavy metal, rock and roll
it shakes and it quakes ,  rattles my soul
I wasn't born on a train
but that's how I'll go
thanks to heavy metal's
rock and roll

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Now every time I hear a whistle blow
I think of "catchin' out" and wonder where it's goin'
Well, I may sing like some "country folks"
but, I love heavy metal & rock and roll
:)
undefined Jan 2020
Cold and lonely silence
of early morn
Screams of rockets wake
(another crows song?)

No impact is heard so,
i must be wrong
Night gets darker still
no hope or trace of dawn
undefined Nov 2014
I drag a razor slowly across the face of this old man
as he tells me a story of youth and wasted times back when.
How he once stayed in 700 dollar hotels
and once performed on stage
He once had a family he loved and was religious in his faith.
he hesitates to tell me of
the worse parts of fate

But there's no need for words when I can read it all in his face.
divorce, deaths, explosions, deceit
******, vengeance, drugs and jail and violence and hate
all realized now, too old for mistakes
He raises an eye brow and says
"I've joined the working class again
I got a job at the restaurant down the street"
I'm glad for him I say
but wonder just how long it will last.

"I want to keep from killing myself and find something useful to do"
I tell him that we're done shaving his beard from his face now,
but he should maybe get a hair-cut as well.
He tells me, "maybe later..." He kind of likes it long,
"People don't bother with me very much at all.”
undefined Jul 2023
A wounded heart makes
no pleasant sounds
Sober fools can write
sweeter words down

A thousand miles can seem dizzy
but 8 thousand, barely shifting
Salty sea waters of morning sway
longings of big ocean home waves

Loss is temporary
BEING lost is not
Drifting by choice
until options forgot
undefined Apr 2013
i feel a slow slip
begining to start

i try holding together stitches
but it's bound to break apart

somewhere,
                    a low small hurt
                                                got inside my heart
undefined Apr 2020
I dreamed I was painting with a dancers feet again.
I woke and there was hurt, which is love, which means life and God and good... So, hurt can't be all too bad I guess.
undefined Nov 2023
Can I still write you "love letters"
Even if we're not together?

Will you pretend
that it's new again
even when
you know better.



Is it too little, too late?

Still miss you everyday

What I'm trying to say
is I've made mistakes
but none that break
my heart the way
the sound of rain
Somehow makes
My eyes wetter.

And running away
doesn't change a thing,
or take away
what's missing from the space
on my chest
where your head used to lay .

So,  I guess
what I'm trying to say
is

I hope you're doing better

and now that my eyes are redder,

would it be okay
if I could just break
down in a way,
take my guitar and play
...
and
Can I still write you
"love letters"
?
undefined Jan 2016
Your blue eyes / your long blonde hair
how I feel at night / when you're not there
I think of you / almost every day
I'd trade my world / to have you back again

How long does it take / for these thoughts to stray
my spirit's free / but my heart still aches
I know I'll walk too far / to make it back one day
I'll fall apart / and memories will fade

I'll cry out loud / to find a way
but nothing helps
I've run out of words to say
undefined May 2021
walking through the dark
on the outskirts of Baton Rouge
just me and a bunch of stars
no one else to talk to

the yard is staging cars
expecting a train
gather my gear
trying to   beat   out   the rain...


wind is a howling
roosters start to crow
6-string on my back
bound for a Houston show

I like the early morning
quiet, dark, and cold
watching for that engine
and   tryin ta breath    real    low...


the "CLASP! of thunderous coupling
"SkReeeech," its time ta go
wind is a rushing
this steel     carries       me       on...
undefined Jun 2015
Nine lights snuffed out in a flash of intolerance and rage
Silence fell like death and for a reply, Hell just waits…

A voice arose, then two, then three…
As prayers and tears washed away blood and angels began to sing
Lights were rekindled and a fire began to burn
A storm of hate, had awakened a flood of love so great

Tragedy had darkened the doorway, but not to stay
Rather, so that Heaven could receive gifts and men could learn to pray

… Now roses line walkway and fences in front of a house of praise,
A reminder, not of horror,
But of loved ones, unifying a city full of people from beyond the grave.
this needs a lot of work i think, but that's why i put things here :) so that i can find them when i have more time
undefined Jan 2019
Another year goes by, thinking about old wrongs
Winter is here, hoping I'll hold on
I strum a clear tune to write a cold (cold) song,
But I still see your face no matter how far I've gone.

As a means of escape, I followed the signs
Left a corpse out of state at the wake to go write my rhymes
Up through the center & down the west coast, then back east
From Florida to Philly, whichever way the wind blow'd
I saw the southern border of old Mexico
Skirted Canada too, still wearing the same pair of clothes
I've gotten sick and I been hard up
But I still sang my songs to fill my gut

Miles come and go, stretching on so long
I put my pen to page, and try and move on
Another season full of days, just looking to belong
I still see your face no matter how far I've gone

(I been) Running in circles, trying to fill the time
Of the spaces left from reading in between the lines
I haven't made it far yet, but I still outshine
All the dusty bones broken down that I left behind

....

Another year goes by, thinking about old wrongs.
Winter is here again hoping I'll hold on .
I strum a clear tune to write a cold cold song .
...But, I still see your face, no matter how far I've gone.
New Song Lyrics
undefined Mar 2016
She pasted memories, to look back on later,
to little scraps of colored paper.
Placed in a book, wrapped up in ribbon,
laid on the shelve in plain sight hidden.

Photos of family, and picture show stubs,
all the little things that reminded her of
  the times before we all were grown.
  In that big empty house, it didn't feel so alone
     with those neatly arranged, to smile at later,
      carefully laid tinny scraps  of colored paper .


Every page told a story of her life,
years that sometimes escaped her mind.
Children, grandchildren, all were there,
when she forgot a name, she'd sit and stare.
  Her mind, she knew, was almost gone,
  but with that little scrap book, life would go on...
    
   ...In those pages of places, people and times,
       she placed each little note on every line...
  
    ...In collections of impressions to recall again later,
        carefully kept new  on colored paper .


I'm sorry to say, I only found it later,
those photos of the life that made her.
Past down to my sister for safe keeping,
I saw her looking through it, quietly weeping.

  I guess those times now, are all but gone.
  Grandma kept a scrapbook, like I write songs...

   ...They're just memories, to sing again later,
      like little bits of life    on colored paper  .
This was another Song Assignment that I received at a Singer/Songwriter Group that I enjoy... The assignment was to write a song about "Colored Paper."
undefined Oct 2014
dark clouds are looming
hanging heavy 'round my head
your voice , it haunts me
still not sleeping in that bed

i'll paint you a love song
and hang it from the wall
hope you get the message
running through the halls

the air is turning chill here
you can feel it in your bones
there's no more confusion about
which way the wind blows

everything is changing color and
starting to thin
this time , how far you end up,
won't depend on where you began   .
second stanz needs to be  chopped
there's also ..
tossing and turning
sleepless nights
haunted by a photo
in the back of my mind
just can't stop this rhythm
pounding in my soul
we "paid the piper"
but, skipped on the devil's tole
undefined Mar 2013
We talked about religion and after life, and Jesus Christ
..All over death
He told me of his beliefs, and how they came to be
...All over death
Talking little about work, or the body being at rest
[All this too, over death]
I conceded that I’d think a little more about
All the possibilities, but retain my doubt,
[As we set the ****** features and drained the blood out]
Conversation had turned deep, leaving me room to think

All over death
( working at a funeral home )
undefined Jun 2014
It starts with a chill in the morning,
                                         Every Morning,
                           [after nights cold and wet]
                         when the light is there
                      but still  and chilly . .


Then,            as     10 - noon      approaches
                     it quickly gets hot…


           …  In the shadows of the mountain though,
                          where the sun is out of reach,
              that’s when   bones
                                                           ­    grow old again .
i don't know what this is ... just a note for later i guess

its missing something in the middle i think too..[?]
undefined Mar 2021
The fiery orange reds
and forest pine greens
with highlights of yellows
and all the colors in between

The mossy southern oaks
and wild growth that runs
from virginia creeper
up around wooded trunks

the early morning mist is thick
as the waters of the bayou where it sits




(recipe for a good evening)

collect and gather wood to start a fire
dry, split, and place a top a pine needle ball
   douse in "drip," if you've got an oil field friend

Then light and let it roar,
sit down with a guitar,
  an' play the night in.
Savin these here for sometime later.
undefined Jan 2013
if i had to write
(and i do believe i do)
about how much it means to me

the flowers
girls and their shorts
the trees..

i think that i would start with
saying something about a feeling
at ease... free

neatly tucked in a small town
not far from down-
town,

in a little spot i like to call home
a sense fills senses
unaware... warm

with sun on my face, a
particular place
away from "rat-race)

called Denton
home sick for so long .. now??
dunno just writing a little i guess
undefined Jan 2021
Thinking of buying a gun,
and pointing it at someone.

Thinking of taking a nap,
down on the railroad tracks.

Thinking of finding my place,
somewhere in outer space.

Thinking of buying a gun,
and putting the barrel on my tounge.
Just glad to have a place here where I can vent some of these feelings out ...
undefined Aug 2022
I feel like I can't wake up

But all I wanna do is sleep

What does it mean?

Is this a dream?
Not feeling too great right now
undefined Nov 2013
i loved her completely
and i was broken completely

i know she loved me
but was scared to commit it

but i am content...
because i loved her completely,
something i never thought i could do again.
undefined Jan 21
they say that whiskey
will never hold you
like a good girl can

but I'll drown this heartache
with a bottle in my hand

'cause i'm tired of feeling
and i really don't understand

so i'll be drunk and lonely
till it don't hurt again
Maybe a new song, I don't know.
A drinking song
undefined Oct 2014
pumpkin orange fall fiery hair
gentle as she makes a way
to a seat behind me

headband pulled high
showing her small round face
lips pursed    she waits

with her little backpack, tattered and worn like my soul
on the bus across town
she wore the saddest eyes i'd ever known


thinking to myself
she must've looked
near the way i felt . . .

big doe eyes of soft sky blue
i wanted to cry
( felt see through )

i wanted to try & cry
Me ,   here with my hands
And Her ,  there with those eyes
lookin for more work today and
wrote this on the back of a resume'
...not really sure of what good it'd be
but thought this would be a good place to leave it for now
and i'll look back at it later to see what it sounds like again
undefined Nov 2012
study, cram, call, make plans...
power point, presentation, speech, rewrite...
theory, materialism and idealism and the difference,
Marx, Freud to psychoanalyze...
on to polynomials, linear equations, I make a scientific notation...
take a break. (eat)
ham sweet and thick
with lots of pineapple and some cherries
potato bread and cheese
PowerAde to rehydrate
little vodca with o.j. and cigarette  
after lunch, breathe .
and it’s back to study lab to mentally beat meat.
paper due, final today, did I remember to triple check
and get rid of paper clips, include a cover sheet...
ready to evaluate... I think.
ready to second guess, miss dates and time, "you're late"
again...
95, 98, 3.5 GPA? pre-test, for final, make sure your research is done,
site, source, quote, student rate and double space
power nap, smoke again,
is the day over yet?..
just slackin off here for a second  lol
undefined Feb 2013
A lost treasure i discovered amongst a pile of things, outside and badly weathered,
swollen fat with broken back, but every page still in tact.
Eight hundred pages wrapped in lovely blue,
hundred year old print (Byron Poems), what "lucky-day" for you.
know what they say, "One man's trash..."
[just bein' silly]
haven't gotten on here in a while and written anything (still writing though)
still get on and read too, often... thanks for all the follows :)
undefined Dec 2012
Open and free again
Open to love
Open to life
Open to be again

Can’t live the rest of life like a monster
Open and free again
Open all doors and breathe it all in

Still me, unfree of sin
But wide open to be, just free

Whatever lurks in corners of my mind
Whatever morbid thoughts linger on the other side
Right now I want free, even if later I freely enslave me
just found this
and have no idea why it was under "private"
oh well, here it is..
undefined Dec 2012
Surely I write not for the hopeful young,                  
    Or those who deem their happiness of worth,
  Or such as pasture and grow fat among
    The shows of life and feel nor doubt nor dearth,
  Or pious spirits with a God above them
  To sanctify and glorify and love them,                      
    Or sages who foresee a heaven on earth.

  For none of these I write, and none of these
    Could read the writing if they deigned to try;
  So may they flourish in their due degrees,
    On our sweet earth and in their unplaced sky.            
  If any cares for the weak words here written,
  It must be some one desolate, Fate-smitten,
    Whose faith and hopes are dead, and who would die.

  Yes, here and there some weary wanderer
    In that same city of tremendous night,                    
  Will understand the speech and feel a stir
    Of fellowship in all-disastrous fight;
  "I suffer mute and lonely, yet another
  Uplifts his voice to let me know a brother
    Travels the same wild paths though out of sight."
I know that I have expessed how much I personally dislike it when others do this ****,
but ;) now here I am doing it ....
I am back on the desert road now it seems, and I just wanted to share something that I enjoy with you...
{ so, naturally, i have chosen something written by someone else  for this  :P
undefined Dec 2012
3rd and final day of my sister's garage sale
she asked me to sit and watch it while her and my nephew go to church.
"Any price you think is good for anything will be fine"
I sit and watch people sort through stuff and I want to apologize.
For some reason it's a very odd sort of feeling,
inviting strangers to rifle through your belongings.
Either nothing you've kept hidden is worthy of keep
or they'll make you an offer and show you it's cheap.

I would hate to have those onlookers dumpster-diving for deals within me
[I don't believe that I'd measure up either]
Everything I got I'll just keep

An ugly unwashed stranger's hand holds up my soul, turning it round he sneers his nose
"How much you need for this old thing?"
"I stickered it 10 dollars and it's practically new"
"I'll give you a quarter. It looks broken, it's held together with glue"
"Fine, fine. Whatever is fine."

After two days of this I'd go to church too...
to think I may have some things that I still keep hidden
and there's a god up there some place in the sky
who loves me and may still want to buy
just killin time i suppose
undefined Nov 2013
the cost of happiness is sorrow
it's a "buy in now, pay for later" deal.
to experience true happiness is also
inevitably to know it's complete absence, "loss", to feel...

a one year anniversary of the death of a man
winter's coming on again.
it's getting colder out,
i stand before you now... beaten down by the wind.

i pack up your pictures and put them away
i wanna play this guitar that you gave to me...

i'll be out late with friends tonight,
and not miss you 'till i'm alone.
i burned everything i ever wrote about you,
deleted your number from my phone...

i'm writing this song now just to get it out.
from your life so easily i was just cut out ..?

wanna just say, "Baby, we had a good run,"
but feel too much loss to act like something was won.

drinkin' tonight at all the places "you and i" will never see..
hangin' out with friends we don't share, so we don't meet..
not impressed ...
but it is what it is i suppose...
undefined Dec 2012
her holds on me
(more than i held her)

i first spent time with her
in an apartment with no heat,

fell into her with ease
we were young, no stresses and free

laid her down on my couch
party dress, balloon packaging

my friend took her out first
pure and simple, should have scared me

by the glow of candles
warming her face to the lights ream

her smell was different
i was just hoping to get-some

her true intent eluded me
and i got her under my skin

her taste so devilish
tremble my heart as we began

i lost myself to her
and there i vowed never again                      

my friend, was not as lucky
he died, her still clinging to his arm

her power is entrancing
quickly ruining lives with the chase 



but time moves on and things change
i haven't kept her around for years now  

that girl was my hero in one dark moment of my life
then a villain stealing both friends and tears
undefined Dec 2012
Pardon please my pedantry,
But I espied sir that in your rhapsody
You sometimes overlook crossing all your “t’s.”
If a point should be taken, then please let it be
That these consequential “t’s” should not be jotted down so flippantly.
:P
undefined Oct 2013
It strums my heart strings like an open chord
salt on a wound already so sore
i need a drink of water, finding no relief
it just may pull me under if sugar wasn't so sweet

I wanna hop a fright car and come back here never
I'd scar up the landscape and think of something clever
wanna slit my brain open, expose what's there inside
strap myself to a rocket and see if I could fly

It crowds my mind like a parasite
cigarette burns day into night
no windy relief from this damp nasty heat
it plagues my mind like a back alley creep

I wanna run so far away that I never need to hide
wanna cut out my feelings until all pain subsides
wanna close my eyes forever, stay locked inside my mind
dream of things so simple and never have to cry

Open my arms out and fall into deep black
float out on the ocean and never come back
i wanna disappear before you get home …
no letter, note or sign that I've ever been anywhere but GONE.
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