i've been listening to the same song over and over again,
biting my nails and pulling on my cuticles,
taking the razor out, twirling it between my fingers
i've been sad again,
drying my tears with an old sweatshirt,
telling everybody that i'm okay,
throwing up after each meal
5.20.14
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i've been smiling again,
running my hands through his hair, doing spontaneous things,
knowing time will heal all wounds
i've been eating again, little by little
things aren't clear
but even if i try
things will get better again
1.8.15