How do you come to hate,
The ones you loved?
You don't.
They tend to turn on you,
Either that,
Or they weren't real at all.
I forsake any shard of regret I had,
From leaving you,
I regret any feeling I had,
From loving you.
If anyone lost here,
It was you.
Because you'll fall back into emptiness,
Trying to replace it with people,
But I, I will not.
I'll continue to cradle my own light,
Which you came so close to taking.
I'm done sacrificing pieces of me,
In order to receive nothing.

Just lay me down
In your bed of lies.
Look me deep into my bedroom eyes
and off the lights.
So I can wear my disguise.

The truth never comes out in the dark.
That's why we've chosen to be blind.
We're content,
paying no mind.

And we're not okay.
Okay?

Intoxicated eyes gaze
  back at a pale, faded grin

Queer uninvited smiles
  unseat my dull desires

Teared, sorrid orbs are
  complicit no more

Cold & unpleasant i feel ,
  my skin crawl as you...

Commune with the dead,
  1arkness's sullen countenance

Deep-seeded resentments fester
  like a wound, to rot alone
  
In debauchery! The corridor races
  endlessly, yet timeless, the momentum

Fail mires the spiritual portal,
  decades toil the body's will

The years have been cruel,
  Heaven's call gets a little lighter

Wanton, I crave the deep recesses
  of your love, o my earthbound soul

The Decades have worn
  down the spark in his irises
  his trudge has slowed this path

Suffocating on Armeggedon's call
  until the darkness closes in

Circling down the drain-
  just to recoil & burn it down
  to beeline back to the centre

Debauchery lines the landscape,
  parallel to curtailed breathing

Liberate the Doves, send light over,
  controlled thinking like the brainwashed

At night the disease slips into...
  the death machine

Tangible, it pains me to breathe anymore
  thorns to the side, gasping acid water

came first
plastic
then
immoral
loneliness
then
said a whale
to a whale
scratch
your eye
with mine
we’ve seen
for weeks
god
pass
for silence
in the apple
death
of brief
eels

my brain doesn’t understand
that we have no right to exist.
and still, it conjures her —
lips burning from the kiss
where I forget
where I end
and she begins.