Experiences
Vicarious or the ones lived
Leave a mark, indelible

The teacher said
Stretch your limits to the maximum
It might surprise you

Little surprises
Bring a delight
Some are off limits

I have always had an aversion to it
I would blurt out the worst
If you would show me pretence
Of care
Of love
Of togetherness
Of being one
No no don’t do that
I am old now
Enough to understand
Pretence
I won’t blurt out things
I wouldn’t put up to it
My duties fulfilled
There I am done
Now I know
Pretence

i have seen you
i have spoken to you...
with you..
in different times
in different lives

the same moon
the same sun
we touched our hearts
and our minds
everso gently
in friendship
and the will to do
what was right

in truth we conversed
about truth

we trusted eachother
not truly knowing
one another

but certainly understanding
our shared understanding

a common sense of right
and wrong
you were there for me

and you saved me
from suffocating
in a toxic pool
of deception

i see you still
in different guises
different names
different from before
but still the same

and i wish this world...

this world right here...

would know that
today i breathe
because you held my head
above the water

and didn't let me drown

Do you dare to search deep within me,
reveal my darkest secrets
and uncover the truth?

I am a master of disguise,
displays of emotion are denied
enough to outwit any sleuth.

So I must ask...
Are you sure you want to see
what is behind this mask?

©️Lizzie Bevis

I wrapped myself
in your old sweater;  
it wasn't the same.
I smelt your perfume,  
the scent of sweet jasmine  
had turned bittersweet.
I whispered your name too,  
I wanted to find comfort  
in your empty arms,  
but its softness is now  
just a ghost of you.  

©️Lizzie Bevis