They say it’s all in your head,
They say you’re making it up,
They say nothing is actually wrong,
They say your life could be worse
They say you’ll grow out of it,
They say it’s just doctors trying to make money,
They say all it is is you’re sad.
They say it’s all in my head… maybe it is, maybe it was.
but now it’s slowly spilling out onto my wrists.

I don’t think it’s just in my head anymore.

I’m a girl, but the voice in my head that says, "You're worthless" is Bruce.
Because the evils women have put in my head are minuscule compared to the utter horrors men have put—no, carved into my skull.
Because men have created this torture chamber disguised as a body, and I’m trapped inside with the harsh muttering of Bruce in my ear.

as the bullet pierces through
the love for you spills out too
thoughts unsaid
prays unheard
what drips from my writ once was love.

You make me feel:
Content
Passion
Comfort
Happy
Loved
Alive
Safe
Real
Here
Se­en
Free

But I don’t know you yet.
We haven’t met.
So I haven’t felt these
Things I can only name.

Because

I don’t know the sound of your voice,
The sound of your laugh,
Or the sound of your cry.

Because

I don’t know your eyes.
I don’t know your smile.
I don’t know who you are.

But I do know I’ll meet you someday.
Let it be with a boom
Or a quiet phrase.

And then, I can finally feel:
Content
Passion
Comfort
Happy
Loved
Alive
Safe
Real
Here

We text every day, we talk every day,  
We share all our interests in a nerdy display.  
I laugh at your jokes, I laugh at your stunts,  
But still, you’re oblivious—what is this, a stunt?  

You were scared of girls ‘til you met me,  
Now we’re friends, but could it be we’re meant to be?  
I’m friendly, I’m funny, I’m just a delight,  
But still, you act clueless, and that just ain’t right!  

People ship us, they all see the spark,  
But you’re still wandering around in the dark.  
We’re both not perfect, but together we fit,  
So why won’t you see it, just a little bit?  

You’re a nerd, I’m a nerd, we’re nerdy for sure,  
But even Dr. Seuss would say this can’t endure!  
I’m sending the signals, they’re flashing so bright,  
But you’re still staring at me like I’m a strange sight!  

You blush when I talk, you don’t ignore me like them,  
But what are you waiting for? Just when will it end?  
Everyone says it’s so clear, it’s so true,  
Is it too much to ask for you to make a move?  

Come on, dear friend, don’t you see?  
I’m not being delirious—just notice me!  
We’re both head over heels, but I’m stuck in this space,  
Hoping you’ll make the move and save me from this race!

I might be getting over you,
I’m not exactly sure.
The ache feels lighter, less true,
But still, I had fun loving you.

I’ll miss the butterflies you’d bring,
The rush each time you came into view.
Even in the hurt and stinging,
I had fun loving you.

Your eyes, like a secret I couldn’t share,
Held a warmth I thought I knew.
Even though it led nowhere,
I had fun loving you.

Maybe someday I’ll meet someone new,
Someone better for me, someone true.
But even when my heart feels brand-new,
I’ll still miss you—I had fun loving you.

Being just friends is fine with me,
It’s better than losing you.
No romance, just familiarity,
And still, I had fun loving you.

We were young, unsteady, and lost,
Two hearts too naive to follow through.
Still, even at the cost,
I had fun loving you.

Now it’s time to let you go,
To leave behind what never grew.
But I’ll always quietly know,
I had fun loving you.