It’s kinda weird to think about
Because sometimes I’m living so far in the past
And it’s almost like you’re mine again

There we are
Back in the gym, where I first met you
And there you are
Looking fine af
And there I am drooling over every single thing you do
Cause your arms and your legs and your shoulders and your chest just have a way of making me weak
Sometimes you talk to me
Sometimes you glance at me
Sometimes you ignore me
But I’m waiting
For you
To see
That I want you so so so badly

Then flash forward a couple months
We go on a golf date
It’s your first golf date
And my first date. Ever.
It’s awkward I try to talk to you and make conversation but your too introverted for me and it’s weird
But you’re just the right amount of introverted too
And I’m sorry
But I’m in love
With you
Sorry
Again

Suddenly we’re there
Late on a Thursday night
Like three in the morning
You pick me up
Because you can drive
And we go to an empty parking lot
Just me and you
And you kiss me
And I remember that kiss for the rest of my life
I remember you for the rest of my life
Because we’re together
And everything’s good
And no one’s hurt
And no one’s sad
And no one’s crying every single night about how much she wishes she could just kiss you again
Or even so much as hold your hand
Or rest her head in the space between your chin and your collarbone

And then suddenly I open my eyes
And ****
Just like magic
You’re gone again

So it was awkward?
So you dipped?

I still think you are the most beautiful person in the world
and it would simply be the bomb
If we could try again.

It’s kinda weird to think about
Because sometimes I’m living so far in the past
And it’s almost like you’re mine again
And then suddenly I open my eyes
And ****
Just like magic
You’re gone again

If you came up to me and said you wanted me back
I would go
In a heartbeat

Sometimes I think about you
And my hand feels empty
Cause it’s not holding yours
And my head feels unstable
Cause it’s not resting on your shoulder
And my lips feel dry
Cause they’re not kissing you
And I miss you but I know you don’t feel the same way so I try to forget

I can’t remember when I forgot
The word that I want just seems to be lost
Your name disappeared into the grave
I keep trying and telling myself not to save

The last memories I have of your face
Kept in photographs giving me a trace
Of what we had but now that will be gone
I realize I used to be a pawn

In this sick game you put me through
Now I’m glad I can’t remember you

They say don’t ruin the friendship
I think that it’s all long gone
I was thinking we could make this work
Lately you’ve barely been able to respond
What about all the other girls
Do you pay them any mind
Are you trying to make my jealous
Talking about them all the time
Do you even like me
Or is that just a rumor being spread
Cause I like you
Do you know that?
Don’t let it get to your head
I liked you last year
And all the days of my life
I’ll feel helpless
Whithout you at my side
We went to homecoming
You were my perfect height
I took your hand
And I wanted you to kiss me
I’m not gonna lie
I compare myself to everyone else
I don’t have the body
The brains
The tongue that you like
So why me
I ask myself ever night