The way you lived
Everyday
Living in fear
Of somebody seeing you loving me

Cause that alley had eyes hidden in the bricks
That parking lot had lights hitting our lips
And you were hushing me
We were always walking on a tightrope that was too many years old
I wonder where you went too when you wouldn’t show up for the 5 minutes you were supposed to

The way you lived
Everyday
Living in fear
Of somebody seeing you loving me

Cause people were noticing me love you
That school had monstrous eyes
That window of your truck had my breath melting the ice
It had the smell of me, my missing earring

The way I lived
Everyday
Living In fear that no one would see me love you

Cause I was the most prized secret
Perfectly kept on tight sealed lips
Losing myself in you
I still remember the weight of you
I still remember the first taste of you
And I remember your stories of the boy you once were and I remember wishing I was born in the 70’s just so I had a chance to be chosen by you

The way I lived
Everyday
Living In fear that no one would see me love you

Everyday for me was like a 10 mile race
I tried with everything I had to be the woman in your frame
But I sunk down deep and lost the game
There I was chasing you like you owed me
Cause I never accepted the fact that you were bad for me

The way you lived
Everyday
Living in fear that somebody would see you loving me

Cause I thought you wanted longevity and I was overtaken by our chemistry
I had dreams about the silly things like your jeans and the way you would smirk at me
I bet you dreamt about mornings with me
But all we ever had was foggy evenings
I had a feeling you were going to make me blue
With your name on me, a blue tattoo
Instead the colors of me are a pinwheel of hues

The way I lived
Everyday
Living In fear that no one would know I love you

But I tell myself that art is meant for periods of time
You made me into a heaven and you made me into a hell
Tell me how do you get the sun to set on you
All I ever have is the moon
And I know that time will pass over and over but I am stained with you
all over my body you lay
After the 8 hour school days of staring at you I can’t unsee you

And I know I was never good at accepting
But you accepted that I was a broken young
And you chose to make me anew  
Did it **** you too?
Tell me did it enlighten you?
Did the first time for me overtake you?

Every day
I was there

You were there

Every day
I was there..

The way you lived
Everyday
Living In fear
Of someone finding out you love me..
I’ll never relate too..

Thoughts of you overtake me
makes my mind feel high
and your palm fits into mine just right
Your lights blind me
I haven’t seen the clarity since you stood up
I wanted to find you a crown but my time ran out
Thoughts about you are angelic
I hesitate on hating you but my heart disapproves
It would rather stay wrapped up in you

We’re locked in our affair
We’ve lost the key
There’s no place to find
We keep our memories of parking lots locked in our minds

Thoughts of you make me crazy
Cause your the only one who painted me
Now I search for leftovers in a freezer
Anticipating & pacing are my kind of adventures since you couldn’t keep me
I wanted to walk out and surprise you in a white dress
But my time ran out
Thoughts of you wake me up early
I hesitate on not knowing you but my heart disapproves
It would rather stay true to its early dedication to you

We’re locked in our affair
We’ve lost the map
There’s no roads to find
We keep our memories of evening runs locked in our minds

Thoughts of you make me keep searching
I open locked doors and stare into empty windows
Cause I keep seeing you
I was going to gift you a pen that constantly clicks
But my time ran out
Thoughts of you flush my cheeks and I can feel your slow touch down to my chest
I hesitate on erasing your hands but my heart disapproves
It would rather feel the ghost of you

We’re locked in our affair
We’ve lost the reasons to stop
There’s no answers to find
We keep our memories in our mind...

We’re locked in our affair...
The moment our lips touched we weren’t aware our passion would never disappear
Thoughts of you overtake me..
And your palm fits into mine perfectly
I wanted to read you words on a paper in a white dress
But Your time ran out.. and you changed your mind
But here we stand, in our locked up affair
Hoping to recreate the memories we share

All that time I thought memories were being made and stories were being created in beautiful ways..
You were looking so delicate, it could’ve been thought that you were not the one to go
You were acting so fine, it could’ve been thought that we were just ghosts..

All that time I was pacing in pleasure and pain
You were kissing me in beautiful ways...
You were sounding so sincere, it could’ve been thought that you were the one with heartbreak on every page
You were touching every shiver, it could’ve been thought that it was always winter

All that time I read expressions as play
You were messing with me in beautiful ways...
You were seeming like you were going to stay, it could’ve been thought I was the one who was going to stray
You were smelling like rain, it could’ve been thought that you were washing me away

All that time I saw you like a hero
You were rescuing me in beautiful ways...
You were just missing your sincerity
You were seeming like you loved me, it could’ve been thought that I was the one who was afraid...

All that time I loved you with love there to stay
You were ******* me in beautiful ways...
You were acting so fine.... it could’ve been thought that we were just ghosts lost in time..

******* in the Auroras with you
All colors but mostly Blue
Tears fall into the water and I dream of you
You say “hush hush baby, open your lips”
I want to be your *****
Be your melody you sing while you *** into ****
Take me into your garden
crimson and visions
All colors but mostly blue
You say “you’re beautiful you’re beautiful you’re beautiful”
I want to be your memory
Be your melody while you drink mimosas in the morning
You say “hush hush baby, turn the radio on and ******* in front of me”
I’ll be your once in a lifetime
Even though I’m a mess
I still wear my party dress
Touch me anywhere because I’m your one and only
Can we be new and erase all the years where I didn’t know you
I’ll just lay on your chest
We can skip the ***
I just want to speak to you
But your presence makes me numb and your lips make me ***
******* in the Auroras with you
Take me to your land
Green, touching, red, holding
All colors but mostly Blue
You say “ hush hush baby, spread your legs, I’ll meet you in the bed of flowers with all the colors and I will take you..
I’ll take you like I created you
Never have I ever not know you
Never have I ever not loved you”
And I’ll spend my days ******* in the Auroras with you...

picture me as nothing more
                             than a
      deflated balloon
         clinging to the walls of your heart