Make me scream
Make me cry
Make me feel
Let me dream
Of the sky
While I kneel

Let me hurt
Let me push
Let me bite
Take my word
Tell me hush
Soothe my fright

I cry into the night
save me
save me

I feel so much fright
hide me
hide me

I am always too cold
I've got no one to hold
I want to cry into the night
I want to hide all my fright

I crash my knees into the ground
please
oh please

My sobbing the only sound
I beg you
I beg

I am always too cold
I've got no one to hold
I want to cry into the night
I want to hide all my fright

I imagine my death
maybe
maybe

I try to hold my breath
not enough
not enough

I am always too cold
I've got no one to hold
I want to cry into the night
I want to hide all my fright

Get me to safety
I'm no one for bravery
I've got too much to carry
I am timid and weary

Is there something waiting?
Anyone? Anything?
This feeling of fainting
A black, heavy wing

Reality or an illusion?
A dream?
Some kind of a fusion?
Is it or has it been?

I am drifting
A ship on the sea
Water uplifting
Door without key

Will it end
Or do I have to spend
More time than expected
'Till I am selected?

I am not scared
I never cared
Life will leave me heartless
Finally drowning in darkness

I wish I was a spider
Didn't have to be a fighter
I'd be much lighter
Giving some a frighter

I'd be quite hairy
Some might say scary
Others'd be weary
Though it's quite contrary

I'd be content
Having a friend
Who'd time to spend
And didn't pretend

I'd sit in my web
Next to the tab
Weaving my trap
Without a gap

I'd wait for prey
Bid you to stay
Each and every day
I'd pray

Wouldn't it be nice
Without the reminder
Way more kinder
If I'd only be a spider?

Wrap your fingers
'Round my neck
Your touch lingers
I'm a wreck
My skin flickers
Gaining colours
Blue prints glitter
Lasting hours

Living is not very encouraging
Time tends to fly away or crawl inch by inch
Clear moments are followed by worren thoughts
Where there is simple ness, complex situations hide from you
Only to jump in your face, when you thought everything went well
You are happy? Look back and you can see the drowning feeling on it's heels coming closer
If you close your eyes you can almost forget it even exists
U till you open then, ripped out of your thoughts because of a knife stabbed into your back poking out of your stomach
Be honest, it's not as if you didn't expect that to happen
Life truly isn't easy, well, nobody claimed it to be
You can cry and scream and hit and bite, pull, push
Staying alive is harder
To keep going on
To accept
To bear
It's like getting caught in a spider web, struggling to get free while only tangling oneself deeper into the web until there is no room for movement left
I believe I shall call it
Strangled by life

When you want to sing but the words are to heavy
When you want to speak but words get stuck in your throat
Then your world doesn't look wonderful, its shabby
When you look up into the sky watching butterflies
When you hear birds sing, thinking life must be wonderful
But you know it's not like that, it feels like something dies
All these things combined in your heart
Nothing to fear but it is way to dark
All these scars burned into your soul
Forming a single large mark

I am sinking
Sinking in soft cushions
Pillows to hug
Blankets to cover
Everything warm
Softest embrace
Without a face
I find no calm
Without a lover
Only a hot mug
Giving up on wishes
I've got to start drinking

Can’t take it easy, not this time
Watch, I am covered in all this grime
Wish it was easy, just this time
Hear, I am wheezing a mournful whine

I think I will let myself fall
The way down is not so long
I never reached your height, never was tall
I never was as strong and now I’m gone

In the end
I wish I could see
But there is nothing to mend
And no reason to flee

In the end
I wish I could feel
There is no reason to stand
Or even to kneel

In the end
We all die alone
To death we bend
Lost without a home

Now it seems so easy to me
I let myself glide through the wind
Maybe...
This is my only chance to be free

I think
And that's what I love to do
That it is all in my head
I blink
And I have to realise
That I was once again misled

Gentlest touch
Becoming too much
How will I ever survive

Crumbling down
Back to the ground
I won't get up no more

I am craving
While I'm hating
The ways how you can destroy me

I wonder 'bout this blue shadowed sky
What's it covering, a lie?
For I can't stand the thought
It all was nothing but for nought
What's it that sun chases away
So only on dark days it will stay
If there'd be only some light
Maybe I could forget the thought of night

Vor langer, langer Zeit, da war einmal.
Als es dann war, war es vorbei.
Das war so kurz, da dachte man;
Ach wie schön es damals war