Weeping like a weeping willow
My saddened tears on the night stand
singed and evergreen

Your intoxicating essence
Far more than just beautiful to me
Your unmasked aura
Equivalent to that of a angelic queen

Unequivocally Beauty captured in timeless  moments
When even Portraits turns to stare
For just a glimpse of that smile again
I'll gladly give my pining soul as the coined fare.

A fleeting glimpse outside my window pain
Is daily all that I see
One day courage will lend me it's wings
And by ironic fate we will meet

Until then my love
I will silently love from the shadows
One day our union will be horrifically famed
Like that of a beautiful rose inside of a open grave.

Emotions avoiding me again
Calling out to all momories
My heart bleeds to feel anything
Heartless
I shakely pick up this pen

Ink rivers of anaesthesia
Singed to these healing pages
Emotions pouring
Like a Stormy winter rain on Sunday morning

Flighted words starting to soar
Cloaked in emotion
like dancing rivers flowing
from my heart it pours

All my heartache and darkness start to dissipate
These pages caging them
Sealing them with all of my hate
All wrapped up with the kiss of fate

Internal demons start to calm
They stopped rattling their cages
The relentless screaming has stopped
Now embedded in these pages.

I inhale the air of life
Rage dispersing
I let go of all the strife
Demons no longer fickle
Silently caged
Calmed to a trickle

The morning creeping up on a tired night
 This notion dawns on me.

The last conversation we had
It's memory still tears me to tears
Tearing at my soul
My happiness now raging
It's feelings is spitting mad.

Devoid of emotions
Your eyes hollow like the dead of night
Your words frosty and so cold
My heart frozen has given up it's fight.

We were in lust
Our souls constantly craving intamacy
Emotions dacayed and turned to rust
Smiling momories tainted
Deceased
It has turned to dust.

Running timelessly backwards Hoping to find the love that I lost
The feeling alludes all memory
With frozen tears I paid the cost
An avelanche of cold emotions
Even my memories replaced by frost.

Still frantically searching
I'm getting lost in my lifeless soul
It has given up breathing
My lungs craving your essence
  It's evading all meaning

Am I dead inside
Lost without feeling
Just look how you left me
Broken and reeling

I'm praying for sunny days
My prayers are voiceless
Clouded and soaked in rain
all I breathe is this pain
Every rain drop I hear
Is slowly calling your name

I'm slowly going insane
Grabbing at elusive thoughts
This story I wish to rename
Called happy forever
Instead of his hearts blind and in darkness chained.

In the dark of the silent night
I'm viewing my true self
Tossing and turning
Sweating and fretting
My face horrored and cloaked in fright.

Awake horrifically screaming
My demons rejoicing
Toasting in sinister delight.

Lights out
In the dark of the night
my minds aimlessly racing again
directionless,
is this life or fate
am I just playing catch up in this race.

I'm lost in this twisted void
this sorrowed space between us
cuts and flays like a knife
holding on a silhouette of you, screaming at memories
i crave touching your smiling face

Emotions lost and decayed
i fall to my knees
crying in tandem
with the demons in side of me
shedding our tears, opening  up
black holes of sorrow
like it's falling from outer space

i'm failing to understand these confused feelings
emotions spinning in a clouded haze
I cant accept that you gone
you left, missing like my soul
now  i'm deceased inside
my minds left in a crazed daze.

diseased,
with this virus you left in me
poisoning my heart, equally my shadow
this pain reaching bottomless deep
it reached my souls core
ripping frantically at my chest
this hurt unbearable
i do not ever think,i will ever be free.