I believed you lost your ability to hurt me
long ago

and I do like to think that remains true
even now


[but you still have the ability to cut me deeply
in so many unforeseen ways]

I wish I understood what's going on

[no reply]

I wish I understood the meaning behind what you write

[no reply]

I wish I understood what you're not writing

[no reply]

I wish... never mind

now I get it

Usually I see
     light spilling out from beneath the closed door
Usually I hear
     your breath whispering across the panes of glass
Usually I feel
     your touch even if it's just in my dearest dreams
But this time
     but this time

nothing
     nothing at all

Say something for once
Please don’t leave me here to guess
If I mean that much

we sadly haven't drowned our blues
like fragile creatures, the snake drained
yeah, we weave a troubled escape
out of someone else's everlasting bruises

our romance worships forgotten letters
seemingly locked in imagined contact
a prayer drum’s darkened destination
caring aching crying, but changing entirely