Everything is bland:
the gems are losing their beauty
the books are collecting ten-year-old dust
the clothes lay unloved-
She bent down
With her white high heels
Unworthy teardrops on those things
She once determined them unimportant, low price
Now she wants them back
To appease her unhappy life
But they are there, and not for her anymore.

For 19 years
I've followed you like a puppy.
For nineteen days, you have kept me at arm's length
even though you know my feelings.
In just nine days, I'll be  the witness
of your vow for her.

I regard you highly
And I don't expect anything from you.
I wish you appreciate what you have,
learn to love
as you grow older and wiser.
I have nothing else to say, anymore.
So goodbye.

Scarlet liquid flowing down my hand
scarring only me and making my loved ones laugh
Maybe I should have finished my work on myself
So I do not have to stare at their face with hatred.

If i knew who i am
I would not have cracked my knuckles
Nor gritted my teeth and bit my tongue.
If i knew what i will be
I would have been lounging all day,
Waiting the God and men to feed and clothe me.
It's better if i don't know myself.
I don't wanna be a bad princess at the end;
But i can't guarantee i will not be.

Are you an important person?
Why must you be on my mind day and night?
I wait for the wheel of fate to point to the West,
The galaxies implode and the glories rejoiced and
they reinvigorate a drunk man-just for you.
Are we there yet? To Maisa.
I want to be received
into your dark world.

All the significant things and people
are big
because we treasure them.

Don't push your loved ones;
instead, pull them close up to your heart
and let them know your love.

Wow,  i just know what u are
I was blind.
I  was too stubborn to read warning signs on your body.
I regret it so much.
I wish my dear sisters
Are not ignornat like me.

I kept replaying the conversations we had
on a rainy day.
I wished I could drown out the words along with the merciless rain
beating against the windowpane.

I won't let the pain meddle in my future
I promise I'll get every better,
I promise I ll be strong
I promise I'll take care of them as long as I can

I feel like I'm strolling around the city
to get the attention.
I have the look of 'I need your attention badly' words
written over my face
so I could get to be in the centre of Paris.

I can feel my life is wavering;
Like a birch tree in my backyard.  


I wish I could walk backwards;
To destroy the past that I ran away with madness.


I can’t move on yet  
When it is still stubborn as a loyal pet which waits for its master patiently at the door.

I don't want to know what you tell me,
because anyone can speak.
I want to get closer to you.
I want to know the REAL you.

Maybe we're compatible
Maybe we're meant to be heartbroken.
I don't want to know the ending.

But why do I only remember
the other mysterious pair of eyes?
His stare gave me pleasure so much
I want to know the ending.

I don't know what burns me out-
people business -or maybe my own overthinking?

I don't know why I am so worried and sorry for-
when my heart does not explicitly understand what bothers me or not.

I don't know how to cherish myself.
It's easier to convince others because they ain't me.

When will I be able to get out this slender column
bottle?
When will the Owner take the cap away?
He's flicking around it
His hand I can see
but I can't see any other else beside my own.

My tears could compose into a snowball
inside the glass tall bottle
He wouldn't let anyone turn the cap
I don't know his reasons .

I don't know how long
The walls are so slippery, I am pushed down again
It's not just me, others like me, in the sames
are trapped, are batoned, are caned,
inside the tiny hollow bottle .

In our own bottles
it's no less than prison
The hope is the cap
But, When?
Will the cap be opened?
Knock, knock
Is Thou actually listening us?

You stole my heart
Just from across the room.
Cliche is the love
Its the reason i live.

I played a game with God.
When I look at the built-in altar in my small flat
Pictures,shapes, feelings
all sort drilled into a universe of sadness.

I fall into the pit again
I kneel,
I pray ,
I beg for atonement for my sins.

I closed my eyes for a moment of silence
I saw some hope
not from my eyes,
But from God's loving eyes.

Seconds later,
I saw my funeral with ten girls around me
laying some flowers on my unloving body
then my body is burned
ashes fall on their dull faces

I woke up from the brown coffin
a cross painted on the end of the coffin
With my migrant name.
Some cheered my death
because I deserved it all,
It's a secret I was not dead at all .
I was just hidden from them for a while.

I was laid among the uncut weeds
which shelter me from the rain,
storm,
mostly from the unkind people.

I'm glad
That I'm not being delusional that
demons are bad.

I'm glad
I don't have any regrets
And memories of you
in my heart.

I lost myself
in all the useless battles.
I really really want to know
what it feels like to be loved
by your family.
In their eyes
I'm the worst human
I didn't commit any grave sins
and offend them
I have always believed that
I'm responsible,
caring, selfless.
I have to accept
that people won't see me
like how I see myself.
I sound so desperate
because everytime,
everyday,
I'm begging for love
For Love
For Unavailable Love.

I'm confused with your language.
I don't wanna overthink
because I'm just looking for ways
to believe another reason.

My rationality tugging me-
as I'm standing in the borderline of
doing all the work.
I wish I know what you're feeling.

I'm at your mercy
when you call out my name.
And I pray
these words of yours
is 'I love you'
one day.

I FEEL LIKE ****
THE FEELING COMES AND GOES
ONLY SOME ‘’Things ‘’ CAN **** THIS MADDESS.

I don’t know who I am.
I lose my  very tiny self-esteem everyday
my dignity is trampled and it runs along with my blood.
I lay in the bathroom,
Transfixed by the symphony written just ‘only for me’.
Wow, I’m so special.

You said you love me so much.
But your action proves otherwise.
You said you know me the best;
How ironic is that you still took me to see ugly scenes.
I don’t think I am strong enough:
I’m a tired donkey after a long-haul of your nonsense.

You didn't turn on the headlights
Because you didn't want to see me.
I've been giving myself false hopes
That you would eventually turn around and notice me.

Fake it until you smile for real;
Cry until your eyes give up
and don't hurt yourself with cynicism.

Mount Everest
you are too high for me.
People worship thee like God.
Thee never flinch
Thee never crack when the earth is shook.
Thee never cry
but why peopl cry when they climb on you?
Thee has a strong back like a dinasour but they can't grip on you.
I know you are friends with the wind and the Sun.
I know you are like one of the Greek gods.
But u aren't kind.
I lost my brother
who was so overzealous
you should have let him win!
you killed him with your power!
you should have let him win!
He loves his country so much
He risked his life
so he can prove to everyone.
I wonder why people love you
you are so cold
no wonder ice stays with you
watch out!
i will be coming with an army
and we will be standing
on your head with pride.

Numbing feet
Aching fingers
Smelly shirt
Sweat beads on my face
I feel myself dying
I feel myself falling asleep while  standing
I feel everyone is bad
I just cannot stop thinking
Handsome guys
Cold  jelly lemon drink
Support from my co workers
Save me from nearly dying.

My mind is poly
but i'm only.

I don't want to go to the finish line
Can I just curl up in a corner
with my favourite book?
And I'm lazy.

Stars brightly shinning, against your past.
Blushing of the thoughts
you think more of me
than the other exes,
who left you in the grim light.

Chestnuts shoot out of seeds fire,
begging my attention for a while.
I have to embrace
the change, for its better.
Being a volcano, wouldn't help a lot either.
Unlikely I will accept
when I have it in my mind.

I saw Death.
It was crouching at my doorstep
I got a glimpse of It.
Its stare- made me a Human.

In the silent storm
I saw Its sick claws,
Scratch marks marking the snowy paths,
the ground started to split
to the Pacific ocean
to the invisible cracks of rocks
until Dust and Death, Masters of Time
Sweep away my beloved face
onto their altar, unchain him from love sorrow.

I know one day i 'm not going to see you anymore.
I know i will miss you so much
The thought of losing you made me crazy.
I have lost you already
I know I have to let you go soon
Because my heart hurts everytime our eyes met.
I know you will never accept me
And I know I will get hurt
But I couldn't control myself.

You were my world.
The reason for my motivation.
You feel like you must step on my dream
because they take time to bring dollars.

You want me begone-
away from the world
away from all, I treasured.

Yet, I had hope
I really had hope
that one day
you would change and
see me as a human.

I'm wrong.
You will never.
Goodbye, my precious tears,
to grief that's useless to others.

Let's go our ways.

It was raining so hard.
Clouds were no visible
My tummy protesting
And "wanna be home ,hurry up " mantra,
In a state of being impatience,
It got  rainning harder;
An My bubbles thoughts was like,
I should have brought an umbrella,
Out of nowwhere
As if you know what i wished,
Formed a canopy of tree with you
Your  protective arm and the umbrella,
Rain is the cupid of our  new beginning

A poker face is safer
When you have no idea of this particular person
Who makes you to insensible to your  common sense.

I am madly in love
with a lot of things--
and feeling beautiful and confident.

I'm very depressed sometimes;
and honestly, I tell you:
I only feel and see black and white.

We March to the altar.
Where we made hereafter promises
imperfection in the hands
you fie in your own seeds.

Hatred brand like a glamour knife
flashing in the air,the yellow air you know:
the red blind you strike
shall now be stamped in your eyes.

I admit arrogance wouldn’t get me to see-
The little things-the good things--
And the souls connected to me.

Though you break me,
I’d rather describe you romantically.
Wanna honour you,
For the passion and inspiration, you’ve sown in me.

I understand you now.
Having been quoted as “a sensitive person”,
I see a hero now,
Dazzling under the spotlight and never forgetting the little ones.

Classic theme
Romantic songs to listen
Taiwan hot soup to savour
Take pictures of you and your spouse
Make this  saturday
Really beautiful and never ending.

In the end,

        We’re the one who we have to take care of and

        Should mind our own business.

         It’s us that has to weather through the storms.

I can see the shadow
It's right behind me, listening to my heartbeat-
Called my name repeatedly
So I would remember to change my plan.

It's so quiet and determined
Like a restless spirit, ready to possess
my soul, that sees only grey.

The night is long
My shadow is fatigue,
My heart is hurt
My bones splinter
And I stay in the room filled with filthy air.

By my side
I have nobody.
In front of me
I have big obstacles.
I walk two steps backward
And I bumped to my past.
I have nowwhere to go
I don't want to go back to my past
Nor stays in the present.
I wish I'm dead.

I laugh out very loud;
Earsplitting loud.
I make sound when i drink soup;
Disgusting and loud.
I talk with enthusiam;
Secrects become publicly announced.
Elephants' walks shake the ground and home;
I am sorry i can't walk like cats.
I  am just loud
I am not lonely, don't you worry?

I sat by my wardrobe,
the last season, dim-witted clothes,
waving and flashing
to my face.

I took down a bright orange jumpsuit
packed it with lacquer boots
in a trunk that has
a label on it: 'Shipped to Shawn's Place'.

So I guessed they should be the last pieces
that had our wedding kiss.

I was born a flower.
Now I feel bare and threatened,
holding on to the last things
And hoping the hours to justify me.


Everything and everyone--
can be blown away by anyone.
I can't stop and stare,
Hoping everything is the same as yesterday.

My thoughts are confined in the empty space.
I wanna escape from the thoughts that drown me,
break down the boundaries that bar me
and will mark a day of victory for the sleepless nights.

Every night I toss and turn,
lying awake in my seamless worries-
turning my black silky hair to silver hair.

How long can the fire burn ardently
If the passion is missing in the embers.

Can the dying air whisper her to wake up,
And she just nods and accepts to renew her vows of life?

I want to see her walking down a road,
With elegance, grace and confidence
That will make her smile effortlessly.

Looking back to my old days
Everything was in an endless loop.
From my birth land to my new home
I climbed so many mountains and walked.
Exhausting indeed but i didn't stop on a midway.
Looking back to my 12 years old self
Life became luxurious and better.
Since then  I started to know what is life really about.
Looking back at last year
I learned about  myself and others
Hardship stabbed me multiple times
But when the sun aries,
It heals my problems and dry my tears.

I grow up sad and weak;
Didn't expect to break the expection i had set years ago.
Not only i became like this,
It's heart breaking  to see my loved ones too.


I remember a saying by heart,
Loved ones support you in the hard times.
I fell lower and I cried harder,
When i know i can't run to them anymore.

If I have to face loneliness and death,
so that I can escape from the prison of your toxicity;
I couldn't be happier more
because it's the right thing to ease my pain.

Life is harder as i grow up
My goal  become diminshed.
I just realised.
The moon and the stars are just above in the sky
But in reality
They are not in my world.