i'm not good at math, approximations,
don't like uneven numbers, cos sins, whats right?
your star sign is the worst, sometimes you too,
other times i am complete, prime, whole,
i'm not good at relationships, only staying,
don't like even tempers as bandaid approaches,
your picking up your skeletons in the closet -
other times i am cleaning up the bones and dust,
i'm not good at goodbyes, only apertures,
don't like to leave things closed, sometimes you are,
other times i am warm, safe, sanctioned,
don't like to be the entirety of a set, that you deem null

Being happy and
being distracted from sadness
are not the same thing.

Don't listen to the words
Listen for the meaning within
The intentions conveyed
Emotions quelled, bursting out
In a matter of melodic sounds

Behind curtains drawn
Before thick brick walls
Stacked high
Yet fragile
There they are waiting

Listen to all the noise
The whispers
Unspoken out loud
And you might gain
A piece of the puzzle

Rejoice
For the world lies before you
Like an open book
In a library of many more
It's secret yet to be discovered
Spread out before you are
All of it's wonders

You could smell the sun rising
Before the first rays touched you
Before the light reached you
To chase away the stifness in your joints
The coldness in your bones

An open promise
Of warmth spreading back into the world
Chasing away the dark,
Bringing back it's colour
Once more

I open up my mind
Let in a little light
Breathe deep
To feel alive again

Meeting you
I understand now

Why hands need to be held
And lips urge to be kissed

I try to spread
As much light as I get
Leave the world a brighter place
And still protect myself in the process

Yet
I myself always lean to the dark
For the comfort of it's safety
Afraid to be blinded
Afraid to be emberassed
Being out in the open

I'm scared
Please don't hurt me

So here I am,
Learning and living.

So little did I know,
Before believing.

These emotions,
We are feeling,
Have purpose,
Have meaning.

And that I,
Right now,
Am truly healing.