Wait a minute baby can you tell me? Promise you'll be honest and that you tell me the truth about everything you feeling even if it hurts me tell me now if you can i just want to know why you can't love me the way I need to be love? Boy i just want to understand and I need to understand is it the way I wear my hair or the way I dress or its cause you want a girl with a big *****? Boy keep it real with me why won't you love me the way I need to be love boy my heart keeps crying cause I need to feel love boy tell me tell me this is it something wrong with me? It's cause I keep trying to tell you how I feel. Boy I starting to hate the morning cause I know what they bring you get up anf take a shower in no time you're leaving and I know it sounds so so selfish but I can't help but think that if you knew how much I need you'd stay you just don't understand I even hate goodbye I hate these tears in my eyes I even hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime I've had enough of wishing that you were around me everyday and every night its to much that I starting to hate love yeah I said I'm starting to hate love woooo woooo I even hate your phone calls in the middle of the day cause all it do is remind me that my baby is so far away it drives me crazy baby ans I know its hard for you to understand what I'm saying I guess I just dont want to feel this along(I can't help it) everytime you walk out the door I start missing you (I can't help it no) wish I didn't need you this much(I can't help it) but I just love hard and I hate it.

I'm so tired of having to choose
Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do
Where do I go?
Cause
Every direction i go seems to be against the flow
And who will I be?
What does it even mean to just be me?
Every night I lie awake
My thoughts come rolling in
Love is won, love is lost
And loves that might have been I see the ghost of long lost hope
And shattered broken dreams I know it's time to carry on
But It's harder than it seems
But I gotta let it go, all the pain and strife and
I gotta let it go, and move on with my life but
I wanna know but I don't know
Which way I'm gonna go
Where will I go?
Which way will I go?
At times I can't tell what's up or down
My head spinning' all the time
Every time that I turn around,
There's another useless sign
I wanna know but I don't know
Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losing it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
As times gone by,
I can't deny
They've left their mark on me
Nothing is clear anymore
Did I let you down?
Sorry my good intentions never seem to come around
But
I gotta let it go, it's time to let it be
I gotta let it go, and then I can be free if not its going to hold me back from things i never thought i could do
I
Don't understand the master plan
That only God can see
I need to know, I wanna go
And lock it all inside
I wonder why and I say goodbye
And gather up my pride
And I have to believe
That there's an answer that I can't  see right now
I know I have the will to carry on
Life's is what make me strong
I've learned too much to turn my head away now and i got more to learn
I just so tired of having' to choose
What i want to do or what others want me to be
I gotta let it go, all the pain and strife
I gotta let it go, and move on with my life
So now I'm just gonna start over
piece by piece  I'll build my life again
And I'll begin
To learn from all of my mistakes
Then let them fly away to help some one else
Now its time to let it go
I got to let it go,
We got to let it go for good but before i go, God please
Tell me, where to go?

Never
Never give your heart to some one that don't care
Never let people tell you what to do
Never worry about haters
Never care about what people say about you
Never give your all if your heart say not to
Never turn down your hopes and dreams
Never Believe what you here
Never give up no matter what

Oh oh oh oh she use to be the sweetest girl oh oh she use to be the sweetest girl but when a good girl gone she gone forever and see you can't make it rain without stormy weather and its funny cause when it rains it pours and listen this wouldn't never happened if I wouldn't have gave him my all
This wouldn't never happened if I never traded in my love for lies but I take the L cause I don't want to see my brother lose even for I been through it all
I could never fill my mother shoes and nah I don't want a no handouts I just want to tell the girls that can feel me that I just play the cards that a ***** deal me and see eveything I been thru try so hard to **** me
but I just want to tell the girls that can feel me that boys are all the same in my eyes and I'm tried of running into the same types of ****** but listen ****** are the same in my eyes and see I just don't want to hurt anymore.
          
        This is just a little something and I want to give a big shot out to all the real men's out there....

Another month has come but you're still so far away you're always in my heart each and every day I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you when you need me the most I wish time would hurry but it goes slow texting aren't enough I need the real you the one who supports me my sister my glue we've been through so much in little time we've shared I will never forget you all the moments that you've shown me you cared I know it's hard but my time will come soon keep smiling beautiful cause it looks good on you so until I see you when my time comes to an end stay strong bud love your best friend.

Have you notice that your life is like a book because you never know what will happen next ? Sometimes it might seem like you in the same chapter for a long time and then it might seem like you left that chapter. It may seem like your life went on and left you but you have to keep going know matter what.

I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be,
I have to remind myself that one day I will be free
Free from rules I followed as a child when everything was a game and life was so mild
Now times have changed and I realized nothing is fair
And it seems like nobody even care or pays attention for what bests for me and sometimes asking why things have to be this way be the only thing to get me by especially when dreams continue to die sometimes its nice to just sit in the rain to help relieve the pain
And when I have a really bad day I just need to get away
I never know what's wrong without the pain
But sometimes the hardest thing to do is right thing is the same and sometimes when people get hurt even the strongest one may need comfort
We all do at some point in life.