Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 Nov 2020 Torin
Jayne E
he brings me peace
wrapped up in love
his love is tender sweet
we fit together as hand in glove

he knows just such
to soothe me right
and when I need his touch
to be strong with might

he found me blue
bruised petals torn
knew what to say and do
to chase away my forlorn

he has ruined me now
for any other ever
with the love he endows
a bond too strong to sever

he is more than a good man
my respect for him grows
depend upon him I can
as he can me he knows

the love he gives is so good
forever my heart his to keep
at last love manifest as it should
forever I am his little meep

© J.C.
 Sep 2020 Torin
Cassie
Untitled
 Sep 2020 Torin
Cassie
I want
a husband
a family
roots.

but it seems that just as much of the time I find myself dreaming of
living alone in the woods

a feather in the wind
 Sep 2020 Torin
Cassie
stuck.
 Sep 2020 Torin
Cassie
I'm sorry to myself for apologizing more than you do when you're the one who should be apologizing.

But you probably don't even remember what you should apologize for since you were drunk now that I'm realizing it, so I guess I can't hold you to those.

I'm so emotionally and mentally exhausted of always being the bigger/more mature person with someone I should feel is my partner in this rocky life.

I've always felt like the rock in this relationship.

He sometimes has, but I always have been.

Just when I trust he is, he falls into his lying (about his addictions) and addictions again.

It's draining not to have someone very emotionally dependable.

I know its not his fault.

He has addictions, and mental troubles of his own.

So I never hold him to it, but I am personally feeling the weight of his meanness, his hopelessness.

And to know I can't stop being someone's rock or else they'll break even further than they already have when I already feel like I've broken and need help of my own is getting to be too much.

And I can't get help because I'm worried if people (a therapist or something like that) know he's an addict and I need help with my anxiety again someday CPS might check on us and see if he is a fit parent (if we ever have kids-that's a whole other discussion).

I feel stuck.

So, so stuck.

I don't know what to do anymore.

If he wouldn't get so angry with me I could deal with this so much better.

If we could fight this as a team.

Instead of me fighting for/against him.
I feel like this relationship is eating me alive but I love him too much to leave. I also know he's just misplacing his anger and doesn't even want to drink so I feel bad for even feeling this way towards him sometimes. And he says he doesn't think he'd be here if it wasn't for me. As I said, feeling very stuck.
 Aug 2020 Torin
Jayne E
this poets soul
is sowing seeds
for loved ones lost
for unseen deeds
in the quiet times
dappled with sighs
dusted in pale light
are pre dawn skies
Mr Tui sings
he spreads wide
his wings
in upward flight
to the Puriri tree
I think of you
I dream you are free
toes mulled
in a turning tide
undertow pulled
the tears we cried
for you
I glimpse your eyes
crystalline blue
so briefly seen
caught in sea foam
sands washed
renewed pristine
I let go like the sun
& long for home


J.C.
want me to show a little a skin
gram by the gram for the gram
lay it all out like spread eagle
kiss your **** and say you're a man
**** all the soft **** that right
catching feelings holding hands
want me to take it all off one by one
if i was real i'd understand

but that's not me
never will be
i like my privacy
i like hiding
i like keeping things lowkey
i don't wanna show my body
i don't wanna be like that
don't wanna arch my back
don't wanna be like all the rest
faking smiles and setting traps
don't wanna go that fast
don't make my life public
just cause you like it
doesn't mean you need to touch it
respect my boundary lines
don't tell me to cut them
they're there for a reason
there cause i want them
you say i don't need them
because you want somethin
gained from me having none
so they're bad by your assumption
don't live to play barbie in your productions
be your star of seduction
my body is more than it makes you feel
i have a higher function
stop trying to push me down
you'll never have your way
i'll bite and scream and scratch and claw
i'll be whatever you want to call
a ***** a snitch a liar a tease
your opinion does not phase me
won't be molded into your princess
or pose and flutter and kneel
would rather die being me
than do something to make you feel

good
 May 2020 Torin
RAJ NANDY
Dear Readers, thses are my few old memories of Calcutta from my early childhood days, after having reached the milestone on the road side reading 77.  Hope you like it ! Best wishes, - Raj, New Delhi.

REMINISCENCE OF A SENIOR SEPTUAGENARIAN
I was born in the early forties during those black and
white days,
When those big old valve radios and gramophones
records played.
The British flag was flying over Calcutta, the city of
my birth.
That first old capital of British India with its horse
and buggy, crowded buses, and tram cars.
The main streets got washed with water hoses from  
high pressured hydrants every morning,
And the lamplighter with his ladder lighted the
street gas lights every evening.
Radiograms were a status symbol, and transistor
radios had come decades later.
With rickshaws pulled manually by poor old
rickshaw pullers!
Juke Box played popular songs (during our school
days in the fifties) in ice cream parlors.
Whoever even thought of a TV or a mobile phone,
during those happy hours!
For the Bongs the theatres of north Calcutta was a
classical source of entertainment.
Eye ball contact was meaningful with a hug and a
hand shake, - life remained fully extroverted.
Unlike our present highly advanced Corona days!
No wonder I love that great old South Indian serial
titled the ‘Malgudi Days’!
Like our old songs, those golden days shall forever
remain cherished and nostalgic;
And as a part of a senior citizen’s waking dream!
Now please smile, take a selfie with your I-phone,
and go to sleep!
                                       -Raj Nandy, New Delhi.
 May 2020 Torin
Mitch Prax
Just as the
dawning sun
kisses the sleeping Earth,
your smile brings
warmth and light
to my
soul.
 May 2020 Torin
ryn
Lifespan
 May 2020 Torin
ryn
.
Trace the suns
that traverse the skies

Follow the moons
that try to keep pace

Count the ticks
that strike my clock

For you are the numbers
to the rest of my days


.
Next page