Loving you slowly tore me apart,
A price I paid with an open heart.
The day I met you, I thought I’d be whole,
I thought you were perfect, the key to my soul.
I thought you’d bring peace, a love so deep,
But I was wrong, neither you nor I could keep.
Neither were you perfect, nor was I ever free,
Still, I loved you, though it swallowed me.

I gave my all, hoping you’d feel the same,
But you stayed distant, as I played the game.
I kept reaching out, but you pulled away,
And slowly, love slipped into disarray.

Even as your touch left me in pain,
I stayed, lost in the weight of your name.
Tears fell, hiding the hurt I knew,
For all my pain began with you.

lately life feels like an invisible fire,
doused in methanol,
hot on my heels.

so, Vigiles, lay into me a firebreak,
right down my spine,
quench the fiery blood.

make me a dormant hearth full of cinder,
promise me to colder nights.

just don't forget to bring a match,
bring the spark to my thatch.