My heart’s in lockdown and
I can’t break free,
I wish I could feel something,
Wish I could be me.
I feel like I’m running in circles,
Striving for emotion,
When all I feel is numb
And sick of my devotion
To the voices in my head
Who keep telling me to quit,
“Why not just give up now,
There’s no way to fix it!”
But I know there’s something there,
In the deepest part of me,
Something that still wants to learn,
Love and move and breathe.
So I will spend some time today,
And love that part of me,
And lock down all the saddened parts and
Start to break free.
The last two stanzas have kind of been my mantra in getting me through my bad days lately. I hope you all find something to keep you going during this scary time. I send my love to you all <3