We drove to the beach at midnight in the middle of winter.
I remember trying to stay warm was impossible,
even with the blanket I brought,
so we went to the covered slide.
It was so uncomfortable, but between the stars
and the moon, the waves and the beach, and you and me,
it was more perfect than anything I could've ever planned.

sitting at the bar where you used to
scream my name if you saw me.
i haven't seen you since.

now i just go back for the memory,
with hope that you'll scream my name
one more time.

walking down the street airily,
up comes a man so hairily
telling me how unsofairily
the world has been to him.

you see my dear friend,
our lives we must mend
for we never know our end
thus we pretend we live forever.

death left its mark,
a hardy spark,
deep inside our heart
vulnerable til the end.

a stillness occupies the brain,
an illness with all there is to gain
that causes unfathomable pain--
mental illness, will I ever be the same?

What I elected is fresh perspective:
the world is not so defective,
it just needs a new directive!
one that is protective,
completely unselective,
and infective with love.

gradually get
better at everything you
do and don't look back

I miss warm weather
With winter blues no longer
Nor lack of wonder

serendipitous
synchronologically
singing succintly

people always tell me to let go like it's so easy,
they don't know the love i felt,
they don't see the person sitting in my memories...

i feel the exact same as i felt from the last moment i saw you,
i remember everything,
as if it were yesterday;
in reality, it's been more than 2 years.
but they don't understand what goodbyes mean to me...

she's still alive though.
living in the catacombs of my heart,
suffocating from my ****** up brain
and the smoke we share in our lungs
drowning the emotions i run so desperately from.

i know you're happy and in love with someone else--
it's just that... what i always wanted to say to you is:
i hope i never have to say goodbye to you,
so for now i'll keep a little piece of you locked away
in different corners of my body, with this dream that someday,
i'll find you again...