Lying on my death bed
Standing on the brink
How would I feel?
What would I think?

Would I feel regret
For the things that didn't get done?
Or was my life complete
Filled with family love and fun?

I wish I wasn't leaving you
I wish that I could stay
My love for you can never die
Lasting forever and a day

When the time has come
When my last breath I'll take
I'll know the love we had was real
Something we never had to fake

I'll wait for you in heaven
Outside the pearly gate
Being together for eternity
Has always been our fate

Lovely painting
On the wall
Into you
I wish I could fall

You are such
A wonderful scene
Your grass is
An incredible green

Beautiful skies
The deepest of blue
Sitting here for hours
Just looking at you

And your mountains
So majestic and real
Rub my hand across your canvas
All the paint I can feel

Just imagining
What a dream it would be
If I looked out my window
And you I did see

Every brush stroke
Done with precision and skill
Just to see you
It gives me a thrill

On my wall forever
With you I'll never part
Always holding
A special place in my heart

My elegant queen
Full of beauty and grace
Jewelry made of gold
Clothes of the finest lace

When I see you
It all seems surreal
Cannot control
These emotions I feel

Your hair soft like silk
Your eyes so sultry and dark
Whenever you're near
I feel a spark

You feel it too
I see that look in your eye
These feelings we have
We cannot deny

Let's surrender our souls
To our deepest desire
Let our bodies succumb
To the heat of this fire

A fire that burns
Deep down in our soul
I must have you now
To make me whole

You'll always be my queen
And I'll be your slave
This love that we shared
I'll take to my grave

Walking thru the desert
feeling scorched and parched
Despising every second
across the dunes I marched

The sand an endless ocean
so open and vast
That cactus standing proudly
just like a ships mast

The tumbleweeds aimlessly wandering
on the wind that blows so hot
This landscape unforgiving
always taking what you've got

Up there in the distance
a sight I can't believe
Sometimes here in the desert
a mirage it can deceive

But as I approach
this beautiful sight I see
I realize it's not fiction
but a reality

Speaking of reality
the desert is my life
and that beautiful sight I see
is really my wife

Distantly staring
I slowly begin to cry
I find myself wondering
Is this the last goodbye?

As you start to leave
I silently begin to pray
dear Lord bring her back to me
at the end of this day

Over the years we've grown close
inseparable we two
Oh my god what if something terrible
should happen to you

We'll be in love forever
until the very end
The thing I'm most thankful for
you are my best friend

Your love penetrates me down
to my very soul
It fills the emptiness inside me
no longer a black hole

I'll sit and wait forever
till you are by my side
Every second till we're together
will be how many tears I've cried

Feeling like
I'm at the end of my rope
Life is a struggle
I've lost all my hope

Can't get ahead
No matter how I try
What is the use
I should lay down and die

No one would care
If this earth I did leave
Not a tear would be shed
Nobody to grieve

Problems in this life
I face all alone
There is nobody to call
Or answer the phone

Looking in the mirror
The reflection I see
There isn't a family
I see only me

What I wouldn't give
To have someone in my life
Maybe a friend
Possibly a wife

This is the thing
That I ask for each day
When I drop to my knees
To the lord I pray

Anything
That you shall ask
Will be
My one and only task

Swim across
the deep blue sea
All so you
would notice me

Scale to the top
Of the highest peak
A kiss from you
Is what I seek

Jump off a cliff
Possibly die
I'd do anything
To catch your eye

Face the fiercest lion
If that's my duty
Just to get a glance of
Your sublime beauty

So say the word
Give me direction
I'd do anything
For your affection

You be the jelly
and I'll be your bean
we can be yellow  
or maybe green
We'll hang around
inside the jar
hoping our love
will take us far
So put in a quarter
and we'll come out
taste is delicious
have no doubt
Twist the handle
and we'll start to fall
into your hand
we'll have a ball
Now lift us up
and start to chew
we won't be angry
or even blue
We fill your hunger
or maybe a craving
eating us
is not misbehaving
I'll always be happy
it'll always be keen
if you are the jelly
and I am your bean

From deepest ocean
to outer space
yours is the love
I can't replace

Not a setting sun
or swans majestic grace
can match the beauty
of your face

The way the moonlight
compliments your skin
to be so lovely
should be a sin

To look at you
I see perfection
I'm so glad
we made a connection

Father Time has aged you well
your very essence has me under it's spell
Never wanting to be set free
I am yours for eternity

This show is entering
Its final act
It'll soon be over
That's a fact

It has had
An incredible run
Filled with laughter
And of fun

You and me
In the starring role
Two halves
Making a whole

Together until
The final curtain
Deeply in love
That's for certain

Always together
As much as time would allow
Hand and hand together
We'll take the final bow

You have a tail
Born in the water
Swimming around
just like an otter

Over the months
You steadily grow
Tail is shrinking
why don't you know

Quickly becoming
That full grown frog
You'll no longer be
That little polliwog

What would I do
if I was the invisible man?
What kind of scheme?
What kind of plan?

Hanging around your room
late at night
watch you undress
Wow, what a sight!

Or would it be
a bank that I'd rob?
Stealing the money
from some old rich slob?

Eavesdropping on
their conversation?
Having this power
is such a sensation

Not worried about looks
fashion or style
No use for expression
not even a smile

Time has passed
a year or two
Not feeling happy
I'm feeling blue

Being this way
isn't so great
It's hard to find love
or even a date

I hope someday
this curse will end
So I can find
my one special friend

Love isn't something
That grows on a tree
You can't buy it
But it isn't free

It can come
At a high cost
But without it
We'd be lost

You're not going to find it
On a shelf in a store
Won't be lying
There on the floor

Isn't going to be
In any book
Not something
You can cook

Coming to you
In many ways
It'll find you
One of these days

And when it does
Don't push it away
Let it fill your heart
And it'll be here to stay

Trying to escape
My mortal enemy the past
No matter how I try
The scars always last

I tried to run
I tried to hide
All the walls I built
Were just pushed aside

Following me
like a stalker would his prey
Always there
Will you ever go away

Tired of paying
For the mistakes that I made
To change what I did
There's nothing I wouldn't trade

To society
I already paid my debt
Memories
I will never forget

Always wanting
The freedom of a dove
I got that
By finding you my love

The demons of the past
Finally put to rest
The love I feel for you
Filling up my chest

Emotions coming back
Marring up my brain
It happened months ago
But I still feel the pain

There was no physical contact
Nothing at all
No verbal communication
Not even a call

It was just a thought
Or maybe a dream
But to me my love
How real it does seem

Intimate thoughts
To a total stranger
Never knowing
You could be in danger

These feelings
I must keep in side
Many nights
I broke down and cried

I will always love you
To the very end
I'll try to be happy
At least I'll pretend

Trying to erase
These images from my brain
No matter how I try
These thoughts will not wane

Never will I forget
That look on her face
Was it shame
Or maybe disgrace

Seems like yesterday
When I barged through the door
She was in his arms
Need I say anymore

Sent me into
An incredible fit of rage
Like a starving lion
Released from its cage

Grabbed him by his neck
Like a lion does its prey
Looked him in his eye
Asked what he had to say

I'm so sorry
I didn't know she is your wife
Please don't **** me
He begged for his life

Feeling kind
His life I did spare
But from now on
He will walk with a chair

There is a lesson
He hasn't learned
If you play with fire
You're going to get burned

As for my wife
It is her I did leave
To me she is dead
For her I won't grieve

Since then I made
A brand new start
Found a beautiful woman
And gave her my heart

She is my true love
My only best friend
Our love will live forever
Never finding an end

Sitting in my bed
Notebook on my lap
Writing a poem
Emotions trying to tap

Trying to put
A thought into a word
I have no talent
This is absurd

Everything I do
I'm riddled with doubt
But when I write
My feelings come out

Creating poems
About love and pain
Such a cool way
To empty my brain

I write for you
It is me you inspire
You are the fuel
To my creative fire

Sitting by the window
of a one engine plane
Thinking to myself
this is insane

The instructor got up
and opened the door
“Step up to the line”
marked on the floor

Jump off the edge
hands by your side
Falling so quick
like a bird I will glide

The wind whistling in my ears
sounding like a flute
Now the time has come
to open up my chute

Body rips violently
up towards the sky
Glad that it opened
now I won't die

Spiraling down
without saying a word
Knowing what it feels like
to fly like a bird

Before you know it
here comes the ground
Make a soft landing
without making a sound

Back to the hanger
my chute I will tote
I'd do it again
If I get to vote

Why have I been
put here on earth?
What is my value?
What is my worth?

Am I destined
to be something great?
Or less than ordinary
will that be my fate?

Life passing by
not having a clue
Which way to turn?
What do I do?

Asking myself
is there something more?
This can't be it
of this I'm quite sure

On things I rely
there are just two
One is my faith
the other is you

Your coal black eyes
Burn my soul like fire
Feelings of lust
Uncontrollable desire

A queen of the night
Out hunting for a mate
When I looked at you
It would seal my fate

Hungrily looking at me
Like a lioness at her prey
Softly whispering in my ear
Here's what you'd say

You shall lay on the altar of the dead
There your life shall bleed
Draining every drop of your crimson nectar
Every drop I need

Passionately kissing me on my neck
Searching for a vein
Sinking your fangs deeply in
Feeling pleasure no pain

Making love to me under the moon
As I slowly died
I forever shall be your king
Eternally by your side

Porcelain doll
Lovely face
Sitting there
Full of grace

Held up by
Your wooden stand
That frilly dress
Looks so grand

Beautiful little
Baby blues
A pair of
Black shiny shoes

Wish you could speak
Unable to talk
Get off your stand
And take a walk

Face never changing
Always staying the same
Having no emotion
Is part of the game

Arms and legs
They'll never bend
Wish that you
Could have a friend

After a while
That case becomes a cage
A small price to pay
Cause you never age

Maybe someday
You'll come to life
You will find love
You'll be a wife

Poor black crow
Broke it's neck
Flying into glass

Kind of like
Me and you
Sorry to be crass

I'm the crow
Midnight black
Into love I fall

You're the glass
Crystal clear
With an emotional wall

I'm flying fast
into you
Emotions start to reel

Your heart is hard
Cold and gray
Seemingly made of steel

Hit so hard
Broke my neck
Ending with a crack

Left me there
On the floor
Never looking back

False accusations
Stories and lies
Are these words against me
Merely a disguise?

Trying to cut me
Down to the quick
It's rather obvious
I make you sick

Over the last few months
The trust has been shattered
I always loved you
But that never mattered

It's always been
About sneaking around
I'm looking for love
In the lost and found

Hoping to find
A discarded jewel
One that won't make me
Feel like a fool

I'm sorry to say
that we've reached the end
So long my love
To myself I must tend

You bring your frosty cold touch
Everywhere you go
All it takes is one wave of your hand
And the plants cease to grow

Plants look at you like icy cold death
Of this don't be mistaken
There's only one way to survive your touch
Inside they must be taken

He forms a white frosting
On the pumpkins by morning
His presence a prelude to winter
Of this you should take warning

He welcomes winter with great fanfare
On this you can be certain
Walking barefoot in the snow
His feet never hurtin'

Sometimes he'll make an appearance in spring
When flowers are starting to grow
Then with one icy look
He'll end the colorful show

Only one thing can stop him
End his frosty ways
His mortal enemy the sun
With it's warming rays

First the housework
then the bills
always kept busy
by life's daily drills

“What about me”?
I silently scream
gotta help Johnny
he had a bad dream

Never stopping
her work rarely done
doesn't have energy
for us to have fun

I go to work
our house she will care
this is a burden
we gladly share

When I come home
there's always a meal
After its done
a kiss I will steal

When the day's over
and come to an end
I thank the Lord
you're my best friend

This is the ride
that I hate to take
Somber feelings
heart going to break

Time to leave
our little abode
Pulse is racing
I'm going to explode

In the car
I'm going to work
these aching feelings
hard to shirk

The miles are passing
each one like years
Down my cheeks
streams an ocean of tears

Is this the one ?
Is this the ride?
The last time
I'll feel you by my side

If this is the day
If this is the time
Never again
will my words rhyme

For you are my world
my life's destination
Without you in it
I'd have no inspiration

Written today 4/25/2016 at 12:50 PM

I was adrift in the emptiness of life
not knowing when this storm would end
The waves were lapping at my boat
threatening to swamp me

Then out of nowhere
an island appeared

The most beautiful island
I had ever seen

I landed my boat on that island
and pulled myself ashore
Felt as if this was home
from the moment I set foot on it

Twenty-five years later
I'm still on that island

happier than ever

I just want to say
thank you for being "my island"
and rescuing me from the storm of life

I love you

Hello today
It is cloudy outside
Matching the way
That I feel inside

Overcast with emotions
Of sorrow and pain
Feels like
I just got hit by a train

My feelings splattered
All over the track
The whips of your anger
All over my back

Hating to go to work
After having a fight
Wish I could stay home
To make everything right

Upon thinking about it
I sat down and cried
You are so stubborn
Me with my pride

Today when I get home
From a long days work
I'll say I'm sorry
I feel like a ****

You say it's okay
Don't worry any longer
It's times like these
That makes our love grow stronger

I'm so lucky
To have you as my wife
This beautiful home
My wonderful life

To the dark figure
in my house late at night
Is it really me
your trying to fright?

Seeing your shadow
crawl under my bed
Why are you trying
to mess with my head?

Did you follow me home
from a place far away?
I can't make you leave
your will is to stay

You enter my dreams
moving across the floor
grabbing my feet
pulling me under the door

Then you will drag me
to the end of the hall
Open the door
down the stairs I will fall

Hitting my head
on each stair it'd seem
Pain starting to sear
I let out a scream

When I woke up
I was covered in sweat
this a dream
that I soon won't forget

Welcome my love
to this dance of clowns
Instead of smiles
they give you frowns

You as the ringmaster
me as your clown
this is
the saddest show in town

A sad dance performed
by yes you and I
A dance never ending
till the day we die

An elephant  or giraffe
even a lion
It's so sad
even they are cryin'

Tho old cotton candy
so bitter and stale
a show so sad
can be quite a tale

They started this show
to mend their broken heart
Always together
never will we part

We put on this show
for what seems quite awhile
maybe it's time
we start to smile

so we think it's time
for this show to end
we are able to smile
and are hearts they did mend

Internal fires
all a rage
Maybe it's time
to turn the page

Your words to me
have become so trite
Some time alone
would be a delight

You walk the earth
to deceive
I think it's time
for me to leave

Love and devotion
is what I need
Not to incubate
a poison seed

For us there'll be
no horse and carriage
The time has come
to end this marriage

I surrender myself to you
my dark haired sultry one
No power on this planet
can stop what has begun

It's sanctioned in the heavens
by the gods above
It's impossible to control
this sweet unbridled love

We'll make love in the moonlight
under the endless stars
Expending all our energy
this night is truly ours

Knowing all my needs
all my deep desires
using passions sweat
to quench my inner fire

We'll spend this night together
and greet the rising sun  
I'll never be ashamed
for the deeds we've done

I'll tell you this my sweet baby
on this you can surely trust
Until the next time we're together
It is you I will only lust

In this tempest
I call my soul
your are the one
who has control
Feeling threatened
always on guard
Being looked at
with disregard
Living life
as a willing slave
Feeling threatened
from beyond the grave
Will it be me in eternity?
Or some distant history?
These feelings I have
run so deep
while awake
and when I sleep
Your undying love
will make me whole
That's why your the one
who has control
of this tempest
I call my soul