It wasn’t until
I realized how wilted my petals were
That I accepted the warmth
Of the sun

I try to create an illusion of freedom
just for you

I know it’s not enough
and it’s not fair
but neither am I

So when you perch on my shoulder
tickle my ears with your blue feathers
tweet sweet nothings

I know

I know you hate me

and it’s not enough
and it’s not fair

but neither am I

Smoke coats the bottom of my lungs
to the walls of my throat
to the ceiling of my mind
clouding my resolve

But the heat of the ashes
is the only warmth between my fingers
since your hand left mine

By midnight
the TV screens buzz in unison
black and white specks
crash together
in a fight of dominance

I can’t keep up
my eyes water

It’s too much

I raise the remote
and shatter their dance

Oh no,
Darling mine

Did you think
I’d lay myself bear
pull my ribs apart
present my beating heart
red and warm
upon your return

Oh no,
darling mine

I won't smother you in
butterfly kisses
or
empty endearments
like you once poured
upon my skin
like molten lead

Because now I’m dry
rock hard, stone cold
pure and smooth
in your forgotten love
that’ll I’ll never crack
for you
darling mine

Jessica

What’s in a name

Oh what’s in a name

Teeth ache’n sweet  

Oh so sweet

Pure as ****** skin

Oh so pure

They won’t know

Oh no they won’t know

what you’ve done

Oh what have you done?

Pure, sweet girl

Hand me the gun

Oh no they won’t know

Eyes as icy as my heart

Jagged sickles that slice into the pupil

So sharp and defined

They chip away at my barrier

And make me feel whole