I got really high tonight And chose to specifically take The time to view over my thoughts
Such a sad place: Full of wretched self judgemental opinions You aren’t good enough said me to me in the mirror You’ll never be loved and you’ll never be successful You’re only a time to time beneficial resource to the ones you thought cared about you Nobody will ever love you for you, you either give them what they want or they’re gone Everyone in your life will leave you eventually You’re such a disappointment You’re so ugly You're crazy She's prettier than you and has such a nice body You're not good enough and never will be Stop getting so attached nobody wants to stay Hate yourself Nobody would care if you disappeared Why’re you even here?
Although I occasionally think about this dark room in my head while sober I always fake it away and try not to think about it I never truly take the time to think about everything gives me sad and anxious feelings This is depressing I don’t wanna be in this dark room anymore
Caution!!! Bad vibes only
I try to exit this room but the doors are locked I CAN’T GET OUT I try to knock down the door With the little energy I have After this major dark attack I finally get to leave
Sober you knows everything will be okay I'm never going back there again Nap time…