After the day is done
And the sun goes down
Lay my heart on the ground
Arms spread wide reaching for you
Eyes closing against the orange glow

You will never know
All this pain
All this sacrifice
That I endure

Hands get raised
Grazing the ceiling
I start to pull it apart
Calling the devil's name
With a smirk saying let's play

You will never know
All this love
All this lust
That I give

Music playing inside
Humming the words
In my skull, I feel the words
Vibrating, causing an achiness
I do it again to feel this pain

You will never know
All this obsession
All this possession
That I control

You will never know
Feel the way I do



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Admire me
Or better take off
No more I wanted to see you
I did not know you had a bad mood

Look at me
Go around
In the darkness of the room
Against the current of the fan

Giving Circles Makes Me Marry
I almost want to throw up
But there is nothing inside

I give you
Pure pure blackmail
Pure pure shame
I want to see you suffer in my shadow

Pure pure teasing
Pure pure lies
And I see you in the corner
Wanting to win in life



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Every day is like an aircraft
Flying into my dreams
But then they fall apart
No aspirations to fuel them

Try to be happy

Is it like photographs
Stained and wrinkly
Memories that don't last
Yet they are lovely

What was that for?

Sounds like waterfalls
Yet not as soothing
Wish I could feel their mist
But then it'll melt me

Take Me Somewhere
Somewhere Nice
Nice place to die



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Within her eyes
I’m seeing more
A happy life
Family of four
Seeing beyond time
Caught in my feels
Always on my mind
But is it real
I like the concept
But not who you are
I have to accept
My visions being far

Springsteen sang about glory days
and I laughed
and swore that wouldn’t be me.
I looked around this small town
at these large fishes
and knew I’d find a bigger pond.

But here I am
holding up jerseys
reading newspaper clippings
looking at old pictures
corsages
valentine’s roses
yearbook autographs
picture day poses

and can’t stop talking about
glory days.

~
Un-lonely nights
Romantic moments
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away
The perfect dates
The sweetest kisses
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

song by Typecast..
~


I heard that song from the radio
I wrote down the lyrics, and sent to you
You just laughed at me
You threw away the letter,
Just like how you threw away our forever

Nights are now lonely
Romantic moments into daily fights
Dates, conversation, all coldly
No more random kisses at night

I asked you what and where did I lacked
You told me none, instead
You told me I was too much
I always knew that too much of everything
is not good, but what can I do?
That's how much I loved you

Will you throw it all away,
Will you throw it all away??
All we've been through
All my love for you,
All my love for you??

im a mess,
lying on my bathroom floor,
its cold
and its wet
but that fact i feel that at all
makes me stay where i am
the cold reminds me
of an hour before
but even then
i still couldn't get that off my mind
even if i were in my bed wrapped warm and whole
i would never forget
her hands in yours
pulling you down a winding path
in the other direction of the what i
thought was our home
your eyes shone with glee
raking her up and down
in that short red dress
despite the cold whipping wind
snapping at my cheeks
that were freshly streaked
with all the promises you made
all the soft touches you gave
all the long nights we shared
in what i thought was our bed
in what i thought was our home
in what i thought was true love
in our love
but i was wrong
and now
like the time before i met you
im a mess once more