I can’t find the words
For anything.
They don’t just flow out of my mouth,
All rhythmic and smooth like everyone else.
They come out all choppy,
Unintelligible,
Incomprehensible.
So that’s why I sealed my lips.
I closed my mouth and hid my voice.
Not one word will slip
Out.
Speechless.

i saw a friend from middle school tonight
he looked different, his pants were so tight and he talked different

i wish that i'd said hi
i wish that i'd hurdled over my pride
but we were both too afraid to say anything

and it was in that moment that i realized
that neither of us have changed since 9th grade year
it was an awkward silence that has followed us since our awkward stage as teenagers
(and now im 21)

I am not talking
To you, because you just don't
Know me anymore.