I don't know why I get so down and I
don't know why I keep getting
trapped
I don't know why I can't stay up and I
don't know why I can't stop thinking
of raising
a cup or a glass of something strong
enough to influence me
something to get me high or just
enough to quit the suppressing
choking me back with these thoughts
I can't get rid of
it doesn't take much these days
to get me
down, down, down
lately all I know is my head just spins a-
round, round, round
nothing much to focus on to keep me
from drowning
I don't know what I'm doing but clearly
I'm frowning

when I'm broken
I like hiding in the dark shadows
but then again
*so do you

I've become so numb
to it all
to everyone and everything
around me.

The fear of walking
over a buzzing city street,
has been replaced
by pure thrill.

Life knocks you,
runs you over,
catches you
unexpectantly.

My biggest fear of
hights.
Falling from miles above,
seems so dull
to the numbness
in me.

Grey clouds,
thunder,
scattered raindrops,
resembles all
I have to offer.

Far beyond my mourning period
and deep inside
this hole.

The loud bangs,
the thoughts deafening.

Grey clouds,
thunder,
scattered drops,
resembles
what i have to offer.

Nothing but numb...
That's all i am.

The screams now shout louder than ever in the silence of my unspoken words, but just like me, they go unnoticed.