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Jun 2021 · 191
Sinasabi Ko
Amelia Jun 2021
Sobrang hirap simulan
Kay dali naman iwanan
Nasaan ba ang bakit
Hahanapin saglit

Sinasabi ko
Hindi ako tatayo,
Hanggat 'di ko 'to natatapos
Kaya ko na to
Jun 2021 · 151
Miserable
Amelia Jun 2021
I’m the Tardy one
I was often even called Miss T.
Things could’ve been better
If I wake up earlier
Maybe they’d talk to me over breakfast
And know me
Maybe I would learn how to take my time
And not decide to quit
Every time I think I ran out of time.
found in my drafts dated sept 2020
Jun 2021 · 426
SELF BLAME
Amelia Jun 2021
Is this love?
I want to prove myself to you.
Am I confused?
I wouldn't care believe me, it is love.
I just wasn't as naive.
You did not love me as much.
Now I'm confused all over again.
Was it love?
Did you have to prove yourself to me?
I am confused.
Tell me what this is.
Let's not make it complicated and tell me.
Where did I go wrong?
Do soulmates exist?
Can you unlove a person?
Am I not enough?
Answer me.
Just tell me.
I could fix things.
Answer me.
Just tell me.
Was I not worth it, anymore?
Maybe if I..
Jun 2021 · 231
When Did It All Began?
Amelia Jun 2021
I wish I pretended I dozed off and didn't hear a thing
Those three words wasn't meant to be acknowledged
I wish I waited
Even just for a little while
Keeping it all to myself
When would you have said it?

I wish I didn't knew you had a crush on me.
Would I like you before your supposed confession?
I wish I waited
Even just for a little while
Let those feelings naturally flourish
What would you have done about it?
I wish I did not greet you with a joke about your tattered jeans
The first time we met, a story about my parents made you laugh.
I waited.
For a little too while
They would have liked you.
It started here.
Jun 2021 · 309
Maybe Acceptance
Amelia Jun 2021
I feel better
But why do I always find myself crying in the afternoon
Everything is connected with you.

I think clearer
But why do I keep on digging dip on our past conversations
We had real connection, unattached.

Oh. I miss 'missing you'.
When did I became so attached, wanting to hear your voice, see you smile, and feel your warmth.
I am no longer familiar with your scent, your taste.

I am afraid of the gap.
That we are finally moving on.
That I seem great but I am not doing well at all.
I am a fraud and can barely handle myself whenever I hear our song.
Jun 2021 · 220
Unrealistic Truth
Amelia Jun 2021
I found my truth
What a hard pill to swallow
That I made the right decision
Wait, am I relieved?

No? Not yet?
This isn't it.
Prove me wrong.
Just this once.

Prove me wrong
Because I hate being right
Prove me wrong
Will you?
Feb 2021 · 158
Today
Amelia Feb 2021
I give up
Took a step back
Let things happen
Maybe it'll lead me to something.

I opened my heart
Thoughts pass through
Like an old river
No rush, we'll get there.
Feb 2021 · 2.4k
Polaris
Amelia Feb 2021
As you told me I figured you could be my guide
I put my guard down as you take me
This is somewhere too far
And yet you have made sure
That you could leave me, anytime
I didn’t see that coming but of course
I have to find my way on my own
Just to realize you took me where I once were
Am I really kind and selfless?
You reminded me my old pains and angst
And still made me feel like I’m worthy
Most of all, I admired what I saw
I can’t help but to think of my endless possibilities

Thank you,
But are you still there?
Almost unreal,
What was that?
Whoosh,
Where are you?
A wind,
A whale song?
My, my, my mind is all over
I can’t stop thinking of getting better
But I also can’t stop thinking of getting better with you
Inspired by Polaris by December Avenue
Feb 2021 · 633
Kumusta?
Amelia Feb 2021
Kumusta?
Kukumustahin pa ba?
Hihintayin ka ba?
Meron pa ba?
Nasa akin ba?

Respeto.
Sa gagawing mga desisiyon
Sa bawat saya at lungkot
Sa lahat ng sumulpot
Sa ikabubuti o ikalulugmok

Hahayaan kita!
Maghilom ang mga sugat
Mapagod kakukwento’t kakahalungkat
Maghanap ng ikaliligayang tapat
Matagpuan ang sarili, maging sapat

Maaaring
Magkatagpung muli bilang magkaibigan
Magbalik sa dating nadaramang handa naman
Maging estranghero’t magkalimutan
Sa malayo masubaybayan.

Ako’y nandirito;
Sa dinami rami ng pwedeng mangyari
Dumaan man sa lubos na pighati
Alalahanin **** mabuti
Pag-isipan **** maigi

Kaya ko na..
Tanggapin, panindigan
Patawarin, kamtan
Harapin, sundan
Hanapin, malaman
Chop suey mind all the way
Nov 2020 · 177
Away from me
Amelia Nov 2020
I am right all along
They needed that break
I can't be wrong
I need hugs not cries, compassion not lies.
Sep 2020 · 247
Miserable
Amelia Sep 2020
Whenever I got hurt it goes deeply linked with my past wounds.
Though I wasn’t scared to feel all of those at the same time,
I’m always scared I’ll hurt you every time.
I’m sorry I didn’t know how to accept and give love,
I’m sorry for all I know is how to be miserable.
Mar 2020 · 165
This Morning
Amelia Mar 2020
‪I made cold  coffee
I am made of cold coffee
I hate cold coffee‬s
Mar 2020 · 148
Hi
Amelia Mar 2020
Hi
You still have a chance for love
It was really beautiful
and you know that
To be fair,
you made me feel
I'm capable of love.
'Carry on. m
Nov 2019 · 538
Let Me Go
Amelia Nov 2019
The funny thing is..

I used to love sadness. The comfort it brought me, it was so convenient that I got addicted by it.

Like to you, dear.

No, I know.

You are my sadness but I’m free,

Or will be free.
If sadness would just free me.
Sep 2019 · 229
Inception
Amelia Sep 2019
I am way too close and almost done,
I thought I could start anew.
How did I not shun,
When I saw that too.
2017
Nov 2018 · 288
Pain that Lies Just Beneath
Amelia Nov 2018
I hope you won’t experience that
pain that reminds you of more pain
how it stretches through your arms,
through your palm
how it reaches the tip of your fingertips,
the el of your elbow
and you would believe for a moment
‪that is why people have done it.
You could only hope
you can just shake it off easily.
You’d think then,
maybe people hoped too.
I did but it was only a glimpse.
I’m still lucky. I am grateful‬

This is a part two. This isn’t as dark as it seem, as the first.
Oct 2018 · 575
500 Days After
Amelia Oct 2018
It all ends
and i thought I was Summer
when finally I met my Autumn.
I thought I was numb, I had emotions all along. Oo, yung movie nga.

— The End —