blindly driving
powered by fear
swerving all over
never learned how to steer
you might want to watch out
cause i won't spill my beer
i'll just run you right over
you'll be struck like a deer

Sometimes there is an overwhelming sadness
That I just can't shake
Slowly brewing into madness
Until there's no more I can take
Without having some part of me break
And I don't know where this sadness comes from ...
Perhaps it is made up of the remnants
Of all the lives I never got to live
Or all the love I never got to give..
Perhaps it is made up of all of my honest trys
For every time I took to the sky
Only to fall instead of fly..
Perhaps it is made up of all the unheard souls
Who are homeless, helpless, hungry & cold
Like floodgates built outta ignorant hate
That holds back oceans of tears
From the lives that nobody ever hears
Sometimes it's hard to tune out all the sorrow
I just hold onto hope & wait for tomorrow

you're my sunshine, my sweetness, my savior.
you're my favorite sound & my favorite flavor.
you are my resurrection place.
i am born again, at the sight of you face.

and there i was

falling

falling

falling

and there you were

a sea of love

ready to catch me

i fall into you

and we become one

fear is a distant memory

creation spikes the sea

we swim in bliss

in flow

in love

please set me free.
where I can just be.
my spirit must flee.
I need harmony.
I need unity.
I need you and me.
**** this society.
It is depriving me.
I am surviving see,
But that's not being free.

I am
a ******
passionate
being of sensuality
step out of your skin
and into my reality
I will lure you in
and make you my casualty
I will love you so good
you will question morality

eyes meeting
hearts beating
minds racing
fingers tracing
hands clutching
flesh touching
lips locking
bodies rocking
sweat dripping
clothes slipping
time urging
souls merging

he wrapped himself around her hips,
he spoke into her waiting lips,
i don't know how you came to exist,
to be such a gem in a world like this.

dance me into the light of your ruby heart.

for i've never been painted a more beautiful shade of love.

i’ve gone blind to any sight but yours. 

never felt so blissfully undone.

Celestial blossom of feminine beauty,
Make love to me like it's your god given duty.

my heart's an oasis
my veins, rivers
flowing my love
to my brain
where it drains
out of my mouth
and you breathe it in
in quenches your thirst
to find love
to taste divinity
to feel infinity
how does it taste?
like adrenaline and blood

you are now the poetry
that spills from my pen
you are now the flame
burning from within
you are now the sparkle
dancing in my eyes
you are now the thoughts
floating through my mind
and i want you close to me
i wanna see what we could be
i want to see your every side
i wanna see inside your mind
i wanna be your special flower
the flower of your every hour
and i hope that takes to heart
cause we could be a work of art

see more.
breathe more.
take a leave more.
read more.
write more.
drop the strife more.
sing more.
dance more.
take a chance more.
do more.
play more.
seize the day more.
say more.
hear more.
hold someone near more.
love more.
give more.
cause we all gotta live more.

sometimes i worry that the war will never end
sometimes i worry that blood will always be shed

sometimes i worry that children will die
sometimes i worry that humanity cries

sometimes i worry that he will never think he's good enough
sometimes i worry that she will never hear she's beautiful

sometimes i worry for my future son & daughter
sometimes i worry we will run out of water

sometimes i worry that we won't wake up in time
sometimes i worry that we've all lost our minds

do you ever worry about these things in your head?
when you can't get to sleep, and your laying in bed.
i do all the time, it's hard to ignore,
all the pain and the lies and the hate in the world.
it's madness out there..
but i have faith that the divine human spirit will pull through.
i have faith in me & i have faith in you.
all i really want is to love you, wont you let me in?
i know you wanna love me too, and let healing begin.
let's clean the slate, erase all hate, re-write our fate, before it's too late.
to everyone you meet do nice things & enjoy the little joys life brings.

there will be someone
at some point
who's brought into your life
and in an instant
everything changes
there will be no time to think
to process or understand
the only thing you will know
is how you feel
and how you feel
will be fucken great
dangerously great
the kinda great that really hurts
when it's not there anymore
the kind great you would climb mountains for
just to see their breath-taking view
and the moment before you meet
everything will be whirl-winding
but once they're there
everything will fall into place
you will feel an irreplaceable feeling
of peace and tranquility
of being found
not knowing you were even lost
until the moment that they saw you
of being home
not knowing you had ever left
until the moment that you saw them
& it may happen outta no where
but there will be no denying it when it does
this person will take you the places you've never been
tell you all the things you wished to hear
know exactly what to do
to squash your doubts or fears
they will attract you
as if there were magnets
in both of your souls
that only attract to each other
and nobody els could see
or a language for our hearts
that nobody els could speak
whatever it may be
once you know they exist
your life as you know it
will cease to exist
suddenly, the only life you will see
is a life with them in it
and anytime their love is lacking
so will your life be
and it will be the worst and best thing
that you will ever come to know or feel
but knowing that something like that can exists
is what makes living so exciting & real

you knew that the heart
in this anxious chest
was made of glass
protected by a rib cage
that was made of twigs & sticks
but you still threw rocks at it
and now you are
the stained & shattered pieces
that was once my beating heart
and i hold on to you
even though you cut right through
even though i'm drowning
in my own blood
the blood of a **** fool
choking on my own tears
suffocated by my worst fears
& all i can taste is regret
and hate
and regret
and pain
and regret
it's all so bitter on my tounge
that is now crowded in my mouth
because i still haven't been able to swallow
the last words you yelled out
before you took your leave
that this wasn't meant to be
that i'm not what you need
i just can't choke them down
because a moment ago
i was your everything
i was the songs you sing
the one to wear your ring
and now you're telling me
that this pain i feel
isn't something that's real
that this heart break
that's making my head ache
was what was ment to be
was our real destiny
but how the **** can that be
somehow i gotta stop this pain
blackout these memories
cause they're all that remains
i gotta pick up the pieces
and get out my glue
put my heart back together
and get the hell over you

stay with me
I need your love
I'll wilt and die
without your touch
stay with me
I need your strength
without you near
my heart just aches
stay with me
I need your drive
the one that makes
me come alive
stay with me
I need your heat
without your heart
I'll be off beat
stay with me
I need your moves
no one will get me
like you do
stay with me
I need your cheer
been gone for days
but it feels like years..

your eyes,
like the earth.
seeing me,
grounding me.
your lips,
make me yearn.
tasting me,
hastily.
your hands,
like a potter.
spinning me,
shaping me.
your body,
makes me hotter.
electrifying,
energy.
your soul,
like gold.
engaging me,
and changing me.
my heart,
you hold.
readily,
and steadily.

Sublime

there is not enough time
in this fleeting life of mine
to just sit and unwind
and empty my mind

there is not enough time
in this flirting life of mine
to do all the things i find
to try all the different kinds

to speed up
to slow down
to get lost
to be found
there's just not enough time
to enjoy the sublime

when you walk into the room,
my heat skips a beat.
your the only person i can see,
and the only reason i'm there.
when our eyes meet,
every part of me tingles.
your eyes shine so bright..
your the most beautiful thing,
that iv'e ever seen.
your fancy clothes,
make me anxious to hold you,
and anxious to get you alone.
you light up the room with your smile.
& in that moment i know,
that i'm the luckiest person in the world.
you wave to me,
and i just stare.
you find your way to me,
past all the faces.
i wrap my arms around you,
and feel your warmth,
i could spend the rest of my life here.
you tell me you love me,
and i feel it.
i ask you to leave,
and you take my hand.
i would follow you,
into the darkest of places.
but you take me to a clearing instead.
we lay down,
our faces pointed towards the sky.
sparks flying,
further then we can see.
i rest my head on you,
and hear your heartbeat.
if i could only find the words..
you kiss me,
your undeniable.
you feel so right it hurts.
& i don't know why,
it took so long
for me to realize.
that i had unmistakably fallen...
for you.

everything you do, is perfect just like you.
i wanna make you swoon.
and fly you to the moon.
and dance you in it's light,
we can make out the whole night.
and it can try with all it's might,
but it will never be as bright,
as you my dear, in all your grace.
you'd shame the sun right in it's place.

why do you insist on breaking my heart...
i've been there for you, right from the start.
i did what i thought was best for you,
and this what you wanna put me through?
i changed alot, to be who you need.
but you had no interest in changing for me.
i tried so hard to give you my best.
but it wasn't enough, you put me to the test.
my love is something i don't wanna hide,
but you always made me keep it inside.
and all i wanted was to scream to the world,
that you were my guy, and i was your girl.
but i was made to feel like i was a shame,
and after a while, it felt like a game.
it felt like a game that i was loosing,
and through it all, my heart was bruising.
and when i asked for a little more,
you directed me towards the door.
so eventually i had to break,
cause there's only so much i can take.
and what els is there left for a girl to think,
except inevitably, we were going to sink.
and now your making me feel like ****,
well **** that noise, i'm done with this.

lay with me,
rest your bones.
here you are loved,
here you are home.
smells like peace,
tastes like fire.
feel the heat,
of sweet desire.
here hearts race,
and time goes slow.
sparks fly high,
and bodies flow.
locked eyes,
squeezed thighs,
we feels so high.
we're young,
and crazy,
and so alive.

all i can do
is do my best
and try my hardest
through all these tests

my mind is a game of Tetris
and i just can't seem to fit the pieces
in the appropriate manner
it builds higher and higher
a traffic jam of thoughts
stumbling to find their places
all actors on set
all hands on deck
ready or not, here life comes.

let's clean the slate
we'll sleep in late
& learn how to appreciate
every inch of our skin
every moment we're in
we'll teach each other how to sin.
we stayed in together
despite nice weather
& by the night,
our bodies were tethered.

i'm so lucky that you are alive
& laying by my side
if there's one thing that i hope
it's that you'll always be near by.

we are energy, life, form, art,
dancing in space.
waiting to be found,
to be seen,
to be heard,
to be felt,
to be loved.
waiting for ignition,
for the recognition,
between souls.
waiting for the spark
that births the flame of love.
that warms and glows
to soothe these aching bones,
for the dance of life
i move alone.
waiting for the sun
that calms my hearts storm,
for the angelic voice
that surrenders my minds war.
unconsciously,
i'm drawn to thee,
waiting for that moment of freeing,
to cut these fear sewn ties
that blind my eyes from beauty.
you are the blood that courses true,
that flows in me
and leads to you.
waiting to bask in your glory light,
to be captivated by your sight.
oh what a timeless woe,
will we ever come to know,
to feel,
to move,
to show,
the lovers dance,
to be in lovers trance,
i pray that this is so.

with eyes that look to be seen..
& lips that speak to be silenced..

i am the one stole your heart,
and i am the one who sets you apart.
i am the one who brought you the light,
the breath in your lungs, that fills you with life.

There's a hole in my heart
You know, the one you left there..
And it's eating anything that gets close
It devours, it grows
& eventually, it'll eat us whole

There's a hole in my heart
That you helped me carve
And it's at war with my soul
Over possession of my body
It wants to take me,
& take me alive.

There's a hole in my heart
That was once filled with fairy tales endings and recklessly constructed dreams
That's a reminder to me
That nothing is as it seems
And real life is filled with villains
And my only hope for a hero, is me.

one day your gonna look at someone
and in one beautifully
breathtaking moment
all the other painful moments
moments of confusion
of heart break
of destruction
and unraveling
with everyone els
will suddenly make sense
will suddenly have reason
and you won't even see it coming
all those moments of defeat
and despair
were preparing you
were leading you
towards this day
and this face
staring back at me
like i'm the sun
because i'm the one
& all those moments
were just prolonging
the inevitable moment
where you i
finally collide
and lock eyes
and realize
that everyone els
was just a lesson
a detour
a stepping stone
to a real home
to a real adventure
to a real love
where we can live
in our prime light
bathed in lime light
as ever-changing
enigmas of love
and passion
and exploration
no fear is found
no judgments sound
it's just you and i
& the answers to life
living like gods
& loving unconditionally
with effortless simplicity
wrapped up in fate's mystery

i need to taste her lips
i need to feel her kiss
cause that feelin that i get
when we cross sights
or brush skins
is enough to make me
forget where i am
and all i can see is her
so sultry and seductive
& if only she knew
the amount of times
i've undressed her with my mind
i fantasize
of her flesh against mine
& i would treat her right
cause i know what she likes
and where to touch
and how to love
i know of her pain
i know of her darkness
yet still i have never been more inclined
to stay out all night
where her face is like the glowing moon
& it makes me swoon
& i'm probably doomed
but that's alright,
cause i still have you.

i never dream
or at least i never remember
but lately
i can't stop dreaming of you
your like a ghost in my head
haunting my dreams
i don't wanna wake up
because when i close my eyes
we are together
we are making love
we are making laughter
we are making dreams
but then i wake up
and you fly back to your reality
and i am left waking in the cold lonely truth
that is my own reality
a reality without you
a life where our eyes never meet
where our lips never press
where our bodies never touch
how can i go on living
without feeling every inch of you first
how can i go on knowing
nobody's there for you at your worst
i should be that somebody

how can you crave something so badly
that's never even touched your tongue..
your an inextinguishable addiction
a hopeless love affliction
and i wont stop wanting you
until every part of you
has met every part of me
if i must move land and sea
together we will be

to the lost & tortured souls
the misunderstood
the brilliant
the creative
the brave
the lost
the drunk
the passionate
the bukowski's
the keruacs's
the rumi's
the hopeless
the romantics
the artists
the poets
the music makers
the wanderers
the fighters
the feelers
you are the ones
living life through the expression of art
you are the ones
keeping the fire of human experience alive
so keep you eyes to the sky
and your feet to the earth
your heart on your sleeve
& don't forget what you're worth

with feelings so strong & unexplainable,
it's hard for me to put them to words,
and even harder for me to share them with you..

i fear the effects they may have,
the hearts they may take,
the lives they could make or break…

i don't understand why anything happens the way that it does,
or how & why we fall in and out of love,
or crave the things we don't have,
or why are we so clueless to are reason for being here…

it's tiring being in two places at once.
inside two hearts.
its painful.

there's always that someone.
that your heart speeds for,
since the first time you saw them.
there's just something in their smile,
that makes you wanna go that extra mile.
there's just something in their eyes,
that makes you feel bubbly & alive.
that makes you wanna take care of them forever.
that makes you powerless to their sultry ways.
this is the someone who will make you.
this is the someone who will break you.
and we can't control this destiny,
it's unrestricted chemistry.
as it fiercely lights our hearts,
and a romance starts to spark.

there's something in you
behind your eyes
pleading & needing me to stay
to take your pain away
to distract from all you hate
to show you a different way

& there's something in me
behind my eyes
that wants to be,
that needs to be,
your sweet relief, your remedy
the everything that you so need

my head
my heart
my head
my heart
I just don't know
where to start
or which is which
or what is what
all I know is
I've had enough
which is louder
which hurts more
where's the order
I feel absurd
where do I start
where do I end
what do I save
and what do I send
these feelings
these thoughts
are all that I got
and the love that I have
can't be stolen or bought
I don't know down from up
but make living look good
and I don't always say
the things that I should
but if you were to get
under my skin
you would see every scar
you would hear every sin
and now you might be confused
at what this poem is about
I don't think there's a subject
and a meaning, I doubt
cause my mind is in warfare
And it's fighting itself
my words are all tangled
and my heart hurts like hell
I'm trying to make sense
but is quite hard to tell
I feel so mixed up
I need some direction
I'm trying to figure out
all of my lessons
in all of this drama
and all of this sadness
before I give up
and am swallowed by madness

I'm writing down the words
I'm too afraid to say
I need to get them my off my chest
I can't live another day
Pursuing you submissively
Romancing you with poetry
It's killing me, you're killing me
But this you won't be like the rest you see
I'm tired of always rushing it
It comes on fast & I run with it
But it doesn't last & i'm done with it
I've learned from my past
I'm not wasting this
But I still should tell you how I feel
I think we might have a chance at something real
My spirit feels ignited
I'm following your lead
Adventures could await us
If we both can take the leap

i want a love that is pure & raw
i want a passion that is unattached & wild
i want a loyalty that is truthful & undoubted
i want a connection that is founded in friendship but retires in love
i want a partner that i can become a master of the universe with
and we will live above all the lies
and the jealous
and the vindictiveness
of modern relationships
we will live and love like the gods we were born to be
i want a life of romance and travel
of creation and expression
of being unraveled
and naked and bare
and be taken in
in all of my everythingness
& in all of my nothingness
without question or hesitation
just compassion sparked elation
i want to live in innocence by sun light
and in sin by star light
i want a love that's big enough to save the world
but not so big that i can't save myself
a love too deep to even fathom or understand or relay by words
but one that would never drown you
in need, attachment, obsession, or sacrifice
i want something i fear will never truly be
as more then just a figment of all my fantasies
i will wait and wander and meet all i can meet
and until i find the one i want, i'll be the one for me.

what do you do,
when you've done all you can,
when you lend every hand,
till you barley can stand.
till your blue in the face,
and your down on your knees,
your heart'a lost the race,
and it's starting to plea.
I am loosing myself,
to everything I am not.
I tried to do well,
gave them all that I got.
now I'm spent and I'm dry,
wet regret fills my eyes.
shaken down to the bone,
and my hearts turned to stone.

we are the sinners & the saints.
we are the canvas & the paint.
we are the chaos & the calm.
we are the dusk & the dawn.

we are the truth & the lies.
we are the earth & the sky.
we are the leap & the fall.
we are the answer & the call.

we are the free, & the chained.
we are the crazy & the sane.
we are the living & the dead.
we are the hungry & the fed.

we are the shy & the daring.
we are the cruel, & the caring.
we are the simple & the complex.
we are the blessed, & the hexed.

we are the wrong, & the right.
we are the dark & the light.
we are the lost & the found.
we are colour, we are sound.

and i hope that you can see,
that you are EVERYTHING to me.
that i am you and you are me
& all we're meant to do is BE.
so let us be, forever free
& we can dream our destiny

take my word, my hand, my heart.
no matter the distance, we're never apart.
and when we face the pain & chaos.
love will guide us, truth will save us.

we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
and it's so hard to tell
if this is heaven or hell
if i am weaker or stronger
if time is shorter or longer
with every choice that I make
the choice then will make me
am i chained or am i free
do i live for you
or do i live for me

and you clung to me
the way wet jeans
stick to my legs
in hard rain
and we may have well been soaked
because that night
you cried enough tears
to flood this whole town
you cried enough tears
to drowned us both
it's a good thing we float
your heart was a storm
beautiful
mysterious
unpredictable
misunderstood
and let's not forget
potentially destructive
but i didn't care
i wanted to understand
to feel
to devour
every drop of your pain
every ounce of your shame
i wanted to show you
the sun inside you
i wanted to show you
the new day
that's waiting
behind your leaky eyes
and runny nose
and broken soul
but for now
you can cling to me
release you agonies
and i will never
let you think
that you are anything less
then gold
and i will never make you feel
that you are anything less
then whole
and i will never
let you sink
so hold me tight
and don't let go

what is love
baby don't hurt me
or try to convert me
into something i'm not

what is love
baby don't hurt me
please don't desert me
your all that i've got

i want to watch you dance
the dance of life
& the dance of love
i want my words
to move you
to places you've never been to before
right out of your comfort zone
and into the depths of your heart
i want every line
to kiss your cheeks
to brush you hair
to take your breath
to swoon your soul

i want to write of your radiance
dance in your divinity
and hold you till infinity
i want to undress your body
your mind
& your soul
until you are naked and cold
and then i wanna wrap you up in me
in all my warmth
in all my love
and create a hurricane of heat
so passionate
it makes the walls tremble
it makes our lips
and our hips
and our legs
tremble
in untamable desire & lust

i want to fill you with feelings & thoughts
of pure ecstasy
i want to keep you from sleep
to make love to you breathlessly
my body's a temple
where i worship you blessedly
to service your beauty
is my passion fueled destiny

when I write love poetry
I imagine a beautiful woman
sitting at a table
across a scattered bunch of souls
at a random diner
in a random place
reading a book
I see her
and I am immobilized
by the sudden rush of blood
and the sudden feeling of longing
and with every page she turns
both grow stronger inside me
she's the kinda woman
who's soul shines
right through her skin
with a loud silence
who unintentionally captivates
with her grace of an angel
then she looks at me
and smiles
oh **** how she smiles
and all I can think to do is write
write of the way
she makes me forget my past
and my pain
because they are out felt
by the feeling
that everything was leading me
to this woman
and that smile
write of the way
I am feeling right now
like a meteor of cosmic beauty
just shot from the sky
down into the seat
that's in front of me
write of the way
I can see every moment together
that lies before us
all the laughter
the touching
the passion
the love
the entire rest of my life with her
is in this pen
the all and every effect
of her in-conceived beauty
every feeling she inspires
every thought she lures
is in this pen
and I could sit until dawn
and just write all of it out
in pages and books
stained with tears
and sweat
and love
all for her to read
in hopes that it will ignite
the same feeling
of fire in her heart
the same feeling
of pins under her skin
the same taste of love on her tongue
that I feel when I look at her
that I capture when I write my poetry ...

and maybe one day
my words will come to life
my poetry will breathe
and I won't need to imagine a beauty
I have not yet found to exists
and my words will stand before me
in all of their guts and glory
and that will be all she wrote
or maybe one day
I will have to become that beauty myself
only time can really tell
will I manifest my imaginations
or will the creator become the creation

listening to the pixies on repeat
where is my mind
where is my mind

can't shake the feeling of defeat
where is my mind
where is my mind

my emotions are slowly eating me
where is my mind
where is my mind

a heartbreak felt for infinity
where is my mind
where is my....

people have been scaring and wearing me out.
doesn't anyone hear the cries & the shouts?
seems like nobody has anymore room for compassion,
no remorse, no guilt, just hate filled passion.
you've all put your heart up on a shelf,
you can't even produce any love for yourself.
but mines still here, and oh how it aches.
at the lack of kindness that has now taken place.
but you know what, this is just me..
and this is how I chose to be.
trying so hard to take care of all els,
in a world where it's every man for them self.
but it's a burden that I choose to bare,
cause you know.. someones gotta care.

who's the one who craves my touch..
who needs my loving oh so much.
who's the one the meant for me..
who'll eat my pain and set me free.
who's the now who needs me close..
who takes the time, who makes the most,
of everything that we could ever be.

And his one & only home
Has always been the unknown
He is destined to roam
And he does so alone
He's a wanderlust
In nature he trusts
He knows of the dangers
But keep trying he must
He's directionless
His affection missed
But in the wild
Is where he finds bliss