there are two types of sadness

there’s the kind of sadness
we ignore and
try to get rid of it
by finding new things to do
or we find someone to talk to
by blatantly avoiding any type of conversation
about feeling sad
about having any feelings at all
and then there’s that kind of sadness
that takes over
and it consumes any activity we do
we know it’s there
and there’s no possible way to avoid it
so we feed it exactly what it wants
it craves the sad music
it craves the isolation
it craves the anxiousness
and the sadness comes storming in
it has no manners
here we are calling sadness, an “it”
when all it is
is a feeling
that most people
call home

Loving You,
It came in waves,
Losing You,
I've drowned so fast.

you with the smile that no
longer makes me smile.

you with the voice that no
longer brightens my day.

you with the laugh that no
longer makes me laugh.

you with your good morning texts that no
longer make my morning the best.

you with your smell of your
moms drinking and your
dog that no longer
intoxicates me.

you who changed, and is
never coming back.

I'm a hopeless romantic.
Trapped in my own mind.
Wanting romance,
Listening to music,
Reading web comics,
Wanting to feel the sensation,
Of romance.
And?
What do I get in return?
Sadness from within,
Seeing others happy,
With what I want.
It truly is a want,
Not a need,
For romance.
But I guess we'll have to see,
If I truly am destined for romance.

In this pandemic
I will wait in agony
In feigned resilience
Until I touch your body
Dear daughter of dreams
Color of my existence
Before I collapse
And drown in wasteful daydreams
May you be my real
Not pixels but a warm face
Not boredom but love's embrace

“Falling in love” is a contradiction in itself, because in love there is only the rising, the ascending, not the falling.
You can not fall in love, but rather, rise.

I love you, I hate you
I love you, I hate you
I want you, I need you
You're my joy
My misery when you step away
I experience all kind of emotions with you
A rollercoaster, a thriller
My Ying
Oh yes my Yang
You compliment me
No doubt you complete me
With you am whole

They walked together,
as friends who were once lovers.
“I don’t want to lose you,
to someone else” she said.

he didn’t know what to say,
he was confused.

he wanted to say things,
but he couldn’t.

he knew she would never
have to face such fears.
because he’d made promises.
she could never lose him,
because he didn’t want to lose her

his eyes will always be drawn to her,
his smile will always follow hers,
she will always be in his mind.

and his heart would always belong to her.