i'm tired
i'm getting older
i'm getting weaker
*everyday.

i've been through
the toughest
the darkest
times of my lives

i saw myself
putting blades on my wrist
medicating myself with pills
inhaling and exhaling those cigarettes
to **** my soul
slowly, bit by bit

but i didn't stop standing up for myself
ever since day one
i tried again and again
no matter how much i fall

never thought that
i'm still here
living healthily
happily.
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*my story, my battle scars

love make me blind
so i couldn't see
all the lies you told
were right in front of me

since love make me blind
you make a fool of me
you make it look so perfect
when it wasn't meant to be

*your love made me blind

you played me
like a game
not just any kind of game
but
with my feelings

i saw you
slowly distancing yourself from me
little do i know that
you've another outside
when half of your heart
is still with me
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.
oh just look
how stupid can i be?

they say that love is forever
your forever is all that i need
please stay
as long as you need
can't promise that things won't broken
but i swear that i'll never leave
please stay
forever with me

i guess without you
i wouldn't be who i am today
i wouldn't be any happier

or even look forward to tomorrow
or even to make each day a count

i guess without you
i wouldn't know that
life is so much worthy to live for
and how beautiful it is

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*gtjz, thank you for adding colours to my life and make it so beautiful that i can ever imagine.

i see
the way you pressed your lips against mine
as you stroke my hair

with you
laying beside me
skin to skin
as your hands roam around my body

looking at me from eyes to eyes
as you whisper i love you
through my ears

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*i realised it wasn't lust, it was love, and the feeling was so strong. it's unstoppable. never thought that i'll feel so loved and respected by my man. to have him, it's a blessing when he accepts you for who you really are.

i was the ocean
he was my moon
pulling me in
with such a gravity
making great waves
that churned
into the storms
and tsunam-is

be like a diamond,
precious and rare
not like a stone,
found everywhere
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*you're just like a diamond. so precious yet so hard and rare to find. so precious till a point that i want to keep you forever and never ever wanted to lose you.
gtjz, i love you so much.

she was lost,
along the dark alley
she saw light
yet,
it continues to drift upon her
as she chased for it
little do she know that,
everything begins to get so exhausted
she could barely breathe

she was lost
lost under the dark
filled with nothing
but sorrows

i'm sorry
i couldn't be what you want me to be
i'm sorry
i failed to be what you want me to be
i'm sorry
little do i know that
i could never ever change for the better
for you to love me
the same way you loved me back then

i love
the way you hold me
like you don't want to lose me

the way you look me in the eyes
telling me how much you love me

the way we lock our lips together
as our heart beats as one

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i hope this will not only happen only for now
but forever and, always.

i tried
to be better
but it's never enough

i tried
to be capable
neither was i feeling enough

i tried
all for you
but all you do was to
leave my side
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i'm sorry
i can never be enough for you, love.

with you,
i'm always myself
whether if i'm stubborn
whether if i'm showing my stupid acts

you accepted my flaws,
for who i am
without any doubts

with you,
i know,
you'll always be there
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*gtjz, thank you.