It was much better staring at the ceiling
Living life was better without feeling
Lying with her
Life was a blur
I never thought I'd die
It was too hard to say goodbye

We lived in New York
All the wine was uncorked
Your dress may have been red
You are I were secretly wed
And all this must have led
To how I ended up dead

I was nothing but a con man
But she stole my heart again
Now I'm conning my life
For just one more night
They all say I'm dying
But at least I'm trying

She won't tell me where it was
She can't feel my love buzz
She'll pull the plug now
She'll go hang with a new crowd

Lets just set this entire world on fire
And burn away all my desire
My dreams turn to smoke an hope turns into ash
I hear the buildings beginning to crash
The structures have started to fall
The shadows begin to call
The flames burn so bright
The smoke blacks out the light
But this is only the start
My heart is being torn apart
Are you truly alone
This pain will cut you down to the bone
These flames burn hot
I know this happens a lot
But this pain seems impossible to extinguish
The fire never seems to banish
The air is infected with smoke
The smell of lost hope
Ash lays all over the ground
Love is nowhere  be found
Shadows surround me now
But I cant allow
myself to break down
Now lets watch fire light up this town
So breath in the smoke
and begin to choke
You start to fear
that your end is near
But this is just the start
My heart is being torn apart
Are you truly alone
This pain will cut you down to the bone
Death is all around
I wish you could keep me safe and sound
Tears and flames
It all ended the same
I thought I could conquer the world in your arms
But instead it only caused more harm
The fire burns it away
So maybe someday ill be okay

I can see you right now
Wondering how
We got like this
Can we even speak of it?

I know you say this is loud
And how you are so proud
Of what you have done
The battle you won

Reign over the puppy
Like rain over a puppy
I may get a bit fussy
And I may be a bit rusty

It's that time of year
Right after the buckets of cheer
Resolutions to lose waste
After you just stuffed your face
And then you'll shed a tear
Cause you can't finish a race

Oh I know, this year I want good luck
Why don't you stop for a good ****
Get you out of this conservatism
And in to anarchism
Get out of this rut and muck
It's like politics in a monarchism

Oh this year I'll be different
No this year you end with repent
Just like the last
Stuck in the past
You could be a parent
Or end up being chaste

Oh I want to focus on relationship
Congrats, you got kissed on the lip
At midnight
Let's set sight
Don't throw a fit
Let's hang tight

There is no "new year new you"

You can change
Just don't rely on your calendar
to do it for you