Here, the universe
If you gotta fixture to same need
Lays on different intentions
What it is? you universe
Not to tell that it is a disaster
Universe you only know
Beginning and the end
Having cleverly trapped us
All in between.

Today I am a single atom
Like most the other of unsounded life
All around us - look happy

When I see the filtered sunlight
In the dawn coming through the cloud
I feel the life and the hope
For a new beginning

What I see as life and what I live
As life, surly not the samething
Like the sun getting exuberant
As it climb right above to your head
My very own life burn it self
And make both my life and the skin
Dark

When I see the moonlight
Mild and soothing beams of it
I look upward and say to the moon
How the day light tortured my mind

Moon - She knows all my dark secrets
To my prayers she only say one thing

" Darling you are the sun,
       you are my light, even though you didn't know
  Darling you are not bad, you are power
       of the life, yours and all the others "

Today I am an atom
I don't understand what she says
But I am stubborn
I want to believe, And I will keep believe
What moon says and keep saying
With her kind and nice smile
And mystic gesture of love

Indeed she became the light
To the darkness I see as dark

Mist in the morning
Invites December
Delicious joy sees
Greening sprouts

- shanikayrs

I see you shimmering
here to the skyline of
furthest I can see
my heart aches, though

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Write and write and writ.e and write
I want you to write through the dark until the night goes off
Curse to your clusters, clusters are your foes
isn't that shadow of your metal door pretty?
when it is painted the algae nurturing brick wall
you know this wall built brick by brick not knowing any pattern
by being numb to the beauty of stacking
the bricks which are gracefully burnt so they chimes as you knock,
and that is before they come into the wall
how would you feel the space?
Why the night is so peaceful? why it isn't last long
and why do people wait for the day
next time ask  your lord, to sweep out your hunger
I am starving anyway, so the cravings and groves of cravings make patterns in every sight of yours as you shut your eyelids.
Just elegant
how it is to feel like to be in the space. Yeah show no mercy to every nastinesses which are thrown to the space, burn -them **** them
sinners, we are the species with many of merits
isn't this night is just a beautiful painting of, of nobody
Beautiful, beautiful  - light shimmers so it is still the dark
Breath of the space is, world, seriously ****, so so delicious
Oi dreamy night

A coffee mug
sugar cube
an island girl
a crazy sandwich

කෝපි කෝප්පයක්
සීනි කැටයක්
දූපත් කෙල්ලෙක්
පිස්සු සැන්ඩ්විච් එකක්

I do feel love
As if it is there or not there
I do just feel   these love swings
and all in betweens
It is not difficult at all now
Heart is in its optimal mastery
Where a least of a blink would suffice
To know what it is all about
So that I thrash my heart and punish my  mind so then
I do fail before opening the blink
Go to work  next day morning
Repete it all again
and never to learn

Not wanting
brings you what you wanting

Little freckles of dust
create big mass

Every time you crucify
be the no one - be the dust

**resuscitate

Cloudburst cries, mizzle witness the downcast heart
drizzle may bring us the blessings
Amore! walk to me in the rain

Warm up the bed - sweat out the sheets
dance and war may content the god
l'amour touch me in the rain

Walk to me in the rain - touch me in the rain
dance in the rain, darling, make love in the rain

Cloudburst cries but mizzle and drizzle will bless
Love walk down to me with the pouring rain

breath in
    breath out


                           in
          
                                   out


                                          

                                                    one

Pain - she is pretty
pain is pretty
pain is growing
so alive
so green
pain - she wants me
pain wants me to be alive
and so do I
pain - she lives on
old antique brass
timeless - pain is
timeless
my "pain"
I am painfully in
love with ❤️

MY HEART
          is in pain
            wish if you are a human
to feel a little
        of this pain,
I AM DYING

While I am traveling back home
I wanted to write lengthy poem
Just to jot down - I am existed

Life is a unidirectional flow
flows with the massive force
where the power enough to
destroy and uproot yourself
in an unimaginable way if you
disagree - to certain principals

Yet it is funny - the flow diverts you
and showed up the way against
and dare you to go against

If a blink of a thought is the smallest
fracture of the flow what takes us
I will dive deep into the thought
just get to know - whether it has a way
to turn it up towards the freedom
I always seeking

The sad story is keep happening
like the everything else the truth
it also showing only the illusion
and lost me in a position where
I can't find the way back home

Then just like you awaken from
sleep paralysis - I get up and then
I forcefully convince myself - the destination
will be there in minute - so be normal

Now today I am in a position
Where I can't track down myself
In the pane of universe because
neither X nor Y or the so called cross
not helping me at all
Meantime you also diagnosed me
with the overthinking complex

I should not find myself
in the same place I lost myself
but yet can anyone please answer me
with out the  exaggerated bogus
where this all go
after so many exhausted attempts of
breathing

As a foot note I want to say this
truth is also in my perspective
is an illusion where it comes
gives me the glimpse of that
everything is wonderfully
connected

Track me down and let me live
Or take me to the place I belong

© shanikayrs

It just get funny and funnier
when the life wants to ****
the ego of men whom never had life
how an old man with many wrinkles
chuckle at this like he just lost his mind
huh :D :D :D :D :D

May be the life is asking for ..
for more entertainment
from it'''s best actors
funny :D ain't it?
when you look up and beg
that words counts
not for you though :D :D
Old men they are all
chuckle like mad and they all were
retired

I saw my woman's eyes behind the green grasses
fueling to the life ever estranged
God wasn't sure who destroy whom but all he knows is
she and I both are alive in the feast with Him
thus our hearts are racing so the bodies are dancing
cut sharp words drives signal waves of desire within us
I loving into the loving of love
So I may never can go elsewhere off from her spell of sight
neither can she put that warm sigh down not knowing where I am
Green grasses hide blood and our heart distills wine behind
scratches bruises scrapes and ultrasonic moans
they all witness the love as how He culminate it
In the night in the dark God relive the life he drenched
Even God, he has his secret form him himself
so moves. long still gazes, wolf bites and all teeth marks are just perfect as it is
sometimes the love ---------------------------------------
the love may never outshine make prefect  secrets

John is a player and I used to smoked him out,
burning to ashes throw it away like a *******.
you may say that more you smoke soon you die.
That is okay. it is just an opinion and it is from you.
At least I stand brave despite my life and killing several players,
All heroes are comes in packs with lethal label,
I just blow em off.

Please don't come to my ash tray !
smoke with me instead !

My wound - My pain
I am Me - Myself
yet another man of self
cynacal
I am

Sometimes life is feels a little piece of ****
Make me wants to throw the all the **** away
Yelled to calm ******* ocean or to mountain
Or else to a ******* shapeless cloud.
For a moment I am a non believer.
We can either stay sit,stand,sleep or walk
Many Times including this ******* time I ******* can't
stay up to any of it. I am ******* scared, might my sense of humor will lose sooner or later.
I couldn't laugh my ******* soul out to the Russell Peter
That dumb ****
****, if I say this public, I worry I ll be judged
Whenever I know this I stupidly try sound sophisticated sophomore.
Now I am in q ******* hospital, people this is a Srilankan hospital..more or less like a live hell.
My fqucking heart cries , **** ! it is in so much of ****** pain
Over the past eight years I ******* fall in love and then set a time bomb on my heart., and hilariously then my fuckself giving the trigger to some wonderful soul , my guardian of Angel , to my sweetheart. **** chemical
******* sodding God, well ******* infinite times !!!
You are biggest ***** I ever seen, inventing such a pathetic **** called life,for your ******* amusement.
Tell me why the **** on this ******* earth I should pray
I mean my mother is in hospital, yeah that freaking Sri Lankan hospital, where only you see ******* despair
And my sodding girl friend,the one ****** up all the ******* love in the boundaries of universe where we can see and put it all up on me for few ******* instants
What a man wants is simple , it is only *** and love. Hold your ******* thought , don’t blame me, call your ******* lord , God or whoever the superfuck or the nature who responsible for ingesting desires to human life and ask. While the satisfied you praying to God and showing the gratitude,
‘ Dear God , thank you for make me a women with a *****, I have infinite choices of men out there, who will follow me with an blink of eyes, for the taste of this ‘
This is not a ******* poem, This is the Poem
The poem of despair
The poem of frustration, the poem of resentment
Get the life, guts and nails simple, life is ******* simple if this ******* thing let us to be in single
But they don’t ! they ******* don’t , they messed up whole life and say ,life is complicated
I start writing this when I am in the hospital, while waiting my mother to discharge. The I came home with mother, came in threewheel ( *******, ******* vehicle invented by India)
That stupid thing broke in the middle and we walked rest of the way,

My mother - with a broken arm
Myself - with a broken heart

I called to a suicide prevention center , there ******* vision is ‘ we will listen, non judgmental’ . **** I called them , They simply don’t wanna listen any ******* of mine . ‘ Please go to your doctor, happy lady coming from wealthy background said me like that. I felt rather better to **** myself than try not to ****.

My sweetheart I ******* love you
My sweet life I love you too
I only had a little of my heart
You know how many of them
Pulled that time bomb's trigger

you are broken
anxious - not gifted
God never stood by your side
you fill what you don't have
with images
then you connect all
with your thoughts
you read your suffer
by the pain of thousand others

your skull is cracked so the
knowledge all pass by

then you became a poet

She said
There it is raining
Go out and get wet
I simply asked -

shanikayrs

You and I
we dreamed together
under the Roberrosia tree
with all the pink halo of
flowers

You read me ,

For the first time
I loved for the love
what I was afraid of

Billions of tiny thoughts
fought all together
to come out and
say something back
something meaningful

When the harsh storm
making me numb
Roberrosia dream of us
make me awaken

Before I go mad

It is difficult to live
when the square is not really a square
I feel it now
how hard it is be to formless cloud
people like clear blue sky
cloudless
people they are people
I am selfish
that is all I can see
blue sky
I never have seen it
in real days as I know

my medicine
***** all the moisture of mine
so now I am a dry white cloud
still the formless
I just dreaming
dreaming and feeling
feeling and hating
hating and loving
loving and floating
that is all what I can do

as the sky as it is
I am feeling empty
like the specks of dusts in a whirl wind
my heart is twirling
I am going against the rhythm
for a dream I think I deserve
starry nights are dooming
I am selfish even though

This December
         It is too cold
               More than ever
                        Here in Oymyakon
                              A Wolf howls
                                    It is a wretched mourn
                                          Snow is falling
                                          So am I
                                           My dear love
                                           Sasha Gaze

                                        
                                             shanikayrs

Hope you may see the Saturn 🪐
get enchanted by his dusty messy rings
showing of beauty and playful moves
He is mad, not entirely bad
If you are in love with my eyes

Dance of dark - light and gray
Mist and love gracefully sway
Tangle once to the perfect way
Oneness come not to your pray

I am filled with so much of warm love
Wish you were here to share it , my little dove
That will chase away all your cold

shanikayrs

When I am bright and shine
she has caught a glimpse of me
kept it safe in glassy cells of her heart
transformed my mild heat
to that buzzing beam of electrons
towards the hope
bringing the light and let it all work
in the time my shine has frail and gone

If you know, darling with ivy glass
this is sun taking to his Electra

We are lost in unknown space
she shredding tears
and my heart cries so brutally
we are stuck
sometime it feels it is a dead end
or an endless pit
I am stuck
someone help me out
to stop the time
please I am begging
just before I die
stop the time
stop
for the sake
of ****** god

I can't bare
- pain
even a small
bit
- no
not any more
'                      '
!

all I can think of is the summer
beer, coca-cola and tan you
I wish if we were born free as you and I
where ever we looking at alone or together
the happiness, the smile and smoke of fine cigarettes
where else life can be a miracle
when we alive all the day along
my woman my children and the daffodils I love most
make the life and of an every bit it needs
summer is always a dream, beautiful dream coming ture
every once in a year , wondering how I dream !
there was many summers since I had a hope

Cut and enjoy yourself
tiny dots of pain -

Our values - maybe our values can not be found in the backdrop you and I were painted on

We need a different world -
You and I and few more others need a world where there is nothing to earn,
Where you don't have to make yourself alive
A world where you stay along with your breath and sunflowers - all along - indefinite

A timeless world - Sunflowers 🌻🌻🌻

Just to be embrace with
Elegant sedative love
Exuberance of bliss
Uttering to the days of our lives
Orchards with sweetness
Yellow and purple flowers of truth
Recite the story they 've seen
Of the love indefinite

© shanikayrs

There are sometimes , my friend
It seems that pain is never gonna pass
No matter what you do
There are times, I am saying
My friend we born with it, we are
No one will see, I am saying, you will be alone
Even without your own shadow
My friend I am saying, There are times
Everyone else is a hero in their way
Except you, you get to have nothing as it seems
So you stop eating fish because you see
You feel the burning pain of their gills
When you got them out of water, my dear
My friend, My friend , My friend !!! hello
They are sometimes, I am saying
Hello .............................................................

My doctor said
the Sansara is not a circular
he said it is liner
I think that we both know
what it is or
we both know
nothing at all

I was stuck into a circle
I felt the repetition
re-occurrence spin and twirl
this all repressed me
harnessed me and abused me
the flash of the theory of line
brought me back

It has major fall outs
In what my doctor said
But it expelled me from
riding the horse of merry go round

I read a little about relativity
and have been thinking about it
lot more time
where I stand is
where my ego is
I felt that

my doctor cheated the game
with another illusion
But for the day I am no longer
the Vitruvian Man, who
stretching arms and legs to touch
the circumference of the circle

It is okay to be selfish
I felt so because that is what we are
it is okay to believe nothing
because that what it is
I might day dreaming
or mad talking
but the truth
but the truth
I sense
and it slitting my soul
in unexpected times

stars
they burn out of loneliness
imagine the twinge of agony
crushing all pieces to explode
though many billion years

you see the sedative light
inexplicably a massive place
universe is

you are the greatest pleasure
bigger than life I feel
I know

you are the definition
of 'Ecstasy'
In my little world

have't I told you
I am a victim of
your sweet innocence

tricky game you play love
keep me all to you or
give me nothing at all

the emperor of ages
uncountable drops of blood
sweat and thirst
infinite sparks of chemicals
inside your wrinkled brain
just vanished
In the way as miserable as it can be
right after it fired, the last bullet
the bullet of so called love

chimes of bells
dance and beauty of pictures
speeches and God's contest
will mixed to the wine
unveiled the bride
the one you tasted the soul

dear ***
I know your games
**** me
I will fight for survival

To generation to generation
they have passed
the epic beauty of
Birches !

The birches
it always
brings the
green shelter
written to the name of
the God I wish to be
Sun !

The Birches
where I sit
lost and find
celestial moves
geometry and
Love !

© shanikayrs
*carved on the bark of the birch I used to climb

Traversing in between that few sweet hangouts
One to another in greater distance
Inside the empty universe

Having shedded ocean of tears
For Keep the moist of life
What life may feel

Staring stagnated beyond horizon
Earnestly towards a vision which can not be seen
For knowing the ingredients of life

The eye has being :

Exhaustede

good thing about life is
you got a create it
you ******* got a want to create it
like that you wanting to be a wizard
world would not accept
you will be all **** alone
but you gotta create it
the world you belong
it won't exist
until you create it
all by your god self

I got nothing to do about been real
So
I drink up for the night to fill the rest
The love is such insanity what I make me loving about me being insane
Right now am there the edge of having and not having everything at the same time
But my heart always in need
So am pretty sad but in the most beautiful way
Am the lonely drinker to the night
Without a cigarette between ma lips

I think I wanna cut my own throat
**** hard and sleep tight
Vulgarity and purity together it makes a one man
The man called me
You all are my projections
See how uncanny it is when the God, whoever,whatever the creator steal that claim from me, the man who own the projections
In the broad day light
Am not angry with him if he doing the job right but no
He just playing with lights
Making it his own club house
Having selfish apathetic pleasure
Destroy my creation my projection
Destroying the man
The man