There
Bring me to life in there
I am terribly lonely

...... ! ,

There will be a moment
we all have to climb a mountain
fight a battle and learn the art
a moment, to smile with your memories
with light and cherished heart

There will be a moment
you to fly above the all odds
what you never and never will understand
drop down the weight your body carries
even the wings letting you to fly

There will be a moment
you learn your greatness
talk to your heart conscience
close your eyes and sleep as man

There will always be a moment
you to learn the universe
feel it - accept it - be matter of it
and embrace the beauty of nothingness

There - that will be the time
you find your beginning and the
ultimate destination of the journey
you madly walked

© shanikayrs

She is the ultimate
To what she takes in

She will be the same
Even after heavenly encounters

What she bring out
Will only heal the world

Love of a world
Await inside of her

Waiting to penetrate
Only with art of passion

God will only gets in
To a ****** like Mother Marry

I have been part of love triangles
Or you say
Triangle of common interest

Some times I am the absolute winner
Some other times I am the desperate looser
I don't have anything to offer
To keep the cyclic life running
So all of the time
I am the pathetic victim

You know what?
You are a poem
I miss writing

Sometimes.
It all comes as you know it all
Meantimes
It all goes as you are all blind
If not smile what else to do
High standards or
Despair of sight
Nothing will fix
All by itself
I mean
I keep falling, hence
I wish this is to be an abyss
Or your love

shanikayrs

I can not survive - through the day
through this very second
I let me die
everything I write starts with my ownself
I don't know how to write - to you
But I heard God created only a one-man
One Adam and then he took off his hands
He - the universe hold something
so do all big bosses -
hear me, my lord  
you aren't a boss, you have no mercy
at least the lucifer let us to ****, as we wish
so I'll be alive at least at the moment I ****

Correction -
I should not let myself die
I should **** me
God - yes - that is what you are asking for
ever since, from the creation of Adam
you shouldn't have,
test your mastery,  
boss
you could have watch
**** Instead

I love you
you
and you
and you too

God is bad
****** depress
******* perverted
opportunist manic

love is a crime
no wonder
why the
flowers not blossom
on earth

It comes in a way loneliness to solitude
And the other way around most the time
Knowledge of life keep longing
In a place of saturate

The gurus I went after
All had cost mines of gold
Which happened to pay from very own life
Here onwards terrifying to look in

Creation and the destination
Bringing so much of mingle
To one another in bitter sweet love
What it feels is only what its capable

What now or the immortality
Where immortality hard to be found
Nothing can be given or give up
When they vouch destiny to be create

If it created why to manifest
Why challenge poor for the union
Hello big tree , green grass on thick soil
Open yourself and teach if you know

Mind where you live I don't know
Soul who you are so strange to me
Who I am I have no clue
So your grace I surrender to you

Dear big tree here I bow to you

shanikayrs

I am in love
even if it is
just
the shadow
of
her!

Searching for awhile
Nearly half a life
Dream doesn't fade
Even middle of abyss
Word I pick
Felt like wrong
No more search
So I seek  

shanikayrs

The moon is
bright , a little frail, blurry ,

Today she is more real
humble and wanting me to save
amazing  astounding ,

She is bewildering
the way she talk through the dark,
The bare light she shredding on herself
Isn’t it her amorous winks of the ecstasy
The rapturous insanity of ecstasy to be in another few dark nights or so
In the day of full moon
Where we stand with Gods

Live in the mystery
To all its bits and pieces
Go under sun, get dark a little
Talk to him for a while
You may missing his words
Fall in love with that big tree
Shelter to the fullest he reach
While Keep smiling green
For years and years along
Take one more breath
Deep to your soul and let it heal
Be greatful to the wonder of it
Making a moment of life alive
Though they come invisible to you
Close you eyes for a while
When yourself awake and free
See how much you beautifully see
Love and the meaning of peace

shanikayrs

I get angry even with the words sometimes
am done talking and expressing
exhausted of decorating words
words alone can't speak the truth
we don't know the truth
(hope~karma~love~luck~god~whatever the crap you call it)
we know nothing so simply we have no words for speak of the truth
I am tired of all your big talks with no meaning at all
why you should ever wanting me to (be-lie-ve) your words
then after awhile why should I decorate the words you have said
I know nothing ~ neither you know a thing or maybe I may not know that you know a thing
but in the end of every speech~visionary talk~essay~or an epic poem
all those words you all spoken has no meaning
words have no meaning

She is only twenty-three, seven years younger than her brother. She is riding that motorbike late at night, aginst all fears. All she wants is to take her brother and mother to the most favorite place at night in Kandy. It was drizzling a little too by then.

She mixed up with the directions a little. They ended up heading to a place where a highly unlikeable bunch of people hanging out and accommodate.  They were drinking. It wasn't a pleasant party. Some people are born so nasty, He thought to himself and reminded of the world's Victorian days. All praise the Queens, Science is new Victoria.

Life felt like a prolonged mystery.

එයාගෙ  ඇස් මට කිව්ව
කවිකයක් අහන්න  ඕනෙ කියල
සරාගී කවියක්
දන්න  නොදන්න
සියුම් වේදනාවෙන් පිරිච්ච්ච
හිත ඇතුලෙ කළුවර තැන් වල
ඇස් දෙක පියාගෙන ලියපු
සරාගී කවියක්

හදවතේ භාෂාවෙන් ලියපු
නිශ්ශබ්ද ස්වරයෙන් කියන
අපේ මත් උන ඇස් වලින්
කිෂිජයේදී රඟදෙන
රන් පාට ඒ කවිය
විදුලියක් උනා ඇයට
නිදහසක් උනා විශ්වයට

ඔව් , 'නෑ' කිව්වෙ 'ඔව්'
ප්‍රතිවිරුද්ධ , සදාතනික
හදවතේ භාෂාවේ
ආදරයෙ ගිනි දැල්ලේ
සරා ගීම කවිය මම ලිව්වෙ
ඒ ඇස් වලින් මම දැකපු
වෙන කවුරුවත්ම  නොදැකපු
අහිංසක දඟකාරිට‍

මට තියනවා මතකයක්
දැකලා තියනවා කියල
අහල තියනවා කියලා
දැනිල තියනවා කියල
ජීවත් උන අතීතයේ යම් දවසක්

මේ ගෙවෙන කාලයත්
මම විදලා තියනවා
මට එහෙම මතකයක් තියෙනවා
හෙට දවසත් මම  දන්නවා
ඒක හරි රසවත්
අමතක මතකයක්
පුරුදු රසයක්
සොඳුරු කාරුණික හිනාවක්

මට නවතින්න තැනක් දෙන්න
ටික කාලෙකට
මට කාලය තේරුම් ගන්න
නතර වෙන්න
තැනක් දෙන්න ටිකකට
මගේ මතකය එකක්
කරගන්න

හරිම නිවීමක් ඒක
අමතක මතකයක්
පුරුදු රසයක්
සොඳුරු කාරුණික හිනාවක්

ආදරයෙ දෙව් දුව
තරුණ කාලේ දවසක
මගෙන් ඇහුව
ආදරය :
මොකක්ද එකේ තේරුම

විශ්වයම එකතු කරලා
හැදුන සොම්‍ය ස්වරයකින්
මම කිව්වා  ආදරය :
*අම්මා කියල

මරණේ ද නැත්තම් ජීවිතේ ද කියලා ලොකු තේරුමක් නෑ
රෝලලර් කෝස්ටරයක් වගේ
මලක් වටේ කැරකෙන නිල් පාට සමනලයෙක් වගේ
කළු සුදු ගැන හිතනවා ඒක ගලපලා ඇදුම් අදිනවා
එත් ඒක  දැනෙන්නේ නෑ ඉවසීමක් නැතුව ඉන්නේ
ජීවිතයට

ඔය නවතින තැන ඉන්න බැහැ
අහසේ ලස්සන විතරයි
ක්ෂිතිජයෙන් එහාටත් අහස
ඒක තමයි ඇත්ත
ලෝකේ තැටියක් උනානම් 'සීසර් ' වෙන්න තිබුන
එත් 'මැගලන්' ලෝකෙ වටේ ගියා
ධර්මයත් චක්‍රයක් උනා
හුස්ම ගැන  හිතන්න ඕනෙ
සක්විති රජෙක් වෙන්න ඕනෙ
එහෙමයි මම දන්න ඉතිහාසේ තියෙන්නේ
හැම අංශුවක්ම කියන දේ පේන් නැද්ද
ඉවසීමක් නැතුව ඉන්නේ
ජීවිතයට

තාත්තෙ
ඇයි මාව ඉපැද්දුවෙ
මැරෙන්න බය කරල
මැරුන වගෙ ඉන්න කියලා
මම ගැන කාට කියන්නද
අනුකම්පාවෙ තුරුම්පුවක් වෙන්නෙ
නැතුව
ඔයා කොහොමද නිවන් දකින්නෙ
සසර තවත් දික් කරල

read in sinhala & english*

හඳ
දිදුලන්න
වචනකුදු නොකියාම
හිරුගෙ ආලොකයද
ගත දවන රශ්මියද
විහිදන්න සොම්නසින්
සඳ කිරණෙ සිසිලසින්

හඳ
දිදුලන්න තව ලන්ව
සනසමින් තුන් රැයම
සඳ මඩලෙ කන්තිය
වේවි දරාගත් හැමදෙයම