I like thinking what my life would have look like if we were together.

I like imagining you in the evening, in my bathroom, shirtless, brushing you teeth before going to sleep. I would came from behind, wrapping my arms around you, kissing your back.

I like imagining me waking up next to you.
Your sleepy angel face, dreaming about god knows what. Your body rolled up in my sheets, your smell on my pillows.

Imagine all this is a ******* torture, a ******* sweet torture.

I think you would see me differently if you could see me as I am.
I think you would think differently if i told you the things I have to say.

But here I am, doing nothing to have you back in my life,
Expecting that you will come back,
But you won't.

We were over before even being something.
I met my soulmate but you didn't met yours.

I never felt good enough , always alone

No matter what I tried
I saw contempt in your eyes

You fed from my depression
It seemed to be your obsession

When I am gone will you think of what was wrong
Will you see how your lies fed my goodbye
OR will I still take the blame and not tarnish your name

Don't cry for my death as I cried all my life

It never bothered you to see my pain
So do not mourn me the same

I take leave of life or what it was suppose to be
Tumbling into the darkness ..

~forever always alone

She assured me
That she knew her limit,
But it didn't take long
Until she drank herself
Into total oblivion
Out cold on the floor
With dried tears on her cheeks.
She tries to drown
Her demons in *****
But she tends to forget
That alcohol ...
Only makes them stronger.