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Moon tears Jan 2017
I wish we could go back years ago, to those days when you were a puppy a young healthy energetic non-diabetic puppy
When we play with your mom
She passed away years ago, but every time y think of her it hurts all over again
It take me back to that exact moment i run to my bedroom crying and start to drown myself in tears, nothing could ever replace her maternal feeling and the protection she will have died to give me
People might be thinking this is so stupid you are talking about a dog
But they will say that cause they just don't understand, they can't understand how it feels, how i felt
And now watching you so proudly, you learn everything we thought you
You learn to recognize my smell, my voice, my crying sounds and you sit beside my window just in case i needed you, just in case i need to look at those shiny full of hope beautiful eyes that you have
I used to think that fatness was a sing of healthiness, at least in you, you always looked so happy fat and adorable, now im watching you get skinnier and weaker every day and its just hurt so much when i look at you and your getting older but at the same time always seeing that young and wild puppy that i saw the firt time.
We grow up together, your mom was like our mom and i see you like a sister but at the same time like my baby that i have to protect.
I really wish I'm doing it well, I'm new at this, it is really making me stronger, your knew I always wanted to be a doctor and now I'm practicing because i have to inject the insulin every 12 hour and then give you your special food, and put that cream on your left leg, and after I finished all that i sit and look at your eyes and see then turning blue, and start to realize that you will be dying soon and there's nothing I could do about it
You are going to die and the only thing i can do is think about how much I'm going to miss you when your gone but at least you will be resting in peace and i will be getting stronger
Today was a normal day, we cleaned the house and make lunch, then we took you to get clean and I went to the hairdresser.
I was coming back home and hearing the radio with mom, suddenly she received a call, her face changed completely, she looks at me as i ask what happened and tells me that you are gone, that your little heart couldn't handle it anymore and that you are no longer alive
I stay quiet for a minute or two, and I started asking questions with what i had of voice between my sobbing
When I got home I could barely got out of the car, and when I did the house already felt extremely empty without you saying welcome back! And smelling us while moving your tale with some much happiness
You waited for me for four months and i will never be more thankful for that cause i got to say goodbye
I now you got through so much, every single problem you riced above, you were blind and somehow managed to live incredibly
I love you so much and i have no idea how will I managed to live without you, What do you do with all the love in the world you were willing to give, how do you keep going when the thing that kept you going is gone?  
This day didn't went as I imagine and life will never be the same, this house will always be a little bit emptier, my smile will always be a little bit fake and my heart will always have a little hole were you will always live with me
My dog died and my soul too
Moon tears Mar 2016
I don't like the life that I'm living
I don't like the person that I'm being
I don't like the people that surround me
I don't like the way they used to judge me

So I run away
To these new beautiful city
Were everyone is dead
So it doesn't matter anymore
And I don't really care

The people that were bad with me
I can see them crying now
I can see them suffer
I like it when they suffer
I make them suffer
And i love it
And I'm killing them all

What? You thought the city was heaven?
People who suicide don't go to heaven
I'm an angel now
The angel of death
I'm the ***** of satanas you *******
not everyone have an happy ending
Moon tears Feb 2016
You sheltered me from harm.
Kept me warm, kept me warm.
You gave my life to me.
Set me free, set me free.
The finest years I ever knew,
Were all the years I had with you.

And I would give anything I own.
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own,
Just to have you back again.

You taught me how to laugh.
What a time, what a time.
You never said too much,
But still you showed the way
And I knew from watching you.

Nobody else could ever know,
The part of me that can't let go.

And I would give anything I own,
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own,
Just to have you back again.

Is there someone you know,
Your loving them so,
But taking them all for granted?
You may lose them one day.
Someone takes them away,
And they don't hear the words you long to say.

I would give anything I own,
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own,
Just to have you back again;
Just to touch you once again.
we need old songs back
Moon tears Feb 2016
Lost and all alone.
I always thought that I could make it on my own.
But since you left I hardly make it through the day.
My tears get in the way and I need you back to stay.

I wander through the night
And search the world to find the words to make it right.
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me.
And I've got to make you see,
That I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
And I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel,
A touch without a feel.
I can't believe its real.
And someday soon I'll wake
And find my heart won't have to break.

Yes, I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
All I want is the way it used to be
I need you here with me.
Oh darling can't you see,
If we had love before,
We can have it back once more
we need old song back
Moon tears Nov 2015
i have been drowning for so long
i learned how to breaht under water
my daily life
Moon tears Dec 2015
I have tried everything to get you out of my mind.
But its just impossible nothing can ever make me feel the way i feel when you touch me with your sweet skin and the amount of energy i have inmy body when I saw you. I can't forget your eyes that shine so bright into my soul it even make feel like I don't wanna die Just because I wanted to stay one more minute right beside you and that feeling you gave that finaly i was being loved i have never feel that way and it was the most amazing thing ever happened to me.
But like everything i this world, have an end.
13.07 am. You just realized that i was **** and everyone was right about me, that i was a mistake.
You know that waas the special thing about him, he didn't listen to other to decide who will be his friend bur I don't know what happened maybe he just realized on his own that i was ****. And i am, but for the firt time i just thing someone didint care, someone acept me. Someone love me.
Moon tears Feb 2016
Mommy, the monster under my bed enter in my head
Now they are telling me to do bad things
And somehow, I want to
I can't fight my demons, so I become them
Moon tears Dec 2016
I feel like everyone hates me
But i know they could never hate me as much as i do
And i can't help it idk what to do to love myself but i just can't i just hate me too much to ever even accept i have to be in this body for the rest of my life... would it help if i make it shorter?
What should i do?
Moon tears Nov 2015
I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind, 'cause

I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
its hard for me to say im jelous of the way your happy without me
Moon tears Dec 2015
Even if he was the one who hurt me
I feel save in his arms
You can hit me, and i will still love you
Moon tears Feb 2016
Show me that you are a monster
That you are a bad person
A bad influence
That you are bad for me
Cause i need to hate you
A really need to hate you
So i will stop loving you
But deep down i know
That even if you show me all that things
Even if you ******* destroyed me
I will still love you with all my heart
And all my sould
I love you please don't leave me
Moon tears Nov 2015
Pain and sadness
They were best friend
Always like to play with my feelings
Till the time they became inseparable

Happiness was jealous
Cause after sadness came
Pain was her best friend
They always laugh till it hurts

But now happiness is tired of felling alone
So she tells pain how she fell about
She thinks he will care because they use to best friends
And he cares but just a little no the way she would want to

So pain tell sadness about happiness and what happened
So sadness get so mad and so sad
That she became into depression
And need pain to survive

So pain stay with her
Leaving happiness alone
Ones again
So she decided to leave
Even when I told her that I need her
That she can't leave me just with depression and pain

But she just don't care because she was broken, so she did to me the same pain did to her

And she leave me alone
I will never get happiness back
I will never be happy again
I will never be happy again
Moon tears Oct 2015
i wanna write happy poems
that make people smile
that make them feel alive
but everytime i try to write
what i feel inside
it's all dark
and the paper star to cry
and my demons start to draw
and my tears start to fall
and my heart start to heart
and everything began to darken
now im just sad again
Moon tears Feb 2016
It's not the poison that it's poisoning you
Is the reason why you take the poison
I pic my poison and it's you
Nothing can **** me like you do
Moon tears Feb 2016
We are all lost stars
Trying to light up the sky
Or maybe
Just our life's
We keep hoping to be a shooting star
But we are just **** burning down
Moon tears Jan 2018
Isn’t weird
How you can sleep with someone
And lay your head on their chest
Been so close to their heart
But never owning even the smallest piece of it
For you  every time we slept together was just one more time you felt pleasure
For me every second was letting you in and  enjoying the moment I knew it was going to end till you wanted I little rush again
I let you in and till this day I can’t  get you out of me
Moon tears Oct 2015
very few things matter, and nothing matters very much
depression sintoms
Moon tears Feb 2016
We are all diferent people with different though
But in point of our lifes
We all suffer through staff that makes us strong, make us equals
We all suffer in a point of our lives from something called love
Moon tears Feb 2016
I was just hanging there
Thinking about you
And a tear felt down my face
It didn't feel warm
It wasn't cold either
It was nothing
It didn't even hurt anymore
I can't feel nothing
It's just that nothing make me feel alive anymore
Maybe I'm not
Maybe I shouldn't be
That's when I decide
That it was over
That's when I decide
To **** myself
To die
Of course I didn't do it at the end cause
How selfish to be in peace
Letting hurt the people who **** you every day
Right ?

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