By the window
Under a purple sky,
I thought I saw a shadow,
But then the lightning
Cracked across so bright.

Music in my ears
Singing about stars and death,
Maybe the rains are my tears
And thunder is the sound
Of my heart break.

Another white flash
I look at it lash,
The song now is
About a lonely heart,
I feel myself cringing,
Maybe falling apart.

An uneven poem
Piling up my emotions,
I'd really rather throw them
But I'm not yet insane.

Maybe the rain stopped,
I pause the music;
I was wrong,
The rain falls on.

If the rains are my tears,
Then the lightning
Is the brightness,
That only leads me into
Darkness.

The storm on its own-
My deepest, darkest fears;
If rain does not stop
Neither will my tears.

She cried herself
To sleep at night,
Trying so hard
To find the light.

Her sister went to parties
Rarely feeling lonely,
Leaving a hurting Isabelle
Quietly hiding in her shell.

A fire raged within her
But afraid of going unheard,
She kept away,
Ran far away.

Her daddy went to strip clubs
And always came home drunk,
Her skin bore bruises
Only thorns, no roses.

Her mama went to church
For, she was also hurt;
The man she loved
Beat her up.

Her friends were all so pretty
They caught everyone's eye;
But she was so lonely
Caught in a web of lies.

The ones who said
They loved her,
Only built her walls
Up higher.

She felt betrayed,
Unwanted waste;
Tears in her eyes,
She was asking "Why?"

I found a crouching Isabelle,
She was going through hell.
I picked her up
And gave her hope.

Now she's strong,
She was wrong;
She's not worthless
She's not a mess.

Somewhere in there,
In love I fell;
Now she is my Isabelle.

I'm falling down
I can't catch my crown,
Help me please
I don't want to give up.

I'm crawling on the floor
Don't close the door,
Hold my hand
And help me stand.

Life is cruel
I was just a tool,
Used and abused
I was such a fool.

Do you see me?
Or am I invisible?
I'm crying out for you
Lift me up,
Clear the view.
I'm losing control
Show me the light,
Help me win
My inner fight.

I'm reaching out to you
I'm losing all the trust now
Keep my faith alive
And become my guiding light.

People are always leaving
But to you I'm pleading,
I don't want to be alone
Take me home.

I try so hard,
Yet the shards
They force right
Through me
Why can't you see?
Day and night
Of sweat and blood,
Wrong or right
My tears they flood.
Mortal as ever
**** me now or never
If peace is what you want
Then peace is what I grant.

I see you didn't
Hear the screams.
So I stopped
Yelling in vain
And seeing you
In my dreams.
I'm dying
But you don't
Even care.
That's okay
Because neither do I.
I see now
You were lying,
But it was my fault
Believing your words
Not seeing that,
It was just
Verbal assault.
I was a robot
In your trap
I was caught.
**** was what
I went through,
Now it's your turn
To feel the burn.
On me you grew
I thought this was true
That you would never
Leave my side
That you would never
Run and hide,
Hide from the
Monster that I am.
You see
That I'm breathing
But I won't be
Anymore.
Welcome to my world
Now your monster
Has been born.