We’re moving too fast
Running through a storm
Of desire and lust

Look upon us now
Breaking the rules, and how

Flashbacks galore echo in my mind
A blast of pretty colours
But only in the Polaroid

Everyone’s telling us to slow down
To back off
Give it a rest, pick it up some other time

But who are they to tell us what to do?
Who are they to tell us how to live?

I’m taking the risk, diving in headfirst
Confident and in love we are
Shun the rest of the world
Shut them out

Hit the brakes too early
And now we’re crashing
We’re falling down
Sprawling out in the snow

We broke the rules
But it was worth it
Worth it every time
We’ve got a lifetime of memories to show

Was I *****?
Maybe I wanted it?
That intoxicated girl,
She must have said yes.
But that girl was me.
I did not say yes.

Was I *****?
only a vague memory of the night
But the morning, a vivid reality.
Waking up naked in my bed,
To a strange man walking out my door.
Thanking me for sleeping with him.
But I did not say yes.

Was I *****?
He seemed like a nice guy.
Maybe I fell on the walk home.
That's why there was blood and bruises,
On the most intimate parts of my body.
He did take me back to my room.
But I did not say yes.

Was I *****?
The memories will forever haunt me.
But months of hell and healing,
Have led me to realize:
I did not say yes.

I was *****.

Body shaking
Heart racing
Mind scattered
Feeling dizzy
Need help
Can't talk
Go away
Can't walk
Pass out
Why not cry a little too

Hello my name is anxiety

A boyfriend and a goal
The fuel to my eating disorder.
Just 5 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Just 4 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Just 3 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
Just 2 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
I'll go for a run
Just 1 pound.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
I'll go for a run
No breakfast tomorrow
Just **5 more pounds...