Some days I still feel like the scared boy I once was. The same child who mouthed

                    "I love you"

from the mattress on the living room floor . I have never forgotten that shy smile you made. I remember you so vividly.

I can still see your playful eyes, and visualize the corners of your mouth as they reveal your sharp cainine teeth. I'll never forget that moment.

It's disheartening to learn that sometimes progress isn't made.

I may always be that terrified boy who is hopelessly in

                    love.

i can fix anyone except me
bring me your problems
i can put them to sleep
its nothing special i just say what i see
you see it too or you wouldnt be talking to me
its just a form of devils advocacy
i see your demons and i speak their language fluently
let them talk through me
occam would approve
as deeply incised insight like mine
is built on a life in ruin

If someone loved You,
With all the power of Their soul for a whole lifetime,
They couldn't Love You as much as I do in a single day.

And when I think of You I think of how there's:
No Growth without Resistance.
No Action without Reaction.
No Desire without Restraint.

One step at a time that Fear is receding.
You've assured me of this.

Crossroads,
Changes,
New ideas,
Old habits.
Ways we were,
Ways we could be.
Things we know,
Things we thought we knew.
Love found and lost.