I'm fine without you

I leave bed a little bit less
I'm always tired
and my room is a mess

but
I'm fine without you
Sometimes I cry for no reason
and I'll blame it on mood swings
or the change of season

but
I'm fine without you
although I think of you all day
wondering why you left and
hoping you're okay

but
I'm fine without you
My friends have concern
they say I've lost it
and I'm letting my life burn

but
I'm fine without you
the rare occasions I'm in my car
I don't wear a seatbelt
and I'm headed to the bar

but
I'm fine without you
I really swear that it's true
I guess I'm spiraling out of control
but it's not because of you...

I spent last night
Crunching numbers

10
Times you led me on

9
Nights we stayed up talking

8
Weeks since you decided I wasn’t worth it

7
Crushed up poems on the floor of my room

6
Outfits thrown aside to make sure I look my best

5
Days I spent trying to get over you

4
Friends that know what we did

3
3 a.m FaceTime calls

2
Coats of mascara

1
Big regret