Traffic jam on the highway
cars stopped
one hundred percent gridlock
heat waves off the asphalt

people rushing to see relatives
holiday weekend; a few hours till they see them
two hundred engines humming
flies buzzing

five hundred people waiting
wondering what they're waiting for
waiting for their wheels to turn
waiting for someone they've never seen before

their lives inconvenienced
by a traffic jam
******* up their holiday plans

when their cars finally move
and they see what made them stop
"oh dear, look at all those cops"
and an overturned tin can of a car

telling their kids to look elsewhere
shielding their eyes from the array
of a wrecked life
of a blue tarp on the highway

Their lives inconvenienced
by a traffic jam
******* up their holiday plans

but who is beneath
the blue tarp on the ground?
nobody even thinks
about what could be found

and what a disgrace
to simply be
an inconvenience
lying in the street

because humans are heartless
whether they are young or old
when their lives are inconvenienced
by a little girl's body gone cold

and for these reasons
i pray to never, ever say,
"i wish we could hurry through this traffic
because it's ******* up my holiday."

Running away
all life spent, running
waiting for you to beg me to stay

running brings a sweat
shin splints, calf cramps
but it helps me to forget

I don't want to remember
my warm, safe bed
because memories of you haunt me forever

the smacking of feet
the breathing surrounding me
but this air starts to feel like concrete

because no matter how far I run
I simply cannot escape
because I'll love you forever, and then some.

Turning, turning, turning the handle

Hoping, begging, praying Jack won't escape the box

Turning, turning, turning the handle!

Hoping, begging, praying this fear is only in my thoughts

TURNING, TURNING, CLICKITY-CLACK

WATCH OUT! MOVE AWAY! GET FAR, FAR BACK!

T U R N I N G , T U R N I N G


..............false alarm
Turning, turning, this is tiring my arm
Turning, turning, clickity-clack
Don't worry, this has happened before,
It can't possibly be ja

The importance of friendship is infinite.
So often, people use each other for memories and fun times.
But it isn't supposed to stop there, is it?
We are supposed to lean on each other when times get hard.
We can't let fights get between us, we can't let relationships distance us.
For there are bonds that can be created; bonds stronger than any you can see.
Just one talk with a real friend can set your worries free.
And friends are not followers, that is obvious to me.
They are treasures and gifts from God.
They are a shoulder to cry on when times get hard.
They are laughs when you want to cry.
And wings when you want to fly.
They are secret keepers, and dream believers.
They are motivators and personal cheerleaders.
But it is most important to realize that friendship isn't one-way.
Because we are all human, and the world doesn't revolve around you.
Friendship is about caring and loving unconditionally.
It is about giving not to receive, but giving because you believe.
Believe in love and friends and fun and laughs and crying and deep conversations past 3am.
Believe in relationships deeper than any with some cute boy.
Believe in a lifetime of care and joy.

I'm having these changing feelings
I don't know where I stand
That smile stops my heart;
It diminishes my steady hands

You have me under this spell
Like no other I have seen
It confuses me like crazy
And makes me feel unclean

My brain says it is wrong,
My heart says it is fine
You have me wanting nothing more
Than for you to be mine

Your endless love is inspiring
I just want to be you
But I can only try
From such a distant view

My whole life I've been raised
To be a different way
But everytime I see you
I have no words to say

But I will have plenty
Of words from here on out
Because you're gone forever
Gone, without a doubt.

I loved your green eyes.
I loved your laugh and lips.
I loved your hair and nose.
I loved your hands and your feet.
I loved what you thought were flaws.
I loved every single bit of you through and through.

But there came a point when it wasn't all love.
It was no longer butterflies.
It was lies.
It was insults that were funny at first but I began believing them.
It was insecurity.
It was mistakes and crying and peer pressure.

I became so confused.
I didn't know where to draw the line between the good and bad.
The love and hate.
I never meant to lead you on because I believed the love as much as you.

But you didn't see the pain I felt.
You didn't feel it until I walked away.
The pain you feel when I leave?
That is the pain I feel internally when I am hurt by you.

I can't trust anyone anymore.
Because I trusted you and look where I am.

But the love is not gone.
I can't forget it.
I'm not heartless or using you.
I cannot let go of the good feelings you showed me.

I can't quit loving your green eyes.
I can't quit loving your laugh and lips.
I can't quit loving your hair and nose.
I can't quit loving your hands and feet.
I can't quit loving your flaws.

But I can't love the pain.
And that is what is keeping us apart. And I'm sorry.