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Quisha Jun 2014
Why is it that I only feel whole again
Once I’m alone again?
Silence means I light up
and rummage through my thoughts.
Expand my mind
and ya know I like a lickle two step!
And finally enjoy what everyone else gets to.

Me
Quisha Jun 2014
Words are deceiving,
My having dem does not negate my feeling dem.
To find em and feel em, den breathe life into dem
Takes courage, Suh

So why bwoy you na link me na more?

It wasn’t easy for me to ask you to let me know when you’re out
You laughed and drew me a diagram of the particular ways you wanted in.
My words were not foreplay Stranger.
I reinforced the sentiment - for your future reference and got back to work.

So, how did I end up here?
Feelings weren’t caught
But respect was lost
So the only words I have left for you are:
“Whiskey, straight up - no twist.”
Quisha Jun 2014
I caught myself looking in and I saw you.
Because I failed to astound you,
I tip to sad.

And these others wait in… hope?
But what hope is there for me?
When I’m more afraid than before
That I’m simply too much for the few yous I desire.
Ahh, these waste man infested waters
And plain. old. *******.
And this, this face it’s just, just flesh
And some bones.
They don’t see I am what lies beneath
Too feminist (I’d call it liberal myself), too masculine, too feminine, too rough, too rational,
too creative, too fair (never too kind).
Too honest!
Too weird.
Too unique.
Too, too black
For any one man to ever hold hands with.
Quisha Jun 2014
I’m good with nothing,
That’s why I have options.
Do I need to convey that to you Stranger?
Is there a point?
Koz all I really wanted was to turn off the lights
And for now make everything seem alright
But you don’t have the drive.

Ya know, I like me
And I was excited to show you some of my favourite pieces
But you can’t won’t don’t see me
And purely logical understanding does not naturally lead me to all irie.

My preference is you Stranger
Because what you presented was honest
( and not without its beauty)
But your absences make me forgetful
Especially when an eX can mark that spot just as well.

Your existence is rapidly mythical
And so what was once just a notion
Becomes more of an inevitability.

No apologies necessary
Quisha Jun 2014
I question your interest, after a week
My horizons broaden, after a while
Stop me if you’ve heard this before?

Exactly how honest am I expected to be?
Because I wouldn’t mind keeping some for myself
I’m not on this.
It doesn’t feel, well… Like anything.
And what good is that?

I can’t…
If a man…
I’m sorry.

I’ve kinda said it before but I’ll say it again
I can’t,
If a man shows so little interest in me
No hard feelings.
Quisha Jun 2014
Housing waning
Where do you expect me to go?
Stop selling me Harrow
(Not even if you talking Road).
Imma Grove gyal…!

I got my vibe spots and chill spots, my food stalls and book haunts.
We - SJC are not just a Safer Neighbours blight
Given half the obstacles - gentle gentry
maybe more of us would be standing free

I’ll take myself outta Grove when I’mmmm ready.
RBKC done turned up that pressure though.
Knocking down to wipe out
The enriching colour and spice that grew out of adversity
Permission to “celebrate” over the August bank holiday,
No amount of stop and searches g’on make me forget.
We belong here too.

So get to know and stop putting up my rent.
Quisha Jun 2014
The crucifix inked on my neck burns me
A reminder of the ***** that stunted me.
Free will denied when imposed too young
The deception felt a lot like grief.

If I put a gun to His head
Maybe new meaning can be brought,
To a stain no amount of unlearning can excuse.

- don’t worry
Jesus isn’t dead, he’s ridin’ a unicorn to Narnia

20.04.14
Cuba

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