Erika

Erika Nov 2019

before

I could have recited the wrinkle lines
at the side of your eyes
when you smile
as if they were etched in my brain
like a song
I could not forget to sing

after

But now,
I know you
as well as I know myself

which is

hardly

at all.

Yeah, so I’m single. And heartbroken.

#love #heartache #sadness #new #life #beginnings #relationships

Erika Nov 2019

take a number, and wait

I love to laugh with you

but laughing is not enough

to keep me sane

while I wait for you

to decide

if I’m worthy enough

for a lifetime.

I don’t wanna do this anymore.

Erika Nov 2019

so this is love

I never knew
that I could become
so enthralled
and entrapped
and enamored
by one person

until

I met

you.

Erika Apr 2019

abyss

it took me forever to realize
that the darkness
is fine

just not
all the time.

Erika Apr 2019

like trees walking

As they age,

they grow.

both in strength and in height.

in wisdom and in love,

in spirituality and in truth.

but as they grow externally,

beneath the grass, and the soil,

lay the foundation of the tree,

that sturdy something so powerful.

We are all rooted in different things.

Christ.

Love.

Hate.

Money.

Lust.

Power.

Men are like trees walking.

As we age, we grow.

But what we are rooted in,

that’s what really matters.

Erika Apr 2019

the gospel truth

don’t bite the hand
that feeds you

or break the heart
that helps you

Erika Feb 2019

self aware

my demons
go by the names
depression and anxiety,

and

for as long as I can remember,
I chose not to fight them

except today,

I discovered an angel
in my consciousness,
who goes by happy

and for the time being
my demons
do not
control me.

Hello!

In the past 2 hours, I’ve done more for myself than I have in the past year.

It was never as simple as waking up and deciding to be better than the girl who didn’t want to be. It was a lot of tears, and hurt, and a fire so deep inside I might have ignited the kindling of my own self desire to be happy for the first time in forever.

#depression #anxiety #hurt #pain #love #anger #tears #overcome #worth