some addictions become so entrenched that mind ceases to see them as addictions.

What am I thinking ,

I'm thinking of days gone by,
Warm light
Dark shadows
Corners of my mind
I thought lost forever

I'm thinking of solitude
Gentle rivers flowing
Mighty seas crashing
Skies that cry

I'm thinking about life itself
The  beginning
The end

I never got to kiss you

Hold you

See you

But my heart belongs to you and only you

And i wish you felt the same

But you never felt the same

You said you love me

But your heart was trying to reach for someone you can't have

You were mine

But not really

Because i'm not the one you love

And will never be that someone

I never saw you as my lover

I only saw as my friend

Then i fell, at the wrong time

For there you are now, happily in love with someone else

Why am i so stupid?

I ignored your love

Your efforts

I ignored you

Now you're gone

And here i am wishing

Wishing that i'm still the one

But my wish won't be granted anymore

Because you're now happy with someone else

I need to remember me.

I need to remember myself
and all the good sweet memories that help me pick myself up
and all the bitter-sweat experiences that help me build myself
that help me find myself when often time I am lost.

I need to remember me
and remember to live.

I don't know the word "happiness"

Yes i do laugh even on small things

But i often ask myself

"Am i really happy?"

She broke me, but she saved me from me

She saved me from my dark world

She gave me a reason to cry when i need to

Because of her i learned to let it out

She gave me strength

She made me discovered my fate

She made me discovered the one thing i'm good at

She made me write

She's the reason why i'm still here

And because of that, i've loved her more as a person

She came, she broke me, she saved me